Chapter 5 - Alpha Daniel

Alpha Daniel pov

I stared at her lifeless face. I do not know how long I had been sitting by her side when Ben came in behind me. He looked disappointed, and I already knew we had known each other all fucking life, and I already knew I had lost control! What the hell was he standing there looking at me judging for?!

I turned, still angry when he came forward and sat down on the chair opposite, so we had Allison between us, and I had not looked at him yet. I ignored his cold blue eyes staring at me. He was not beta now, and he was my friend.

“soo... she survived….” Ben was surprised… I was, too… anyone else would have died, should have died… but not Allison… I looked guiltily at her neck was completely covered with bandages. They said it was already healing, and I finally turned around and met his staring gaze.

“I saw her hand. She's something else, I'm not even sure she's even a full wolf….” his eyes moved from mine now to her as I growled without being able to help it, she was mine, and he would keep his eyes off her! I was about to get up when he looked at me again, amused by my anger. It was easy to get angry; it was in my nature, my blood, but I was mad because everything felt like…fuck, and I had no one to take it out on except those who came near me.

“Is she marked now? Or did it count as that when you tore off the throat of your mate?" Ben's words made me feel worse. Yeah, I did hurt her bad. The first few hours, I thought she wasn't going to make it, looking so small in the hospital bed, all stitched up and drained. My beast was exhausted, too; this was all my fucking fault.

“I do not know….” I just said it apathetically now. What the hell of a protector I was… I could take on anyone and protect my pack but not my mate, the only one I would give my life for.

“Maybe you should leave her alone.” He said it seriously when I stared up from my hands. Was he completely fucking stupid!? He knew how long I had been looking for her, and now that she was here, I would stay away!? I snorted as he shrugged. His words did not matter. I was the one who decided in the end. I decided everything.

“Are you fucking insane!?” I felt the anger pumping through me as I stared at him and cursed. I would damn well hit him if he said another word about it, beta or not.

“I do not know… but if you continue like this… yes… then you will not have any Luna whether you want it or not.” He said it dried when I got a scornful smile. He should shut the hell up. He had n mate, and what the hell did he know about anything.

“she's not going anywhere.” My words were clear, and my words were law, and he nodded now without hiding that he thought it was a wrong decision, fuck him.

“And you’re girlfriend? Sabrina?” He said her name like he fucking didn’t know it before he said it as I scoffed at him. Sometimes I wonder why I keep him around at all.

“you know the only reason she is here is to please her fucking father’s wishes. She hates me since she found out that I was going to dump her ass in public for Allison...."

A smirk creeps on my face, a stupid bitch that thought she had me just because she got into my pants, she was nothing more than a whore, and I would never touch any woman again. That show on the dancefloor was because I wanted Allison to see it, make her suffer the same jealousy that I feel every damn time she denied me my right over her and told me she never was going to be my mate!

“She not my fucking girlfriend!” I sneered the last part as I took Allison’s hand in mine, my beautiful angel; if I could kill myself to make her better, to never have attacked her, I would have… I sighed as Ben finally left, but I was a monster, a fucking monster… I squished her hand more, I knew she would never forgive me, but I could not let her go. I was a selfish bastard, and I knew it. Never be sorry about anything or anyone in my life until I meet her.

“Daniel…” my heart stopped beating for a few seconds, and then it hammered against my chest! She was awake! She was fucking awake!? I kissed her hand so many times, begging for her forgiveness, but I only saw her stunning silver eyes on mine, and she smiled faintly at my presence; maybe you should forgive me? I had already gotten my hopes up. Her eyes snapped, and she realized what had happened, what I had done to her.

“You monster! what have you done!?” She looked adorable, saying those awful words at me that I had to stop myself from smiling at her perfect face. She was so mad. She had every right to be, but I wasn’t going to let her go, not after what happened before I attacked her. She wanted me, and as she realized it or not, she was the one who turned her neck up against me, practically begging me to mark her.

“Allie baby, I’m sorry…” my voice was low and full of regret now. I had no excuse; I lost it when she said she was leaving, and that’s the truth.

“Don’t fucking call me that!” Her voice hisses at me now, and before she even tries to take a step away from the bed, she’s in. I’m stopping her, pushing her down into the bed, her head onto the pillow, not wanting her to get up and risk her wound reopening again.

She looks at me angrily, and I lean in closer. I can’t help it, I know I’m the one who put her in here, made her scream and suffer, but I can’t pull away from her mad eyes that glitter when she takes a long breath looking into mine.

“I love you, Allison,” I said it even before I realized it, and she realized all air up on my face making me smile now that her face was in shock. I couldn’t tell if she decided it was good or bad.

“I love you too, Daniel.” My heart makes some hard thumps in my chest and then goes completely silent.

