Chapter 36 36

Chapter 36 36
Brent’s POV

We arrived at the Shadow pack and I can’t stop watching Jacob and Lucianna as they walked out of the car.
Jacob looked annoyed, continually frowning but there’s a ghost of smile in his lips while Lucianna was grinning wide behind him. They are walking towards their house now.
The both of them was too bright that everyone will tell something good has happened.
I shook my head. I can’t believe these two.
“We’ll head back to the Hall now, Alpha Jacob.” said Shink, the head of the guards. We came with him and Cidrey, the head of the trackers.
I was walking closer to Jacob and glanced at Lucianna who seems to forgot something inside the car.
“Alright. Meeting will be held tomorrow, resume your works for today.”
Shink bowed and started to walk away.
I rolled my eyes upon what I heard. Well, there’s no extension for the ‘vacation’ we had, huh.
“Jake.” I called his attention and he tilted his head, not taking his eyes off his mate who’s half of the body was inside the car.
“Why can’t she just go on inside if she can’t reach something?” he muttered and I chuckled which made his eyes snap at me. “I’m not giving you the permission to look, Beta.”
I grinned and decided to face Jacob so my back will be facing Lucianna’s semi-exposed legs.
Jacob seemed to be satisfied with what I did so he took his deadly glare off of me and turned to the lovesick puppy eyes as he looked at his mate again.
Laughing hard, I tapped his shoulder.
“God, you’re hopeless. I still wonder what happened to you two. Did you tell her? What did she say?”
Looking now, I think it went well. The lamb was such a forgiving person, huh?
“None of your business, Brent.” he sighed, still looking at Lucianna. “Wait here and don’t move.” he said and walked past me.
I did as I ordered but peaked a little of what’s happening behind me.
Jacob held Lucianna’s waist and pulled her up, carefully placing her inside the car. Lucianna gasped loud and looked at Jacob with surprised expression.
“Pfft.”
Jacob glanced my way, probably heard my suppressed laughter so I was quick to turn my head upfront again.
A few moment of soft argument -- which I was not expecting -- and Jacob’s footsteps were back to me.
“What is it you have to stay?” he asked, his breathing was heavy that I looked at him with doubtful eyes. He frowned. “What?”
Grinning meaningfully, I shook my head.
I can’t help it, okay! I’m happy for them to be in truce, it’s good for the pack’s future.
“Speak and stop smiling like an idiot, Brent. Just say what you need to and go home already.”
“Oh, I can? It’s a pleasure to have a break at work--”
“Isn’t my office your home?” he fired back with a smirk. Ugh. “What is it?”
Sighing in defeat, my hope to prolong my sleep has fallen.
“Your parent’s has booked a flight back. I think they’ll be here tomorrow at sunrise, or even earlier.” I informed.
Jacob hissed and glanced at Lucianna when he heard the car door slammed close.
“This is not a great timing. We’ll talk later--”
“Not just that, Jacob. Roscoe’s ban will be lifted as of today.” Jacob’s face darkened. “We might expect him anytime now.” I continued.
Brent. Later.” Jacob hissed and I know Lucianna might be coming close. His frown shows how much troubled he was from my news. He walked inside the house and when he was gone, Lucianna stopped beside me.
“What’s wrong?” she asked.
I turned to her with a smile. “I think I should ask that.”
She laughed, as if remembering something. I couldn’t help but grin back. Something definitely happened.
“I’ll head in now.” she announced and waved at me before walking to the house.
I nodded and waved back.
I watched the front door closes as she went in, and sighed once alone.
“I hope everything turns out fine.”



