Chapter 53

Swallowing my tears I asked, “Will you be able to go along.” he is an innocent child and he has done nothing wrong to me.

“Yes don't worry his dad is also coming with me,” she said while going in the direction of lift and my teary eyes traveled with her and when lifting open I saw Zanvil standing inside it and she went inside too.

“Jane are you ok” I heard Scott's worried voice but I didn't respond back.

My body has lost all its power. I was still staring in the closed lift direction. My brain has stopped working.

They had a son together all this time. Zanvil already has a family with Olivia and I'm the one who is coming in between them.

My tears unleashed. Everything around me started spinning and darkens started consuming me and then the world around me stopped moving.

“Jane Jane are you ok can you hear me” I heard Scott's panicked voice.

I was feeling numb, my brain had stopped working. Everything was a blackout for some time. He was shaking my shoulder to bring me back to my present.

A pain of a hundred knives stabbed my heart was so unbearable but my body is feeling nothing. It has become numb after listening to Olivia's words. Scott was still shaking my shoulder to get my attention. I looked at him with teary eyes.

“God Jane say something,” he said while cupping my face in his hands. I stared at his worried face for a second.

Swallowing a lump in my throat I open my mouth “I'..m...o..ok Scott. I j..just want to be a..alone for some time” I said in a breaking voice. A single tear slipped from my left eye.

“Come I will take you to your cabin,” he said in a worried voice while taking hold of my hand.

I moved my head in denial “No I will go on my own” I said while still moving my head in denial.

“Jane,” he tried to convince me.

But I stopped him “Please Scott,” I said in a pleading way with a small bitter smile on my lips. I stood up on my weak legs. Scott still tried to support my body with his stronghold on my hand but I removed his hand from mine and started walking.

I kept walking until I was out of the building. Thousands of questions were coming in my head. To which I had no answers.

He has a family with Olivia and I'm the reason why he is away from his family. Suddenly Olivia's happy face flashed in front of my eyes. She was so happy while she was telling me about it. Oliva, Ace, and Zanvil, a happy family face flashed in front of my eyes.

And I'm an evil person in between them who is breaking their happy family and that thought made my heart hurt like anything, my stomach clenched and I felt something rising up in my throat and my legs started giving up. I sat on a nearby bench to support my shaking legs. Everything around me seemed so lifeless.

Why Zanvil kept me in the dark. He not only kept me in the dark but mom and dad too. Why didn't he tell them?

Maybe he will tell them dad recovers completely. How will mom and dad take this?

I can't tell them about this. Dad has just been through surgery and he has started healing. Telling them this won't be a good thing. I don't want to burden them with my worries. I don't want to be a burden on them anymore.

They were kind enough to get a person like me, a homeless orphan married to their only son. Against his will, because they cared for me so much. And he married me to make his parents happy even if he had his own family to care for. I'm just being a burden to everyone. Thinking about this scenario my heart pained.

I closed my eyes tightly, warm tears fell down from it rolling down through my cheeks. I don't want to go home. Is it even home for me now? I have nowhere to go. Sitting there I kept thinking about everything.

Swallowing hard I called the person. The only person who will take me in without any question. She picked up after two rings “Hello” I heard her cheerful voice.

I bit my trembling lower lip from stopping myself on choking on my own voice. “He..hello,” I said in a sobbing voice.

“Jane are you crying” I heard her worried voice from another side.

“Can you pick me up?” I said in a crying voice.

“Yes where are you,” she said in the same worried voice I heard her grabbing keys sound and shuffling her jacket.

Swallowing hard I gave her address. I sat in silence on that beach watching cars passing by me. The weather has become so cold. I looked up at the sky and saw black clouds were covering it. It is going to rain any time soon. I closed my eyes and felt how cold the breeze was touching my skin causing goosebumps over my body.

I was in my own thoughts when she arrived. She arrived after ten minutes. “Jane, what happened? Why are you sitting here in the cold? Come let's go” she said while putting her coat over me.

I sat silently in the car without answering her questions. She understood that I don't want to talk about it and she never asked me again. We reached her mansion after some time. We went to the guest room. “Wanna talk about it,” Nina asked me in a concerned voice.

I moved my head in denial. I don't want to make her worried too. The fear of being burdened to her too was in me. “I will wait till you are ready to tell me when I need to kick the ass of that Adams. Till then I need to build up my mussel a little more and you rest for some time. I will wake you up when dinner is ready,” she said with a small smile and hugged me.

I hugged her too with a small smile on the corner of my lips. I know she will do that for me. I nodded my head in approval. Then she handed me my clothes which I left here last time I came for a night out. After changing in my cotton shorts and my big loose t-shirt I got in bed and tried to forget everything. I closed my eyes for sleep to take me in.

I just want to forget everything and go back to the days which I spent with my mom and dad in our house. I wanted to go back to those happy days of my life.

As I remembered those days a tear slipped from the corner of my eyes. How much I miss them.

“Jane I'm giving this map back to you but don't shout like that again. It almost gave me a heart attack” mom said in defeat voice to my puppy eyes while handing me back my map. I just gave her a bright smile and nodded while taking my map from her hand.

