Chapter 61

He left the kitchen with blood dripping from his knuckles. I know he won't bandage his hand with this anger of his. I tried to give him pain but I failed every time because it caused more pain to me.

I wiped my tears with the back of my hand and tried to follow him but as soon as I took a step everything became blank in front of my eyes. Last thing I know my body falling on the cold floor while tears fall from my half-open eyes.

Everything was blank in front of my eyes. I could sense everything but my eyes refused to open and clear the blackness in front of my eyes.

My head hurts so bad. The only thing which I could sense was the cold floor and something dripping from my head and that sensation was slowly taking my consciousness completely, slowing my breathing.

Ugh, why my head hurts so much.

I thought and tried to open my eyelids but they felt so heavy like they didn't want to lift them and get exposed to the light. I felt some minor pain in my body.

Why my body is feeling like that. God, why can't I open my eyes?

I moved my face on the pillow side to side. Things that happen before I lose my consciousness run in front of my closed eyes making fear run in my blood.

My baby. My baby is ok.

In a panic, I tried to move my hand to my stomach but my right hand hurt so much when I tried to move it. My left hand felt like it was caged in a tight grip.

God, what is happening around me?

The thought of my baby not being ok made my eyes short open and I found myself in an unfamiliar room.

Where am I?

I moved my eyes in the room taking in my surroundings. White-colored walls and IV droops were attached to my right hand.

I'm in the hospital.

An unknown relief passed through my body and I felt like my baby was safe. My eyes moved to the left side of me and I saw the sleeping face of Zanvil who was holding my hand strongly in his hand.

Like I would run away from this hospital as soon as I opened my eyes. My gaze was fixed on his sleeping face. His hair looks like he moved his hands in it so many times. It’s his habit. He does it when he is stressed out. His eyebrows were furrowed; he was in deep worried thoughts in his sleep too. His other hand was resting near his face and it was still not bandaged. His wounds were still open. Blood on his knuckles was all dried up. I knew he wouldn't even get bandaged because of his stubbornness.

Sometimes I don't know if I should be madder at him or more worried about him.

I kept staring at his sleeping face with my thoughts running in my still hurting head. I rarely get to stare at his sleeping face. Most of the time he is the one who does it without even blinking his eyes. I felt him moving his face like he felt I was staring at his sleeping face. Before he could open his eyes I closed mine tightly.

I don't want him to know that I was looking at his sleeping face. I felt him moving my hand in the air and then I felt his lips on the back of my hand causing a tingling sensation in that area and at the same time, I heard the door opening sound and steps coming near us.

“Mom, why did you come so early?” I heard him asking her.

“So you can go home and get fresh,” mom said to him while moving her hand on my face to check my body temperature.

“Mom I'm not going home any time soon. You should have stayed at home with dad” he said in his worried voice.

“He is the one who sends me and he is coming here. So you go home and get showered and then come back. You have not been out of this room from yesterday,” she said in a concerned voice.

What if I'm in the hospital for the whole day and night?

“No mom I'm not going anywhere. Tell dad not to come and rest at home I'm here” he said in his stubborn voice like always.

I know he won't listen to anyone and do what comes to his mind. Their conversation made me open my eyes and look at them. He was still holding my hand in the same grip while talking with mom. I tried to speak but my throat felt so dry making it hard for me to speak.

“Jane” mom said in her happy voice when she noticed that I was awake. Zanvil immediately turned his face to look at me. Relief washes over on his face. He sensed that I was asking for water. He immediately filled the glass of water and brought it near my lips, making me drink it after lifting my bed for me to sit. “Thank God you woke up. I will go and call the doctor,” mom said and went out of the room, and in a few minutes, she came with the doctor.

He is a middle-aged man. He smiled at me and then started checking me and then wrote something on his notepad. “Everything is fine, she is doing well,” he said with a smile.

Why did the doctor say I'm doing well? Why did he say anything about my baby?

That thought caused increased anxiety in me. “How is my baby doing?” I asked in a panic-filled voice.

“Calm down Mrs. Adams. Babies are doing great. Don't stress yourself” the doctor told me to calm down.

My eyes widened in shock and I felt Zanvil squeezing my hand when he listened to it too. “Babies,” I said in my shocked voice while seeing a doctor then involuntarily I shifted my gaze to Zanvil. He was looking at me with the same expression.

“Yes, you are expecting twins” the doctor replayed with a smile.

