Chapter 11 Eleven
Lucianna’s POV
“What do you think you’re doing?” Jacob said in a rough and serious voice. He didn’t move and he stood in front of me proud, not even budging.
Am I wrong? Wasn’t he attracted and almost giving in to the bond? What if he was not?
I watched his face and tried analyzing what was on his mind right now. I can still see the same glint in his eyes despite the darkness at the hallway, but am I right? Was that glint meant desire?
“Taking my towel back…” I said in a low, careful voice.
Jacob’s jaw clenched and he held his chin up. The way he gulped hard didn’t escaped my eyes. Can I take that as a hint that he was affected?
“You got it now. Walk away.” he said. His voice was almost a whisper, raspy, and deep.
It sounded rude, and how he said it almost made me back out, run inside my room and lock my doors in shame but I couldn’t.
“No.” I whispered again, staring back at his eyes. Jacob was looking down at me with his head high up. It was supposed to make me feel little, and it does, but I stay still and strengthen my resolve.
Jacob hissed from my answer. It sounded as if he was having a hard time, a very hard time.
“You, opposing me, is starting to annoy me even more.” he said seriously.
I saw how his eyes looked down from my face to my body, down to my toes and slowly moved back up again.
“There is still something mine I needed to take.” I said with courage. I gulped once, twice, as I watched his brow furrow.
I walked closer to him, pressing my naked body to his. He didn’t move, he didn’t budge a bit nor shaken from our contact. My tail started to tuck down but I gather all of my strength not to think that he was not affected.
Him, not moving, was an advantage to me, too.
“You’re mine.” I whispered.
He didn’t moved nor his eyes flutter. He kept on looking down at me with his clenched jaw.
I carefully moved my hand up, letting go of the towel in my hand and letting it fell on the floor. My hands moved from his chest, caressing its way up until my hands was wrapped around his neck.
Jacob’s breathing changed, that was what I noticed and I took that as a hint that he was not affected.
“Kiss me.” I whispered, trying my best not to sound like I’m pleading though inside I am.
Jacob groaned and I thought he will but he stayed still, screwed his eyes shut and tilted up his head. He cursed multiple times under his breath.
What the heck? Was he trying to stop himself?
I’m sure he was because if he doesn’t, why hasn’t he pushing me away yet?
My frustration made me groan softly. I tiptoed and pull his head down, trying to make him face me. I’m initiating the kiss while praying that he will let me.
To my surprise, Jacob’s hands went on my bare waist and grabbed on it hard before pulling me up. My feet left the floor and my legs snaked around his naked torso on instinct, afraid to fall.
My lips was met by his for a deep and rough kiss which trapped my yelp inside his mouth. I’m cradling on his body and my arms were on his neck. His hands went on my butt, cupping on both cheeks with his palm, as hard as he could.
“You’re the one who wants this…” he whispered.
I moaned when his tongue slipped inside my mouth. I responded to his kiss as thirsty as him after recovering from the sudden movement.
I knew it! I am right! He was giving in to the bond’s pull!
I’m no masochist but I loved the way his kisses felt rough and deep, there was wanting and longing in it that couldn’t escape my senses. This might be the mate bond talking for him but its overwhelming me!
Jacob walked and pressed me on the wall, thrusting his hips forward and I felt his raging and hard manhood on my wetness.
I am soaked down there! I can feel it from the way his rod get wet each time it slides on my slit!
“Hmm…” I moaned between our kiss. A tingling feeling kept on building an agonizing edge on my core, I am drowned, I am losing my head!
I kept moaning as I felt his hips thrusting forward and back that causes his manhood to rub against my wetness again and again and again.
Oh no, no, I think I’m coming!
My lips parted as I felt I’m almost on the edge! I stopped responding to the kiss but Jacob continued to nibble on my lower lip as if asking for some action but I couldn’t! I am too engrossed with the waves of pleasure washing through me! My mind seemed to be clouded, I lost the ability to think straight, losing the focus of my goal! I can’t take it!
A long moan escaped my throat when I felt the climax overcoming me whole! My body trembled and I’m feeling hot all over from the orgasm created just by rubbing his cock in my slit!
I heard Jacob chuckled as he stopped suckling on my neck. When did he started kissing my neck?! The pleasure was too much that I lost my senses!
“You’re all words, mate.” he teased me playfully.
My whole face turned red more than it already is, ashamed from how I climaxed fast and easy.
Jacob slowly released me from his hold and my knees wobbled as my feet felt the floor.
Fuck!
I almost got him! I didn’t gave it a thought that I might be the one to drown deep but it just felt so good to be kissed by him, to be hold by him!
And that metal rod rubbing against me intensify it all!
I bit my lower lip as I leaned on the wall and looked up to him. Jacob was smirking at me and I felt humiliated by his playful expression.
