Chapter 9 Nine
Lucianna’s POV
The sun was rising and I was in this corner of my room, seated like a beaten pup, scared and trembling.I don’t know when my tears stopped falling down my cheeks. I didn’t even know that it would even stop, I thought it would go on until I made a river.
What did just happen?
It has been an hour since the pain stopped. He stopped. Jacob…
How could he do this to me?
I started sobbing again, hugging myself even tighter and yet it was not enough.
My whole body was aching, but it couldn’t be compared when I was still being struck by the pain as clips of my mate’s dirty work flashed on my mind.
Jacob, my mate, the person I owe my life to even yet meeting him has cheated on me. How could he do that? We just met last night, and not even an hour passed and he gave me this pain…
It hurts.
Mate! I want mate! My wolf whined inside me.
My wolf kept doing that since I couldn’t remember. While I was suffering from the pain inflicted by Jacob’s infidelity, my wolf--who seemed to not feel the same pain--was howling for him, calling for him, begging for him to come to us.
And he didn’t.
Jacob, he… I lost count of it but he didn’t fuck just one woman. I lost count after his fifth sexual intercourse because the pain started to eat in my consciousness, making everything blurred and heavy.
I wanted to be mad.
But I couldnt.
I don’t think I was entitled to feel hatred towards him, I don’t think I should. I know I asked for the day to have a mate, and whatever Jacob was playing right now does not mean that he could reject me. He was still stuck on me.
If he sees me as a weak wolf, then I would prove to him that I was not. Isn’t that what I aimed for?
What he was doing was probably an act. I don’t know if I was in denial but his actions last night was far from this…rudeness.
I know too much about this mate thing. Jacob was trying to scratch his itch using another women but I know it wouldn’t be enough.
He will come to me. Soon.
The light finally defeated the darkness inside the huge room and so I decided to fix myself and act like nothing happened.
Jacob’s POV
It’s not enough!
I fucked a crowd and yet I was thirsty for more. My heat cannot be sated, it wouldn’t subside, it was not settling down like I thought it would be!
Why?! I claimed her! That should help me be at peace for at least a week and yet…
Fuck!
I rested my head on the chair I was sitting in, a ray of sunlight was hitting my face and I closed my eyes to avoid being blind by it.
And the moment my eyes were close, I see her. I see Lucianna’s face, smiling at me!
Go home. Go to our mate. She’s calling for me, my wolf snarled and I growled. He was not helping in this situation.
I gave in to the pull last night, and her taste was intoxicating. Those full luscious lips tasted too sweet, it doesn’t seemed real!
Fuck!
This was just the bond talking. Nothing more. This was not my feelings.
I was challenged when she showed me her fierce side last night. She didn’t even flinched as she teased me about the difference of my words from my action!
She might not mean it but I felt that she was telling me I was weak. I had to prove her that so I…
Damn it!
What was I even saying?!
A few knocks on my office door made my eyes wide. Brent show himself in, holding a cup of coffee.
“Drink this, I’m sure you need it.” he snapped like a mad wife being neglected. Ugh.
“What’s your problem now, huh?”
“You still went on with your plan, does that made you happy?”
I growled. “Stop being nosy.”
“Your mate must have suffered a handful of pain. This is not healthy for a relationship, Jake.”
“Should I care?” I snarled and raised a brow at him. “If she can’t take it then she is as weak as a lamb.”
Brent didn’t speak but his eyes are throwing daggers at me. I just turned around and ignored him. I would be seeing that face for the whole day so I should get rest away from it.
“Are you really doing this, Jake?”
I sighed. He never knew when to stop.
“What response do you want to hear?” I tsk-ed, getting irritated so early in the morning was not my forte.
“In a few hours, your mate will experience the first wave of heat. What is your plan?”
I snapped my head to look at him. First wave of-- Fuck!
“I can see you lack knowledge on this, Jake. It will be trouble if she went out and meet a wolf with the scent of her heat.”
“I don’t care--”
“If you say so.” he cut to my words and I didn’t like it, as well as my wolf growling right now.
“You should cease to being rude in purpose, Brent. I’m not a morning person and I don’t want to hear your bullshit this early. Be grateful you’re my beta or you won’t receive a warning before I bite off your neck.”
I eyed him for a moment, making sure he got my message. Brent went silent and finally took a step back.
“I hope you know what you’re doing.” he bowed for respect and then left the room.
The moment I was alone, all I could think of was Lucianna and her first heat.
Plan. Plan.
I could go to her and ease her urges without fucking her, right? No, I would be drowned and intoxicated and might lose control like last night.
I sighed.
That was out of my options. I should be far away from her as possible.
‘Harley.’ I contacted my Gamma in our portal.
‘Alpha Jacob. I’m on my way to your mate right now. Almost there.’
‘Good. Don’t let her out of the house.’
It took a minute before he answered. What the fuck? Did my mate already jumped on him?
Fuck. What if Harley get aroused to her heat and--
‘And don’t come near her. Tell her to stay in the house, as per my instruction. And guard her from outside of the house.’
I’m going mad. Fuck this.
‘Crystal clear, Alpha Jacob.’
Lucianna’s POV
I was all fresh and good as new when I went out of my room but my body was only wrapped in a towel. I rejected to wear the clothes inside that fucking closet. I could smell my mate’s scent all over the house and guessed he must have spent a lot of time here.