“Really,” I asked again with a big smile to confirm it. The doctor nodded at me to confirm it. I looked at Zanvil and he smiled so brightly at me. Stress was all gone from his face when the doctor confirmed it. Now his tense face was showing only pure happiness. He bent down and kissed my forehead to show his happiness. His small action warmed my heart.

I know he will love the baby no matter what.

“O God what happy news it is,” mom said in happiness. “My babies are expecting twins,” mom said with happiness while hugging me.

“Ouch,” I said as mom hugged me in happiness tightly while causing pain in my right hand.

“Sorry dear,” mom said with a sorry face.

“No mom I'm fine” I replied with a smile but my hand was still hurting.

“Careful you sprained your right arm when you fell. Don't put pressure on it” he said after seeing my reaction.

“But the doctor who confirmed my pregnancy didn't inform me that I was expecting twins,” I asked with furrowed brows.

“One can not predict what you are expecting twins by only doing pregnancy confirmation. We need to do sonography for it and generally, the first sonography is done in the eighteenth week and you are now in your tenth week but before it is also done in the sixth week for your due date and I think you guys never did it. Yesterday looking at your unconscious state we need to know the status of your baby. So we had to do sonography and it confirmed that you are expecting twins and they are perfectly fine” he replied with a smile while explaining everything. I nodded my head in understanding.

“But doctor why she had a sudden blackout,” Zanvil asked with furrowed brows in his serious voice.

“Her blackout happens due to stress or mental fatigue. It's natural to happen in the early stages of her pregnancy. Her body is carrying two life inside her womb and her body is getting used to it. As you know, hormonal changes take place now, and while doing that if some external pressure or maybe unwanted things are triggered in the brain. It causes the blackout but it's not good if it happens again after she crosses that stage of pregnancy” the doctor informed us in his serious voice. When Zanvil heard it his face got tense. He stood there lost in his thoughts. “But now you are fine and your baby's too. Just try not to stress yourself and eat healthy food balanced with lots of veggies,” the doctor said while looking at me with a friendly smile. I nodded my head and said my thank you to him with a smile.

“When can we take her home,” mom asked the doctor when he was about to leave.

“We just need to do some final tests and then we will discharge her” he informed mom and then he left.

“Jane you rest. I will go and call your dad to give him this happy news” mom said while moving her hand on my head in affection. I nodded my head with a smile on my lips and rested my head back on the pillow. He was still standing there and holding my hand in his. He was lost in his thoughts.

“Can you let go?” I asked him. Coming out of his thoughts he looked at me and furrowed his brows in confusion. I gestured to him by lifting my grip hand in the air. He nodded his head and taking a deep breath he freed my hand from his grip. I didn't expect him to let go of my hand that easily. As soon as he freed it I moved it to my stomach in affection.

I'm carrying two lives inside my womb, my babies.

That thought caused a small smile to play on the corner of my lips. I felt his gaze on me and I lifted my eyes to look at him. He was observing my actions. A small smile was on the corner of his lips too. I don't know why seeing his face caused this unknown piece in my heart.

He clears his throat “Are you hungry?” he asked me while moving his injured hand in his hair. He winced slightly when his movement caused him pain. I nodded my head because I was feeling hungry but I needed to do something about his hand. But the thing is I know he won't listen to me that easily. “I will go and get you some soup,” he said and left the room. After ten minutes, a nurse came with a tray in her hand followed by Zanvil. Giving me a smile she set the tray in front of me and then removed my IV drops and left the room. I kept staring at the soup. It was normal chicken vegetable soup but still, its aroma made my stomach growl in hunger. But I kept looking at it. I know he is looking at me with furrowed brows. “Why are you not eating it,” he asked me when I kept looking at it. I lifted my head and looked at him.

“I will eat it when you bandage your hand,” I said while gesturing to his hand.

He looked at his hand like he noticed it for the first time. Then again fixed his gaze on me and said in his calm voice “I will do it when you're done with drinking it. Now have it before it gets cold.” But I refused to do it.

I need to act stubborn like him to make him do things that I want him to do. Breathing heavily, he called the nurses, and then she cleaned his wound and bandaged it in front of my eyes. Then he gestured to me to eat while fixing his gaze on me. Satisfied I tried to move my right hand but it pained so I tried with my left hand but I spilled some soup back in a bowl while trying to eat it.

