THE FAREWELL
ZARYA'S POV
"Someone had control for that matter." Matilda walked back and forth to our front.
I was holding Khal's hand. He was sleeping deeply. My eyes were settled on him while my mind was messed up. Matilda was talking about random things. Her words were not absorbed by my head. It was too complicated.
Queen Haliana commanded me to stay away from Hali, break his heart and we all be in peace. As if it was easy to remove Hali from my life. When the door opened, I knew it was Hali. He walked toward me and kissed my cheek. "Did you eat lunch, Love?"
Love…
If only I could burst out all the content of my heart, I did. Hali's touch on me was warm as if I wanted to drag him to the corner, kissed him, and said that everything would be all right.
But the reality was… no, it would not be. The fact was I needed to get away Hali from my life or else everyone would be in harm. Queen Haliana told me that she knew that Seraphina was in the Human World with one cute angel and a human husband. I could not protect everyone, even though I was the Great Beta. My hands had limitations, I could not scope everyone under my protection. I would not always be there to look after them.
She left me no option.
"Hali? Can we talk?"
Hali just settled his eyes at me for a second as if he was reading my soul. "Hali? I called you love and yet you are calling me l一"
"A serious matter." I stoop up and gazed at the door without emotion on my face.
Can I do this? Can I throw him away? Can I ruin my life? Can I face tomorrow without him?
Not all love . story has happy ending. Not all couples are meant to be.
My head was messed up while I was walking in the hallway. Thinking of my next day. Why this world is so cruel to me? I found the real meaning of happiness through Hali and now it would disappear after a few days.
I managed not to cry when Hali circled his hands to my waist. He did not mind the guard who was looking at us. He did not care about the other royals who were passing by.
"The Great Beta? And King Water?"
"They seem a lover?"
"Is that prohibited?"
Hali ignored all the side comments spreading around. If his father found out, I had no idea what would happen. Alpha King's life was always a big controversy for the whole kingdom. It was called history.
When we arrived at his chamber, I had no idea how to start. Hali sat on the bed, pulled me, and hugged my belly. "Is there something bothering you? You can tell me."
I cleared my throat as I gasped plenty of air and then blew it out. I did that three times, calming my system and giving strength to myself. "Hali, I… should admit it to you."
He gazed up at me with his furrowed eyebrows. For a second he smiled at me. I was captivated by that smile. Before, I was dreaming that one day, he would say he loved me back and now, I finally reached it. So sad that we had to say goodbye to each other for the betterment of everybody. I was startled when he touched my belly.
"I wonder how many weeks to create a baby? Does it has no prince or princess here?"
"What?" I examined his expression. He was totally glad by just thinking of having a family with me.
"I planned to impregnate you."
My mouth moved openly in shock. My heart was ripping into small pieces. "No… no way." I shook my head, disbelieving him.
"We talked about that, didn't we?" Hali recklessly stood up. His eyebrows were forming a wrinkled. "I promised to you. We're gonna get married as soon as my father confirm一"
"There will be no wedding." I looked away as the sting buried in my chest once it spelled out from my mouth.
Hali was stuck to where he was standing. He did not know how to respond to my words. His eyes were just resting on me, managing the gestures of a king in spite of the starting tension between us.
"I don't understand." His jaw clenched. He tried to hold my hand, but I backed away. "What's going on, Zarya?"
I blew an unnoticeable sigh. "I'm sorry. I can't marry you."
He scoffed as he tried to come closer again to me, but I raised my hand, showing him my palm to stop him. "Zarya…"
"I took herbs to make sure that we can't have a baby. You can ask Cora for that." I paused, holding a lot of courage to say what I should say. "I'm done playing." I felt like my whole world was destroyed by that words.
He stayed standing, gazing at me with no reaction. His teeth were grinding, managing the annoyance. "Repeat it."
I gazed at the window. "I'm done playing. I actually have no plan of marrying you. I just did all of this to revenge on you. For all the things you did to me!" I changed my mood into a strong one, forcing myself to act like a Zarya who was in the battle, cold-blooded.
"You are a piece of shit. Remember the night I was pleading to you?" I paused as I showed him no affection. During those years of training, I learned how to master acting skills. "You heard nothing. You didn't see my tears and pain." I walked toward him. Face to face. "They are all right… You are a bastard."
His eyes narrowed, observing every inch of my emotions. His jaw tightened. "I am. You know from the start." He stepped forward to me, resulting in me moving backward. He cupped my chest and observed directly into my eyes. "You are a liar. Tell me you are just kidding."
"No, I am not." My voice was thinking, standing for my goal: To break his heart until he is the one who takes me out of his life.
"Say it." His tone was possessing authority.
"I want revenge on you. I never love you. Never!" I was shocked when he held my jaw, dragging me to the wall. I felt the coldness of the wall on my back.
"So you were saying… all the things you showed me…your emotions, your love, your admiration… is not real?" Automatically, the Hali before, the one who was manipulative, ruthless, and heartless came back. The one that I hated.
I gulped my saliva, and cleared my throat, gathering all the courage together before I answered back. "Yes. I will never ever love a man like you." I moved my face closer to him. "You are a monster."
He rolled his eyes, shaking his head from left to right. "This is bullshit. You are bullshit!" He raised his fist and was about to punch me in the face, but suddenly he stopped, and move away. I could see the giggling in his jaw. "Get the hell out of my sight!"
I walked forward to him. "Does it hurt to be fooled? You started. I ended."
I could see the overloading fire in his eyes. He just calmed himself and I had no idea where he learned it. When I moved away from him to be in the Battle Of the Beta, he was the Hali who could not control his anger. He could now relax on his own without his brothers. Without someone who could whisper and say he should stop.
"Get out." He turned his back on me. "I don't wanna talk to you… anymore."
The tears were peeking in the corner of my eyes. I gripped my warrior suit tightly to support my body. "Farewell, King Water."
He sealed his mouth, walking away from me. Just like that, no long conversation. In an instant, Hali became silent, a cold treatment. I could not understand what was spinning in his head.
Does his love for me not that deep? That is why he just let me go?
I stepped away from him. I was about to open the door when he spoke up. "From now on… avoid our way to cross."