A DISASTER
ZARYA'S POV
"Can we talk?"
From the moment, I went out of the dressing room, Zephyrus shocked me. I followed him to the veranda where I and Khal talked a while ago. I looked back and saw Hali, shutting the door to the dressing room. His eyes were confused why Zephyrus wanted to talk to me.
When we reached, like the actual scene I saw before that was how I felt.
"When we were a kid, Hali, Pyro, Raiden, Colden, and I always fought. Don't get it wrong… the fight was a simple thing such as rivalry to toys, favorite omegas maid, even favorite beta… your father's favorite alpha king. We lived in our own pack, me in a Wind Pack and them in their packs." He straightly settled his eyes.
I had no idea why he was telling me these. Somehow it had a reason, therefore, I listened to word by word.
"We're the brothers who used not to bond with each other because people molded us as a rivalry. Rivalry to the Elemental Kingdom's throne. Nevertheless, we broke the walls, the boundaries that separate us." He gazed at me. His usual playful smile and expression were no room on his face now. He was too serious. "Until we are here now. The fight of one king is the fight of the five alpha kings."
"Why are you telling me these, King Wind?"
He showed me how significant this matter by the spark of his eyes. "Please don't ruin the brother's bond of Hali and Colden. Hali might be a mad king, all the time he shouts at Colden, he scolds him, he even punches him in the training, but he cares for him." He moved his head down, avoiding looking directly into my eyes. "When you love a person, stay with him, don't give misinterpretation another one. It might cause trouble you don't anticipate."
I kept silent. It was okay for me if he would give me a lesson about life, or even shout at me. He had the right to do that. I was unaware of what I did. I did not know how to escape from my fault. My head was messed up, unable to think clearly.
He faced me, gave me a smile, and then his smile became a chuckle. "It's hard to be serious. I just need to…" He tapped my shoulder, exhaled heavily, and glimpsed at my back. "I'm not badmouthing my brother… if I were you… I will choose him." He used his lips to point at my back part. When I gazed, Colden was smiling widely while raising an ice cream, offering it to me.
"To Hali, there's no assurance. You better let go, or you'll just give him permission to shatter you plenty of times." He blew another sigh of frustration. "The decision is yours."
The tears thickened in the side of my eyes. Before it rolled down, I shook my head, wiping it away. I walked directly to Colden and joined him, eating ice cream.
I wanted to decline Zephyrus' words. I liked to convince myself that I was hearing false, whilst, my heart knew the truth. Hali would never have an eye for me. I was just a toy for him, someone to fuck, someone who would join him in his dirty play. I tried so many times to move away, to run away from him. Look where I was, still coming back to him, remain letting him do what he desired.
"Mango, avocado, chocolate, or ube?" Colden was asking me what flavor of ice cream I liked to eat.
"Mango." I smiled at him. My peripheral vision could see Hali, he was gazing at us intensely.
What is running inside his head? Is he jealous? Probably, not. He has no heart to feel or no sensation to notify him that he is in pain.
"Here." Colden grinned ear by ear while he placed a bowl of ice cream. "Enjoy."
"You, too." I was licking the ice cream with no energy, sad and deeply drowning in my thinking.
I think I should tell Hali that love him? And when he rejected me, that was the time I must get rid of my feelings for him?
People committed mistakes and face regret afterward when they do not say the content of their hearts. They have no chance to hear out the other half. If only they spoke up and stand for their freedom to confess, probably they have a happy ending. It is a matter of fear and bravery. Fear of what will be their words and bravery for telling what you really feel.
I chose to say what is inside my heart. I swear… I will tell him.
"Give me a minute." I talked about taking leave to Colden. He gazed at me with a question mark in his emotion. He remained silent, just nodding as a reply.
I was about to go to Hali when Sera sat next to her. Automatically, I turned around. "Let me check your wound, King Water."
"Call me King Water again and I will punish you."
My heart skipped beats when the same lines he was always telling me were told to another woman, with the same tone, the same concept, and the same punishment. I smirked sarcastically as I scoffed.
I am a fool. No… I know I am always been fooled, but why did I let him toy me?
"Zarya?" Colden got up, glued his eyes to me, and then gazed at Hali. He was examining what was happening. I knew he was not blind or deaf or no brain, he could conclude.
"Why are you staying at me?" I caught myself asking Colden, the question I wanted to answer by myself.
"Because I'm into you," Colden answered me without hesitation. "I know you can't love me back. I wish I were him."
I shook my head slowly, moving left and right. "No… you are better than him. And if my heart… has the option to choose… I will pick you."
Colden's head moved upright. "Am I in the choices? We both know… he is the only option to your heart."
"Show me how to put you… in the choices."
He put his hands on my cheek. "Let's start here."
When he progressively moved his face to mine, I closed my eyes. Our mouths were pressed together. It was not the first time, but other lips kissing me other than Hali, always made me feel odd. I fought with the feeling of being strange, I let him inside my mouth.
"Fucker." I heard Hali's mutter. I was expecting someone who throw a punch at Colden, no one did. Only the sound of slammed door was heard when our lips continued to move. I just stopped when I saw Raiden walking toward us. He looked up and shook his head.
"My goodness, this is a disaster," Raiden mumbled as his gaze fell on us.