He was observing me the whole time. He took a spoon from me and fed me till the bowl was empty and it was so tasty. After I was done eating and taking my medicine I rested for some time. The doctor again did some final tests on me and he gave me a green signal to go. Then after I got changed in my clothes with mom's help and got rid of the hospital's dull clothes. The nurse put a brace on my sprained hand and explained to me how to do it. I don't know why Zanvil was hearing her carefully and asking a question about it. Like he is the one who has to wear it. I have two wear it for two weeks to get rid of my right-hand strained muscle pain.

“Ready to go,” Zanvil asked, coming into the room when I was ready.

“Yes,” I said and stood up but again I felt slightly light-headed and sat back on the bed to balance myself.

“Jane,” he came running to me. “Are you not feeling good again,” he asked me in his worried voice while cupping my cheeks in his hand, spreading a tingling sensation on my face.

“No I'm fine I just want some water,” I said in my calm voice. He immediately filled a glass full of water and made me drink it. While drinking it l kept looking in his worried eyes he too stared back in mine. When I was done I cleared my throat and said “Let's go mom must be waiting for us,” saying I stood up. Before I could take steps in the direction of the door he lifts me in his arms in bridal style taking care of not harming my hand. His action caught me off guard causing me to gasp in suddenness. “Zanvil what are you doing,” I asked in my shocked voice.

“Taking you home,” he said in his calm voice while moving out of the hospital room.

“Like this, just to let you know I can walk,” I said to him to let me down.

“Yeah I know,” he said in his mocking tone and saying that he kept walking. All the people were looking at us with an aww face. If only they knew the truth. Why are they staring at us? Have they never seen a man carrying women in his arms? They kept looking at us till we were out of the hospital. My face was red as a tomato and I hid it in his hard chest till we reached out. In half an hour we reached home.

“How happy I'm after seeing you perfectly fine,” Dad said in happiness and hugged me. “I'm so happy for babies too,” he said, still hugging me. I smiled at him brightly.

“Careful her arm hurts,” mom said to dad so he won't put pressure on my hand.

“Jane dear, go and rest. When it's dinner time I will send Rose to inform you. Zanvil takes her to your bedroom,” mom said to him. Why does she want him to take me up so I can go on my own?

“Yes, mom can you just send something to drink,” I asked because I was feeling so thirsty.

“Yeah I will send some juice for you,” she said with a smile. Nodding at her I left with him following behind me. Reaching the room I rested myself on the bed and he was keeping my medicine properly with my eyes following him. Rose came with a fruit juice after a few minutes of drinking it I rested my back on the matters.

After he was done with everything he came near me and said “You rest now. Intercom me if you need something” he gave a short smile and pulled the blanket to my chin. I nodded and closed my eyes to avoid his eyes which were looking at me differently. Dinner time came quickly and again Zanvil helped me to eat.

God, when will I get rid of this brace? I was in my closet taking out my pajamas to change. But how will I change into it myself without any help with this thing on my right hand? Everyone already went to sleep and I don't want to call them here by disturbing their sleep to help me. Guess what, I have to sleep in this cloth. I don't know why that thought is making me irritated. Getting frustrated about it I went out and sat on the bed while sculling.

Zanvil came out of the bathroom wearing only sweatpants like always. “Why are you sitting like this? Don't you want to sleep? Are you not feeling well? Are you feeling light-headed again” he asked in his worried voice with a frown.

Listening to him I glared at him and opened my mouth “I'm good. I'm setting myself up like this because I have no one to help me in my pajamas and I can't do this on my own” I blurted in anger. I don't know why I'm angry.

He kept looking at me for the whole two minutes like he was making the toughest decision of his life and then breathing heavily he opened his mouth “Come I will help you” he said in his calm voice.

I glared at him but something happened in my stomach. I don't want his help. After being so rude to me that day now he wants to help me. Is that the reason why you don't want his help or are you afraid of something else? My cheeks burned red thinking about it. “I don't want your help. I will sleep in this cloth,” I said in my stubborn voice.

“Stop acting stubborn. We both know you won't feel comfortable sleeping in these clothes and there is nothing I haven't seen about your body. So there is nothing to hide from my eyes” he said while making me stand and moving me to our closet. My cheeks burned redder after hearing him. That is the reason that I'm afraid of it. I was a little shocked after hearing his reply. I was expecting him to be angry after hearing my reply but he replied calmly.