I wonder why he hasn’t come home yet. Was he still in his rebellious mode? Huh! Like he could win over the bond, I was sure he would come back crawling!
Okay, okay, I needed to be a prim and proper mate for the handsome bastard. No one could escape fate, anyway.
I’d just let Jacob play his game more. He would soon see through me.
‘I’m outside the house, Miss. What should I call you?’ a voice in my head said and I almost jumped. Wait, I knew that voice!
The Gamma!
‘Harley, right? My name is Lucianna but you can call me Luce or Lucy. Won’t you call me Luna yet, though?’
‘I already told you, Miss--’
‘Yeah, yeah. Just call me Lucy. I’m gonna open the door for you, wait a minute.’
‘There’s no need for that. I’ll stay outside but I will keep my senses open so you won’t need to worry about your safety.’
‘I’m not worried about that at all.’ Well, I can pretty much take down any opponent, no matter the size. ‘But why won’t you come in? Also, I need to ask you to take me out. I need some new clothes and my mattress is too big so I’m thinking of having a new one.’
‘I’m sorry, Miss Lucy but Alpha Jacob instructed that you need to stay inside the house. No matter what.’
My jaw dropped. What the-
Okay, maybe Jacob would come home so I needed to stay here.
‘Is he coming home then?’ I would definitely jump on him and wash away the scent of those bitches he fucked last night!
‘He did not say.’
I sighed. What if he wouldn’t and just wanted to lock me in here? Okay, I won’t sit here and wait. My mate and me had to talk!
But should I barge in wherever he was, in a sudden? I think that would make me look like a brusque, and scandalous.
Okay, scratch that. I don’t want my image to be ruined, let’s just reach his portal and hope for a proper conversation.
‘Are you there?’ I said through our mind link. Trying hard, actually. I didn’t receive a response and it was already a whole minute, then two, and there’s no fucking way I would be waiting for a third!
I was about to yell at him but stopped myself before I could. No, no. That’s too unladylike, I don’t want him to think I was--- I sighed.
Let’s just seduce him, then.
‘Hey, I’m naked.’ I blushed from the words I said. Oh fuck! I really was naked, well, inside a towel but still! Was it too much? Oh my, just answer me, you fucker!
No response from him again and my nose were starting to flare!
‘If you won’t answer me then I’ll come to you wearing nothing but a towel.’ I tried my best to say the words in a calm way and I thought I made it sound fine, covering my anger.
‘Really? I dare you.’ he finally answered but damn! The way he had the guts to tease me after doing all that with his whores last night? The audacity of this jerk!
Okay, calm down, Lucianna. He was your mate, the one who saved you from the darkness. See reason for him, give him the benefit of the doubt he doesn’t deserve.
I already decided to forgave him, let him be, let him play a bit. It was better to suffer this than to suffer being alone again. At least, he was talking to me now.
Mate! My wolf aches, wanting, wiggling its tail inside me.
Argh. Okay, I knew how hell-bent we were to him but let’s keep it easy and lowkey.
‘Why can’t I go out? Harley told me.’
‘Call him Gamma, you’re not close with him so stop being in a first-name basis.’ I scoffed from what he said. Was he insane? Was this another tradition in this pack I don’t know about? Like hell I would call him Gamma when I knew his name. ‘There is no need for you to go out.’ he continued.
‘I need a change of clothes!’
‘There are clothes there for you.’
Which one? The clothes of your bitches?!
‘What?! I won’t wear your whore’s clothes!’
‘What are you saying? Those are yours.’
‘Mine? How can you know my size if--’
‘Stop asking stupid questions.’
I was the stupid one now?!
I think you are more of a stupid than I was, Jacob! Trying hard to reject me, using bitches for your sexual cravings. Huh! He must have saw me before the Ball and that was the reason why the sizes of those clothes were too precise!
Well, now I knew I have clothes to wear.
‘I still need to go out and buy a new bed.’
It took him a while before he answer, ‘You already have one.’
‘It’s too big. I can’t sleep in a huge room and bed alone. It terrifies me.’ it was better for him to know who I was, right? My likes and dislikes, well, if he wouldn’t ask about it then I would take the initiative.
‘You are that weak and scaredy-cat?Tsk. Sleep on the maid’s room, or whatever suited for you.’
‘Why don’t you just go home and sleep beside me?’
‘And why would I do that?’
‘I’m your mate! I already forgive you for cheating on me, just come home to me… after.’
My tears started to fall and I was sobbing silently. I hated how hypocrite I sounded, I fucking hated it but I couldn’t do anything about it.
I don’t want to be alone again. I have a mate now, and even if he was flawed and imperfect, I was willing to settle.
Just don’t let me be alone, please…
‘I told you once. Forgiveness is-’
‘For those who asked. Yeah, whatever, I still forgive you. What time will you be home? I’ll cook breakfast.’
I brushed my tears off my face and sniffed, standing up and walking to the kitchen. I already knew Jacob would be a tough case but I don’t care.
I wouldn’t give up on my mate.
There was no response from his side and I started to lose hope that he would come home to me so I continued to look for something to cook.
It was my responsibility to cook my mate a good meal and him eating it does not cover that responsibility.
He still hasn’t answered me and I started sobbing again while beating some eggs. Fuck! This fucking mate bond hurts than I thought!
Whatever. Just… let’s just cook.
‘I’m coming now. Don’t waste my time so you better cook me something tasty.’
Those harsh words made me beamed!