Lucianna’s POV

I found Jacob sitting on the edge of the bed when I walked inside our bedroom. He seems lost for thoughts, staring at the wall like that.
“Everything fine?” I asked, careful not to butt in too much.
He looked at me and smiled. “Yeah. Any plans for today?”
“Hmm.” I looked at the window and shook my head.
“It’s still early.”
Does he want to do something?
“How about you?” I asked back.
He pursed his lips and tilted his head. He doesn’t have one, too, huh? But he look like he wanted to do something.
“Nothing comes in mind.”
I nodded slowly. “I’ll rest a bit, I guess.”
“Then I’ll fix something at the Hall. I’ll come back before twilight.” he stood up and walked to me, stopping when he reached in front of me. “Do you want to eat out tonight?”
I pouted. Thinking about it, I haven’t dine out with him.
“Can I? You don’t want to be seen with me, right?”
Which was true, considering that he haven’t held a luna ceremony for me.
He frowned, baffled by my words. I just arched a brow at him.
“Where did that come from?”
“Figured that out on my own. You don’t want me to go out of your house--”
“Our. Our house, Lucianna.”
I snorted and looked away because his gaze started to drown me or something.
“I don’t want you to go out on your own. But if you’re with me then its alright.” he explained.
“How about not having a ceremony for me? And telling the people at the ball to keep their mouth shut about meeting me--”
My words was cut when Jacob grabbed my face with both of his hands. His action was too slow, almost like the time stopped. He looked for my eyes, asking me to look right back at him which he succeeded to do.
“There’s a lot of misunderstanding between us and it’s my fault, baby. I’m sorry.” he whispered.
I groaned inwardly that I think it came out as a moan.
Damn it.
My mind was easily distracted by him, his breath, our skin contact, and that made me curse in my head.
“I don’t want to share you, so I try and hide you. I believed you’re for me. Exclusively. Then, the ceremony means too much eyes gawking at you so…I hated that idea and now, I don’t know if I still have you… by my side, for it to happen.” he sighed and pulled me in a tight embrace.
And I’m not sure if I wanted it still.
I can’t believe the words I’m hearing. Maybe its because of the defensive state of the half of my mind that stops me to think its all true.
But the other half justifies his reason, given the actions he showed. Though, all of it may had two meaning. It’s confusing.
“Y-You called me a flirt.” I insisted his wrongs.
He chuckled, but mostly in a sad way as he sighed after.
“You have no idea how beautiful you are, Lucianna. Your body drives me mad, your face makes me insane, your voice arouses the hell in me. All that made me do crazy things, and say nonsense words. I hate how I see men get swayed by the things about you that lifts me, too. And I didn’t act maturely, I must admit.”
“That is rude, not childish.”
He let me go and looked at me again. I looked back, not taking back what I just said. Jacob doesn’t looked like he was up for a fight but a criminal sitting on the witness stand, confessing his crimes.
“I was rude, I was a jerk, I was selfish. I won’t deny all those now because it always ends up hurting you. Sorry was not enough for all of it but one thing I can promise you is that I changed. For you, Lucianna.”
Oh goddamn hell, I’m being swayed!
Tears build on the side of my eyes and Jacob was quick to wipe it before falling.
“Don’t cry now, baby. I already wasted too much of your tears.” he whispered with a wry smile and planted a kiss on my eyes, then to my forehead. “I’m so crazy for you.”
I punched his chest twice. “I hate you so much, you know!”
Jacob hugs me again, burying his head on my neck. “I know, baby.” he whispered.
I sniffed to stop another set of tears coming. If for him, he was crazy for me, I can’t say the same.
This started with me being obsessed with the idea of the mate bond. It’s not to him, then everything he does made me crawl away with the obsession in exchange of a newborn feelings.
Now, I feel him. Not the bond, not the connection of our fate. Him.
Irony at its finest, here I am. The one denying my own feelings because of the fear to experience more traumatic pain from him.
But I also believe, that I won’t have that again now.
“You can hate me all you want, I won’t complain…” he kissed the skin on my neck. “I deserve it.”
Oh, Moon Goddess, how can I differentiate hate and anger? Was it the same? I’m not even sure of myself now. I pray for light and brightness to take me out of this blurry state of my mind.
“O-Okay.”
Jacob pulled away, slow, like he don’t want to do that yet.
“Rest now.” he said and checked my face for tracks of tears that might be present. “I’ll head back after the matters I needed to attend to.”
I nodded and bit my lip. Why do I feel like I don’t want him to go yet? Can I say that to him? To stay for more minutes?
Jacob groaned and my eyes shut back to his eyes. I found him looking at my lips, his eyes softening before looking at my eyes again.
There was an obvious emotion in his eyes that almost says he was asking if its okay for him to kiss me. And my mind, being in a blur, asked aloud.
“Do you want to kiss me?”
I saw his eyes widened a little but only for a brief second. The shock was replaced with joy and a shade of desire. Or was it desire with a shade of joy?
“Can I?”
I gasped when his thumb found my lower lip, grazing it there softly.
“I-I asked because you look like you want to…” I trembled as I speak. The way he moved his thumb on my lip was so sensual and his palm on my cheek was too warm. It comforts me and at the same time, arouses me.
“I do want to. I want to kiss you every time your eyes looks at me, it’s dangerously inviting that I want more than the kiss.” his hand went on my nape next, making me close my eyes for a second because of the tingling sensation it sent.
Why haven’t you kissing me then?!
“T-Then do m-more…”
Jacob groaned and I saw how his thread of patience snapped the moment his eyes on my lips went up to my eyes. It’s burning with desire, with something more…
Jacob hissed and in the middle of hissing, he pulled me to him, closing the distance of our lips and claiming mine roughly but careful.
I moaned the moment his wet, warm lips touched mine. Quickly, I circled my arms on his neck as I felt too dizzy by his kiss.
Jacob’s hand on my nape guided my head and the other snaked on my waist, pulling me even closer that I tiptoed.
“You always use the most dangerous words.” he said in between kisses, partly growling that shows his hunger for… more.
It arouses me more.
In a swift move, and using his enhanced speed, I was on the bed with him towering above me.
More means sex, right? Am I ready to have that now?!
Jacob’s lips are now on my neck, and he was excruciatingly expert on romancing that sweet spot of my skin!
His hands wanders. One second and it was above my exposed stomach, then now its inside my shirt cupping on my bust that fits perfectly with his huge hand.
“Ah~!” I moaned when he found my hardened peak and flicked it with his finger, pinching it lightly, playing with it! “Jacob--” You’re driving me insane! Was what I wanted to say but he claimed my lips again and swiftly inserted his tongue inside my parted mouth. My words was muffled by my moans.
“Can I, really, Lucianna? Can I do more? Won’t you regret it? Won’t you hate me more?” he shoot every question after each deep kisses and I don’t know how to respond anymore! I’m damned drown by him!
Jacob groaned in pain when he decided to stop the kiss and looked at my weakened eyes. His lips are swollen red and parted and his eyes shows strong endurance of pulling away from me.
“Wh-”
“I can’t promise to stop next time, baby. I’m on my edge…” he grinds his hips and made me feel his aroused manhood, hard and alive and bulging on his pants.
Jacob groaned again and kissed me one last time before pulling himself up and towards the door.
He looked at me again, wandering his eyes on my body that was slightly exposed. I didn’t move a bit on how he left me, I was dumbfounded! Again!
“That’s a warning, Lucianna.” he said in a smirk before walking away.
My mouth dropped and one question was left on my head even after a minute of him gone.
Who’re asking you to stop?!