He removed my simple nightie and came near me. Removing my hand from the brace he helped me with my top and jeans. I closed my eyes unconsciously when his hands brushed on my bare skin. I looked at him but he didn't spare me a glance and kept helping me with my clothes. Like it didn't affect him seeing me in my underwear. He was purely engrossed in the wroke which he volunteered me to help. He again helped me with a brace after making me wear my nightie.

“All done now you can sleep comfortably,” he said while strapping the brace with a small smile.

I don't know why I walked out of the closet in anger leaving him alone there. Stomping to our bed I lied on my side and closed my eyes. A few minutes later he came out of the closet and covered me with the blanket. I didn't open my eyes to look at him. The lights were off but I didn't feel the bed dipping down beside me. After a few minutes, I opened my eyes to look at him on his side but he was not there.

Where did he go?

I switched on the lamp beside me to find where he was in the room because I didn't hear any door opening sound. So he is still in the room. When I moved my eyes in our room I found him sleeping on the couch which I didn't notice earlier.

When did he shift it back to our room? Why is he sleeping on it?

His arm was resting on his temple with a blanket covering him till his waist. Is there something wrong with him? He is acting strangely. He did not even once get angry at me the whole day and now he is sleeping on the couch. When he was the one who threw it out so I won't sleep on it. Why are you thinking so much about it? Isn't it good that he is doing what you want? Isn't it a miracle for you that he is not acting stubborn anymore? You should be happy that he has finally understood that you don't want to sleep with him on the same bed. My inner voice tried to put some sense in my head.

Yeah, she is right I should not think about it so much. This is what I want from him. To stay away from me. And he is doing it without any protest so I should be happy about it. I should not stress so much about it. It's not good for my babies. I switched off the lamp. Taking a deep breath to relieve my stress nerves I moved my hand on my stomach in affection. Wishing my babies the goodnight I drifted to sleep but it didn't come to my eyes anytime soon.

The next day he again helped me with my clothes with my food and it continued till my hand brace was removed. Now it's been almost a month and a half. I'm now four months pregnant and my belly is bigger now. I hand my all check-ups done and my babies are healthy. Zanvil accompanied me to all my checkups without fail. He always held my hand while accompanying me to the hospital.

Yes till now he has only held my hand and he is still sleeping on that couch. Everything is going well and that is what pisses me off so much. He is behaving so strangely with me. He is not being himself. He always maintained his distance from me. Not even once he took advantage of touching me in front of mom and dad. Nowadays it's hard to find his attention. He would not spare me a glance, not more than five minutes. He does that five-minute courtesy on me just to ask if I'm doing well or are babies doing fine, I'm having pain or I'm having my meals properly and it's the end of his spare time for me. He won't even look at me for the whole day. I don't know what is happening in my life.

“Here comes your weird smoothly with lots of cucumbers and chocolate ice cream” I heard Nina's voice and I was out of my thoughts.

I ignored her last part “Thank you,” I said while taking a sip from it.

“How can you drink that thing?” said Matt with a horrified expression on his face.

“It tastes good wanna, try,” I said and while moving my glass to him.

“No, I'm fine,” he said while wrinkling his nose with weirdo's face. “Side effects of being pregnant” he murmured under his breath.

Nina and Hazel laugh looking at his face. We all are meeting after a long time as Matt came back from his fashion week. Now he is a famous designer in the city. We became very good friends after that charity event and here we are sitting in the cafe to celebrate his last night's successful show. “It tastes good,” I said, defending my side.

“Yeah I trust you,” he said while waving his hand. I know he doesn't.

“Whatever,” I said and took a sip. He thinks it doesn't taste good but it tastes so heavenly. The cucumber's freshness and chocolate melt in my mouth.

“The guy who was taking orders. Looked at me with a mad look when I told him to make this. So I had to tell him this is for a pregnant lady,” she said and everyone laughs except me.

“Very funny. I will make fun of your weird food cravings when you are pregnant” I said in my challenging tone while taking a sip.

“At list you know it's weird. Thank goodness I'm out of it,” Matt said while signing in relief making us laugh.

“So guys what were you talking about before I came,” Nina asked, taking a bite of her sandwich.

“Ahh, nothing much. We were just observing this pregnant lady over here. She was busy making a weird face while thinking” he said to Nina while laughing.

“Why were you moving your head while thinking and then suddenly you furrowed your brows and again moved your head in denial,” Hazel asked me.

“Ahh it's nothing,” I said with a little red face. I made those gestures thinking about my devil's husband.