Did she say that she loved me!? I’m fucking panicking right now, and I don’t know why. I’m so used to her refusing me that it feels almost awkward having her loving eyes upon me, as I never tried to kill her… well, not tried, but she almost didn’t make it… I sigh and pull away; maybe Ben is right, I should leave her... live my days alone and tormented; that would be a fitting punishment for my crime.

“Dan?” Her voice is raspy, shaken from my sudden rejection and the part that I fucking ripped her throat out… I suddenly can’t even look at her, stricken with guilt. I get up fast as she looks at me with her big, beautiful silver eyes that start tearing up because of me… again.

“You were right, Allison. We can’t be together.” I push the last word out of my mouth as I hear the sobbing from her bed coming into full blow now. I want to do nothing more than turn around and hold her, make her feel like everything will be okay… but it’s not. I almost killed her... I shake my head at my heart, trying to get myself to turn around. She is better without me, with her boyfriend who never will hurt her.

“Don’t leave me… please….” I flinch as she reaches out and holds my hand, it's so small in mine, so soft, and I would hold it forever if I could. Still, I can’t… my own fucking tears are building up as I pull my hand from hers and swallow my saliva down hard; it's time to let her be free.

“I, Alpha Daniel Turner, reject you, Omega Allison White, as my mate.” I feel a sharp pain in my chest saying the words, and she feels it causing us both to pant hard at the pain, making me want to die on the spot.

“Why?” Her voice is so small now, accusing and broken; this is what she wanted. I don’t answer her question and walk away with the sound of my fucking heartbreaking.

Omega Allison’s pov

I didn’t understand. One minute he told me he loved me, and the next, he rejected our bond as mates… I should feel relieved that it was finally over. Still, instead, I had a constant ache in my heart that made me weaker, like I couldn’t lift my arms without effort or even walk at a brisk pace. I am utterly destroyed.

I spent a few days left in the hospital room in the mansion, praying he would come around to his senses, but he never did, so I stopped crying and wished he had killed me instead; that would have been easier than feeling like my life had no purpose or meaning anymore.

I’m still an omega. Nothing has changed on that part. He still is the Alpha, only now I’ve heard people gossiping about his choosen mate, the one he danced with, that she will be his mate, his Luna. I can’t control my anger anymore; I’m so fucking mad at him that I want to kill him. I thought about it, sneak my way in and kill him in his sleep, him and that skank that has taken my place!

I stare at the dirt bed I’m kneeling on. He left me down here, said he loved me, and left me. I had never felt so betrayed my whole life, like a knife stabbing me repeatedly in my heart until I begged for mercy, and then I started all over again.

I’m stabbing weed with my small shovel; I wish I could stab him with it… I sight and throw it on the ground in front of me… as if I could kill him; it doesn’t matter if he has rejected me; the bond is still there, intact, just not as strong. However, I still feel him, the few times he has come near me even if I can’t see him… I’m fucking pathetic, and I know it, wishing for just a small glance from him, a smile or a touch... I shiver at the thought of his hands on me, and then I get sad all over again, so just an ordinary day in my life after him.

I know he tried to kill me; I’m not stupid, but… he’s an Alpha, and they are highly aggressive. I should have kept my mouth shut and let him mark me as he wanted... I never thought in my life that life would be so unbearable, so awful, and miserable without him; during my absolute darkest moments, I’m ready to get a knife from the kitchen and put a stop to this never-ending going heartache that’s been ravishing me for more than three fucking weeks, and it never fades away… I pick up my shovel again. Life, has not changed for me.

I’m still an Omega working down here. I was never rebellious or cared about doing all the worst tasks. I was content, but not anymore. I barely can’t take it when some fucking guard is trying to mouth off to me. I have no problem looking anyone in the eye these days, which has led to some serious beatdowns I have gotten during these weeks.

So I’m going to run away. I can’t take it anymore. I rather live as a rouge than under the rule of the alpha that rejected me and his pretty little skank that’s going to be the Luna… my eyes narrowed at the thought of them kissing, or worse, fucking.

I wish I could drop everything now, but I have to wait. I may not be worth a damn thing to anyone in this pack, but I’m still in it, and who would do all the fucking chores they are making me do if I leave? And Daniel… I sigh… I don’t know; some of me know he will probably hunt me down, dragging me by my hair if he must, even if I don’t want him as his mate anymore.

Daniel can still feel the bond to, demanding him to protect me… I snicker a silent joy free laughter. Some fucking protector he is could even get me out from my Omega rank like he knows that if I’m still here, he can find me, and he doesn’t have to see me. I know the guards are keeping more tabs on me these days, making it harder for me to escape.

I feel trapped in a snare, and no matter what I do, it gets tighter around my neck, making it harder for me to breathe, suffocating me slowly.

I’m getting out of here, and if he finds me and kills me for it, so be it!