ALPHA JACE'S FOURTH LOVE
ALPHA JACE'S POV
"Alpha." If Venissa would not give me food. I forgot about it. She placed three apples in front of me. "Thank you for yesterday."
"It's nothin一" My words stopped when I saw her face. She was not like yesterday who had messy hair and did not take a bath. I thought he went to the river. Her hair was fixed with a rope. "You look beautiful with that." I pointed at her hair.
"Thank you, Alpha."
I did not respond to her again. She sat beside me and joined me in watching the guards having bloody training.
"Alpha…"
I stared at her as my response.
"Can I ask you a favor?"
"Go on."
"Can I learn to fight?"
My stare rested on her. I could see the courage and confidence in the depths of it. She was determined to study the way how a warrior should be.
"Give me one valid reason." I looked away again to her.
"I want to see my family again. On my way there, I should be a fighter on my own, therefore I can save them."
"I'll teach you, then." My cold expression was visible on my face. She jumped in happiness when I threw the sharp wood at her. "That will serve as your sword."
"Thank you, this is more than appreciation." She had a teary-eyed when she followed me into the woods.
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"Hit harder!" My clench was relaxed when I watched her. She hit me repeatedly. "Too weak to kill an enemy."
"I'm sorry, Alpha. I'll try my very bes一ahh!" Her feet accidentally sank into the muddy surface of the pit. I moved as quickly as I could wrapping my arms around her waist as she was bending down her body. I blinked two times as our faces were almost an inch apart. I gazed at the details of her face. It was true that she had the perfect features, there was no single disgrace in her beauty. Beautiful than any woman I met.
Suddenly, my frozen heart for years had now beaten with warmth. I should not be supposed to feel this. Perhaps I was just sensing it due to my longing for Haya. In my weeks without them, I felt no blood running through my veins. My life had no purpose to live, but when this woman came, offering me food, she provided me with another purpose to be alive.
I pulled her up and looked away. What's wrong with my heart? The last time I felt this was to Ven. I love Haya, didn't I? I love Kaye also, but do not have the same feeling for Ven and this woman… damn it. How can she make my heat pump so fast?
If there was a good thing that my father possessed, that was for being loyal to my mother when he started to fall for her. He just came back to his old self when she died, he raped plenty of women. He became miserable again to forgetting her.
"Sorry, Alpha." Venissa looked down as if she was embarrassed.
"No harm caused." I converted my attention to look into her gorgeous face by gazing at the side way of the wood. "Go back to the site. I'll go to the river."
"Can I go with you, Alpha?"
"Wanna see me naked?" I was unaware that slowly curves in my lisp were formed.
She looked away as she blushed. "No, Alpha. Promise I won't peek."
"You don't like to be alone again? I killed those guards." I turned my back on her. "Follow me."
I felt her footsteps at my back. "They are gone, but the dark memories will remain in my head… forever."
My feet were stuck to the soil. In an instant, I felt the pain in my heart. We were both in the dark, with different degrees of experience, but we were the same. The pain was equal.
"I trust you, Alpha. Bring me wherever you go." The tears were condensed in the corner of her eyes.
"I don't trust myself."
I started to walk towards the river. I was about to jump in the water when she shouted. "Alpha, I'm in love with you!"
Crap. Did I hear it right?
I looked back again at her. I had no knowledge of what monster came into my head when I hurried towards her, pulled the back of her head hard, and heavily pressed a kiss on her lips.
It felt like I tasted happiness again. I played with her upper and lower lips as my hands were moving up and down her back. Sucking. Sipping her lips. Then, suddenly flashes of images came into my head.
"Run… I will give you the freedom to run… for a little time."
"I love you… I love you, Ven. Can you hear me?"
"You are the first and last woman I love until my last breath." I kissed her cheek over and over again as I caressed her belly.
To my little one, I'm so sorry. I was unable to protect you.
"Run… and live your life with the pain. Ask yourself repeatedly how can you stop the sorrow? And if you find no answer… better die."
"I will kill you. I will… kill you!"
My eyes bulged as it awakened me. I automatically pushed Venissa away from me. I gritted my teeth as I was calming myself. "Get over that feeling. It will just harm you."
"But一"
"No but! Did you know what happened to my ladies? They died! I pushed away the other one, so she would not suffer death! If you keep involving yourself with me… your last destination will be the same as them!"
"Are you blaming yourself?" She slowly moved up. "Please don't. The only reason why they died is that… someone killed them. It's not your fault."
"They were murdered because of me. So fuck off! Stay away from me and don't be involved! I will order my guard to send you to where Haya is."
"Sending us away will just weaken you. How can you win the battle when you feel alone?"