“Are you stressed over something?” Nina asked me while squeezing my hand lightly encouraging me to speak and Matt and Haze both were giving me the same expression. Looking at their faces I sing in defeat.

I can't hide it anymore. I need to tell them.

“It's just Zanvil is behaving differently around me,” I said while playing with my straw.

“Like what,” Matt asked me to elaborate it more.

“He is behaving like how I was expecting him to behave with me before and I should be happy about it that he is finally doing what I want but now it's pissing me off so much. He is not being himself around me” I said in an irritated voice. I explained to them all. Like how he is being away from me and how he is behaving differently.

“He doesn't look at you. He just asks you about babies and not behaving like himself” Matt asked to confirm. I nodded my head. “From all this, there is only one conclusion coming out of it,” he said while holding his hand around his chest and moving his head in understanding.

“And what is it,” I asked in curiosity.

“He is cheating on you,” he said. Making my eyes widen in horror.

“What,” I said with the same face.

Listening to him Nina smacked on his arm. “Don't put rubbish things in her brain,” she said to him.

“Ouch it hurts,” he said while rubbing his arm.

“I'm not putting something in her head. I'm just concluding it out of the things she told us. It's just my hypothesis men tend to cheat on their pregnant wife,” he said while still rubbing on his arm.

Nina glared at him after looking at my horrified face and said “Don't listen to this idiot. We all know Addams is an ass. Stupid as hell but he is not a cheater” she tried to convince me but Matts words were roaming in my brain.

“Yes Nina is right as far as I know Zanvil he would never cheat on you,” Hazel said while confirming Nina's word with a small smile. I looked at both and gave them a fake smile.

Then Nina changed the topic. After some time we left the cafe. On my way, I was still thinking about Matt's words but I got interrupted by a Zanvil call. He has probably called to ask the same things “Hello,” I said.

“Where are you? I found you nowhere in the house when I came back from the office” he asked from another side in his impatient voice. Is he angry? His question caught me off guard as if he cares about my whereabouts nowadays.

“I was out with girls. I'm on my way home,” I said to him. I heard him taking a deep breath.

“Did you have your medicine?” he asked in his calm voice.

I knew it. He was calling me for this only.

“Yes,” I said in my irritated voice.

“I called you to tell me that I'm going out for dinner, so eat your dinner on time and don't forget to take your vitamin tablet after it,” he said in his calm voice. Why is this informing me of this? When he is the one who chooses not to talk more than five words with me in the whole day.

Because he doesn't want to call you in the middle of his dinner date to ask you that.

My inner voice mocked at me. Listening to it a sharp pang of jealousy hit my heart. Without replying to him I cut the call. My phone rang again but I ignored it. Is he cheating on me? My phone rang again, getting irritated. I took the call. “What,” I said in anger.

“Are you ok? What happened? Why did you cut the call?” he asked in his concerned voice. I listened to him while biting my lower lip in anger.

“Yes everything is fine you go and enjoy your dinner meeting,” I said last words with pure hatred and cut the call.

Matt's words were still rooming in my head. As much as I wanted to take it out of my brain but I couldn't. Why do you even care, Jane, didn't you want him to stay away from you and he is doing it and you didn't even want to stay with him in the first place. You are only staying with him because of babies and what after babies are born. What are you going to do to leave him? And if you are planning to leave him won't it be better for him to find another partner to spend his life with. Tears dwell in my eyes when I think about him spending his life with another woman. I couldn't even imagine him standing with another woman holding my babies in their arms.

Is that why he threatens me to take my babies after they are born, he won't even make me part of their life. Was he planning from this starting? Tears rolled down my cheeks. Reaching home I directly went inside my room and burying my face in the pillow. I cried my heart out. I won't let him take my babies from me. I won't let him do that with me. I don't know when I drifted to sleep thinking about it.

I woke up when I felt fingers caressing on my cheeks and tugging my loose strands of hair behind my ear. That touch was giving me the tingling sensation which made me open my eyes. I saw Zanvil was staring at my face and we kept looking into each other's eyes for a minute.

“Wake up and eat your dinner,” he said while breaking the silence between us.

So he came back from his date. He was looking so handsome in his suit. He took efforts to impress his girlfriend by looking handsome.

I glared at his face for a minute. “I'm not hungry,” I said and buried my face in the pillow.

“Jane you know you can't take your medicine on an empty stomach so wake up and eat your food,” he said to me.