“You’re too weak.” he said and shook his head. I feel like my lip will be wounded from how hard I’m biting on it.
Jacob bend down to pick the towel on the floor. He extended each side of the fabric and pressed it on my nakedness. “Stop disappointing me next time.”
My blood boiled but not from anger but on shame and dismay for myself!
I can’t say a word. It was as if everything he had said before makes sense now. He was an Alpha, and he has full power of his control while I got easily swayed by pleasure!
Jacob looked at me again with intense stare. His expression was serious but there’s something more in his eyes! He played with his lips then scratch the side of his head, turning his eyes away from me.
“Get dressed. We shouldn’t miss breakfast.” was all he said before walking inside his bedroom.
My eyes focused on his butt and I blushed more. Even his butt looks inviting to me!
When he turned to close the door, our eyes met again so I quickly wrapped myself with the towel and ran towards my room, slamming the door closed.
Leaning on the closed door, I bumped my head slightly on it.
Damn it!
How can I face him now?
I just lost to him and his game! Now, he will see me as an easy, weak prey! This was not what I planned! I thought he will give in but I made a mess and ruined everything!
I exhaled loudly and grabbed on my hair. I’ll get you next time, Jacob!
My feet feels like it wanted to turn around and head back to my room as I walked slowly towards the kitchen. I can sense Jacob at the kitchen and I’m chickening out with the thought of facing him.
Inhaling deeply, I gathered all the courage and pride left of me and continued walking until I reached the kitchen.
Jacob was sitting comfortably on the chair as he sip on his cup of coffee. He might have made it himself because I didn’t make one earlier.
“What are you standing there for? Sit. The food is all cold because of you.” he said without looking at me.
I pouted as I felt my cheeks burned. Do he need to rub that in my face?
He started putting food in his plate once I’m seated so I grab some for myself, too.
I have a lot to say but stayed silent. We ate without saying any words and the silence was deafening me! It was midway of our meal when I decided to speak.
“Why won’t you mate with me?” I asked. He looked at me for a while before bringing his eyes back to his food.
“You are weak.”
I scoffed. “You don’t know that. You just met me last night-”
“I know you are.” he wiped his lips with a napkin and shifted on his seat to look at me. “I hate weaklings,” he said in grimace. “So until you are, I won’t think of you as my equal.”
“Is that why you fuck other women last night?” I couldn’t help but bring that up. I couldn’t control feeling angered by remembering what he did. “Did you see the bruises you gave me? Oh, of course you did.”
Jacob’s jaw tightened and his gaze darkened. “Weaklings like you deserved it.”
My mouth dropped from what he said.
Why does he keep on calling me weak?! Was he born to criticize anyone without giving a chance to know them more? He could have given me a chance to prove myself!
“So cheating with me was fine?” Every words vibrates on my teeth.
“You can’t handle it?” he smirked. “I’ll give you more,”
I narrowed my eyes at him and processed what he said in my head. So he intend to repeat cheating on me, huh?
I dropped the spoon on the plate, creating a loud sound. Jacob arched his brow and I leaned on the backrest, crossing my eyes as I fought his stare.
“Then give me more, I can take it but can you? Maybe you’re the one who couldn’t handle the bond’s pull so you opted to fucking other girls than me. One was not enough, right? How many did you fuck to satisfy your thirst? Or maybe they didn’t sated you enough because your body is not yearning for those whores but me.”
I smirked when I saw his jaw clenched from what I said. Ha! Did I just hit a button there?
Mate bond was my forte. I know every inch and corner of it, I studied it well!
I thought he will raise hell and argue with me but instead he stood up and chin-up looked down at me.
“You’re getting it to your head too much, Lucianna. Stop disappointing yourself.”
My brows furrowed but before I could respond, he turned around and left.
I am right, though! He wouldn’t fuck any girl if he can handle the call of his urges. Jacob was the one who was disappointing himself and not me!
That night, I got the meaning of his words. Screams of pain enveloped my room again, echoing through the woods, as I crawled on the floor.
He was at it again. And even though I kept thinking that I’m right about him trying to cover his sexual urges by using another woman for it, I know Jacob was right, too.
Another fuck might not be enough for him but he can still do it to me. Now, tomorrow, the next day. Again and again. Then I understand that I’m disappointed truly.
I’m disappointed to myself.
I feel I’m not enough for him. That I am not the one.
That night, Jacob doubled the pain he has given me and which also meant he fucked more girls.
The sun was rising and I could still feel the pain, punching my whole body. I stopped screaming, I stopped crying. I felt numb with the pain.
I flinched from time to time as I feel every excruciating pain but I seemed to mind it less. My head was filled with anger, I didn’t had the chance to sleep and my mind was slowly eaten by the dark.
From every beating I felt in my body because of Jacob’s infidelity, something died inside of me.