“I'm not feeling like,” I said with closed eyes.

“Jane don't forget you are eating for three people so stop acting stubborn and eat your food,” he said in his firm voice.

Now he is making me feel guilty for not eating food. Sculling I sat on a bed with my back resting on the headboard. He kept the plate in front of me and before I could take a spoon he took it and bought a spoon full of food into my mouth. I ate everything because I was so hungry then he made me take my medicine. I was about to get down from the bed and go and change into something comfortable but he stopped me by holding my hand. I raised my eyebrow in question. He moved his body near me causing my heart to increase its pace. My eyes widened more when his face was so near me but he stopped there and took something from the side of the bed. I felt disappointed.

Were you expecting something else?

I was still staring at him with wide disappointed eyes. He was holding a plate with the chocolate cake on it. “I thought you would like to eat this,” he said while gesturing to the cake. My eyes shined in happiness, my eyes washing the disappointment from it.

How did he know that I wanted to eat it?

I smiled brightly at him and took a bite and I moaned when it melted in my mouth. He smiled after looking at my reaction, making me smile too. Suddenly I'm in a happy mood. “Where is your plate,” I asked him.

“No I'm fine you eat,” he said with a smile.

“It's very rare that I share my chocolate cake. So eat” I said while bringing some to his mouth.

“I know” saying he ate it holding my hand and guiding it to his mouth. His phone started buzzing.

“You eat and then go to sleep. I will be in my study. I have some work to do” he said. I nodded my head.

He kissed me on my cheeks, making me freeze for a second. Taking the call he went out of the room. I don't know when Zanvil came back to the room at night. When I woke up, he was talking on the phone while laughing. I have never seen him talking and laughing on his phone. He is all dressed up for work but it's too early. He saw I was awake and his smile faded away. “I'm going to the office. Eat your breakfast on time. It's still early. So go back to sleep and rest,” he said to me, still holding the phone to his ear. I nodded my head and then he left the room.

I tried to sleep again but sleep was not coming back to me. Nowadays he is going so early to the office and he comes late too. Does what Matt was saying is true. Do husbands cheat on their pregnant wives? Those thoughts caused something smashed in my heart and suddenly I was finding breathing hard. No, it's not true. Remember what Nina and Hazel said. God stupid idiot Matts's words are messing with my brain. I need to clear it out from my brain and the best way to do it is to take a relaxing bath in the bathtub.

Lifting myself from the bed, I went to the bathroom. I want to have red wine while taking a bath but I can't. It's not good for pregnancy. I will tell Rose to bring some grape juice for me. I intercom her and in a few minutes, she comes with juice and wine glasses. Taking it I went to the bathroom and got rid of my clothes and wrapped my body with a fluffy towel. I was so tempted to drink juice before going to the bath. Ahh, my hormones are all over the place. I can't even handle a slight temptation of juice. With sheepishly smiling, I filled the glass. I drank it and again filled it and took one more gulp.

If I continue like that there will be no juice for me to drink while taking a bath. I filled it and tried to keep it near the bathtub when it fell from my hand with a loud crashing sound echoing in the bathroom. Some of it spilled on me while falling. And next thing I know I heard the bathroom door open with a bang and Zanvil standing there with a horrified expression on his face.

“Jane” I heard his impatient worried voice. His eyes widened after looking at me and in the blink of a second, he was standing in front of me. “What happened. Are you ok,” he asked while checking my hands and face.

What is he doing here? Did he leave for office?

“I.Im ok,” I said in my shuttered voice. The fact that I was standing in front of him only in the towel didn't go unnoticed by me.

“Thank God you are fine,” he said while hugging me. He kissed my cheeks and it traded to my neck and shoulder giving me a burning sensation on my skin. I was standing there like a statue. His lips were about to go further when he stopped as if he came back to his senses. He cleared his throat. “What is this,” he asked in his composed voice while looking at floors where red contained was spilled.

His change in demeanor caused tears to dwell in my eyes. He went from caring to reserved controlled face. He was never the person to control himself around me. Is he behaving like this to show his loyalty to his new girlfriend? A span of jealousy hit straight directly to my center of the heart. I cant show him his new behavior is affecting me.

“G..grape juice,” I said in my weak voice.

“You should be more careful around yourself. Why do you keep forgetting that you are pregnant? What if you have cut your hand or your leg,” he asked me in his firm voice scolding me again like I'm a five-year kid. It caused anger to build up in me. I clenched my jaw in anger.

“I'm not stupid to cut myself. I know that I should be careful and I'm careful. I don't need you to tell me all the time and make me feel guilty about it” I said while fuming in anger.

“I'm not making you feel guilty. I'm just telling you to be a little careful” he said with a very soft voice.

“Yeah, I completely know how you are not trying to make me feel guilty. I know I'm with two lives inside my womb and I'm willing to protect them with my life. I don't need your constant reminder” I said in anger while moving my body away from his.

“I'm not trying to make you feel that way,” he said while trying to take my hand in his. Tears dwell in my eye.

“Stop,” I said while looking away from him. I don't want to look or talk to him anymore. His jaw clenched when I didn't let him touch me. Not saying anything he left the bathroom with an angry face. With tears rolling down from my cheeks I took a shower. I cried my heart out thinking about things that just happened a few minutes ago.

I was sitting on the bed and still thinking about everything when. I heard a knock on my door. One of our maids was standing there. She told me Zanvil has instructed her to clean the bathroom. I let her inside and she cleaned the mess. I didn't eat much at lunch and dinner too because I was not feeling like it. Tough mom and dad encouraged me to eat more but all the mess in my life was constantly running in my brain. Making me more irritated about everything and it indirectly caused a loss of my appetite.

He was calling me all the time but I didn't take his call. Yeah, I'm still angry at him. I know he is again calling me to make me feel guilty for not eating my food properly. It was late and I was trying to sleep for the last two hours lying in bed. He has still not come back from the office.

What is he doing so late in the office?

Probably spending time with his girlfriend.

That thought caused me to increase my anxiety and unknowingly my tears started to flow from my eyes. My eyes were already puffy from crying all day and I'm making them puffier now. It was so hard to convince mom and dad that my eyes are puffy because I slept more. My pillow was already wet from my tears. I was sniffing silently when the door of the bedroom opened. I closed my eyes shut to pretend that I'm sleeping. I heard the shuffling of clothes.

I was still silently sniffing when I felt him sitting near my legs. He removed the covers and took my foot in his hand making me go stiff. What is he doing? He started massaging my feet. It was feeling good but I don't want him to do it. So I pulled my foot away from his grip still sniffing. But he again took it and started doing the same thing.

“What are you doing,” I said in my little hoarse voice from crying the whole day while looking at him. His hair was a mess and his blazer was discarded on the couch. His eyes were looking tired. Lifting his sea-colored eyes he looked at me. Instantly a shiver passes to my spine.

“Your feet are swollen by massage swelling will become less,” he said and kept doing it. Yes, my feet are swollen. When did he notice it? His gesture caused more tears to form in my eyes and involuntarily they fell.

“Why are you crying? Am I not doing it properly,” he asked while coming near me with a worried face. “Are you feeling pain somewhere else?” he said while cupping my cheeks causing more warm tears to flow from it. Why is he being nice to me? He will behave nicely with me now only to yell at me afterward. “Love. Tell me” he said while wiping warm tears from my cheeks. He has called me that after so long. Fisting my hand I started to beat on his hard chest with my small fist.

“Stop being nice to me. I know you will yell at me after some time and tell me I'm careless about how I don't know to take care of anything” I blurted out in anger in my hoarse voice still biting on his chest.

“No, love I won't,” he said while taking my hands in his.

“No, I know you will again yell at me and tell me that I'm so careless and make feel guilty about it,” I said in my hurt voice while trying to take my hands out of his grip.

“I never wanted to make you feel that way. I am just so worried about your health that's the reason I asked you to be careful. And if I made you feel like that, then I'm sorry for it” he said while cupping my cheeks and pressing his lips to mine causing my heart to race. His lips felt so good on mine. His action passed warmness to my crying heart. He has never said sorry to me after being the worst to me and if he ever said sorry he never meant it. But now it feels like he means it.

Don't come in his sweet talks he is trying to distract you from your main aim. He is doing this to cover his affair.

My inner voice screamed inside my head. That thought immediately caused me to separate my lips from him. “Don't lie to me. I know you are cheating on me and to hide it you're saying sorry to me” I said in anger.

“What,” he said with a little laugh. “Who put this thing in your brain,” he said, still laughing.

What is making him laugh? Does he think this is some kind of jock?

“Why do I need someone to put this in my head? Do you think I didn't notice how your behavior has changed since the day I came back from the hospital? How you avoid me all day. You are sleeping on the couch which you threw out so I won't be able to sleep on it. I know husbands cheat on their wife when they are pregnant” I said in anger. He was listening. All the time without saying anything. Good he is listening. “and hmmm” I was again about to blurt out something in anger but he stopped my next words in my throat by placing his lips on mine. I didn't get to complete my words.

Pressing my back to the headboard he kept kissing the life out of me putting his all feelings in it. Making all my sense. All my doubts. All my anger melted like a puddle of soil hit by waves which also took my last bit of protest with it.

“Do you still think I'm cheating on you?” he said, sparing my lips to let me breathe.

“Hun,” I said cluelessly while trying to breathe. Did he leave a bit of sense in me to react to his question?

“So you need more proof,” he said with a devilish smirk while moving his face in my neck and placing wet lips over there.

Opening my pajama shirt he started assaulting me with his lips. Spreading a burning sensation wherever his lips touched. Next thing I know I found myself naked beneath him. He was as naked as me. Looking at my naked form l saw him smiling at me with a smile that reached his eyes. Suddenly his eyes were not looking tired and stressed anymore. It spread a warm sensation in my heart making me smile back at him unconsciously.

“How hard it was to stay away from you but from now onwards I'm unable to do it and if I continue to do it I will go insane,” he said while looking into my eyes. He moved his lips in my neck and my sensitive breast making me moan and curse at the same time. Lifting his face he looked at me with a mischievous smirk.

“Then why were you behaving like this with me,” I said while placing my hands on his side of his face. He took my hand and kissed my palm.

“Because I didn't want to cause stress for you. You didn't want me near you and I thought it was the reason for you being in the hospital. The thought of losing you or our babies made me behave like this with you. Do you know how much this pregnancy is suiting you? Making you more beautiful than ever. Every day was a battle for me with myself. To control me so I won't hurt you” he said while placing a kiss on my showing stomach and my forehead making me smile. “You tell me if I hurt you,” he said in his soft voice.

I nodded my head and that night he made me feel so many sensations that I didn't know I could feel. He took care of not hurting me. And in the middle of the night, I woke him because I was feeling so hungry. I told him I wanted to eat spicy chicken. He made it for me in the middle of the night and it was so tasty. A big smile formed on my lips when I remembered his cute angry face when I refused to share my spicy chicken with him.

“What is making you smile so much,” mom asked.

“O it's nothing. You brought more albums” I asked, taking two new albums from her hands.

Time is flying so fast I'm now eight months pregnant. Till now everything has been good. Zanvil never fails to make me go insane with his wet lips and skilled hands. Nowadays I always wanted him without getting tired. Currently, we were looking at the Zanvil childhood picture setting in my bedroom.

“Yeah, I found more of them. I think there are more cute framed pictures of him. I'll go and get them for you till you look at these” she said with a smile and went to take more albums.

I nodded my head with a smile and she left. I moved my gaze back to the picture which I was looking for. It was a family photo in which Zanvil was eight or seven years old. They all look so happy. I moved my fingers on his face.

The things which I feel for this man have rooted very deep inside my heart capturing all of it. My heart was not capable anymore to judge right or wrong. Tears dwell in my eyes. Tearing my eyes away from that picture. I took my family photo in my hand which was kept near my side of the bed.

“I. know..know you are ashamed of your daughter. I know you are u..unhappy with me because I'm staying with a person who separated us. I'm carrying that person children who separated you from your child” I said while sobbing.

“I know you don't want to look at me because I have a feeling for that man,” I said while tears sliding down from my cheeks. Moving my hand on the picture I said in my hurt voice “I tried so hard to leave him but after doing it my life felt so lifeless so meaningless without him. I know you guys must be thinking how pathetic a daughter you have raised. I know you guys are mad at me and you don't want to look at me but I will keep loving you till the end. I love you mom and dad” I said while pressing the photo to my heart with tears rolling down from my hurt eyes.

I heard something falling and I moved my eyes in the direction of the door. I saw a framed picture on the floor and mom was standing there with a hurt face with tears rolling down from her eyes. My eyes widened in shock.

“Jane is the reason why you left us,” mom asked, making my eyes widen with fear. It never meant them to know why I left the house. “Answer me, Jane,” mom asked in a pained voice. I opened my mouth but nothing came out of it.

I didn't want to answer yes to her question. I felt like I'm going to lose this family too.