I got lost on the map again. Dad was still driving in silence. I don't know when I drifted to sleep and with a sudden jerk to our car, I was out of my sleep. Mom's panicked voice was filled in the car. She was calling my name constantly to confirm if I was safe. But I could answer her because of this unconsciousness taking over me.

After a few seconds, I tried to open my eyes and call her but she didn't reply back. When I tried to look for them a sudden light flashed and our car flipped. Causing my body to move in force to the roof of the car.

My head was pounding with so much pain in it. My body started giving up its consciousness. I could hear a siren. People were calling each other names to do things fast.

And in all those voices I heard one very familiar voice. It was so full of worries. “She is breathing and gets the stretcher fast. She is bleeding so badly” the owner of that voice yelled loudly.

People took me out of the car and made my lifeless body lying on a stretcher. “Can you hear me?” the owner of that voice asked me to touch my cheeks to get my consciousness back.

I could sense impatience and uneasiness in that voice and that made me open my eyes a little bit. I only saw the blurred face in front of me. I want to see that face. I tried to open my heavy lids of eyes wide to get a clear image as that face started becoming clear to me.

My eyes opened wide and I was out of my dream. Sweat was running all over my forehead. I sat up. I was just about to see that face. I sign in uneasiness while wiping out sweets from my face.

I don't know why I had this dream. It was not my usual nightmare which I use to see all the time. Who was that person? That voice is so familiar but I couldn't put my finger on it.

The door to my room cracked open. “Good you are awake. Come let's go and eat our dinner,” Nina said to me. Taking a deep breath I nodded at her and got out of bed. After washing my face I went down for dinner.

When I went down Nina's dad was also there “Hello uncle” I said to get his attention from his files.

“See who is here. I thought you had forgotten about us and won't even come to meet me” he said while teasing me.

“I didn't forget you. I was just busy with my new life,” I said with a smile.

“I know. You are the only one who called me and asked me about my health like a good daughter and here are some people who don't even take my call when I call them,” he said to me.

“Dad. Just stop taunting me,” Nina said while taking a seat in front of me.

Their quarrel only made me laugh. “Jane, when Nina told me you are here, I told the chef to make your favorite dessert. I hope you like it,” he said with a smile.

“See how I can forget your uncle. You are the best” I said with a smile with a thumbs up.

“Can someone tell me what I'm doing here in the happy family drama?” she said with a pout.

“Don't skull like that I have told the chef to make some dessert for you too. We will give you a little bit” he said while teasing her.

“Why I'm the only one who doesn't get any favored things,” Nina said in her dramatic voice. Which made us laugh.

Seeing my laughing face she smiled at me. I was feeling happy.

“Dinner is here,” the uncle said. We were almost done with our food when the uncle asked me “Is everything good at home.” I just gave him a blank look and nodded.

“I'm thinking of visiting your uncle,” he said while looking at me. I just nodded in approval.

“How is Zanvil doing? How is everything going?” the uncle asked me?

I stiffen listing his name but I answered him “Good,” I said in a small voice.

“Thank God everything is ok,” he said in relief.

“Dad, why are you asking her like that,” Nina asked in a suspenseful voice.

“It's nothing. It's just that Zanvil called me earlier. He told me you were not picking up his phone and Nina too. So he asked me if you were here” he explained.

“What did you tell him,” Nina asked him with the same suspicious voice.

“I told him you are here,” he said innocently. I palmed my forehead.

“Dad what do you think why we were not picking up that pricks pheon,” she said in annoyance.

“What she just said is that they are not fighting and he sounds so worried so I told him. He will be here at any time” he said while explaining it innocently.

“What will be here I need to go,” I said in a panic

“What you are going nowhere,” Nina said in a firm tone.

“Then just tell him I left some time ago when he comes here,” I said while standing up from my chair.

I don't want to see his face today. I need some time to face him and end everything for good. Hope he can be happy after it.

“Should I tell my security not to let him in?” Nina asked me.

“As if they can stop him. He will still come in. Don't do that, it will only make him more suspicious about everything” I said in a panicked voice while moving from one place to another.

“Yes you go upstairs I will handle him,” Nina said while fisting her fingers.

“I don't know what you girls are up to,” the uncle said while listening to our conversation.

I went upstairs to my room. I sat there in silence waiting for Nina to tell me he left. After about ten minutes I heard footsteps coming in my direction. It must be Nina.

The door of my room burst open and there stood a very angry devil. When our eyes met they were red in anger. I gulped seeing it. He was staring at me with a clenched jaw.

Nina came stomping to bind him “You can't boss around in my house” she yelled with a clenched jaw.

He ignored her and charged in my direction and took a hold of my wrist in the tight grip and started dragging me out of the room. “Zanvil let go of my hand,” I said in anger but he didn't listen to me.

Nina stomped behind us to stop him but uncle caught her hand. “It's their personal matter, let them handle it,” I heard him saying to Nina while Zanvil was dragging me out.

I tried to stop him but all my attempts went in the drain. Reaching the car he forcefully made me sit in it when I refused to go with him. He started the car and took a sharp turn to get out of the mansion with a speed. I hold on the safety handle for support.

He was driving at speed. “Slow down,” I yelled while still holding a handle for my life.

He didn't respond to me back, instead he started driving faster. He was driving at speed in silence with a clenched jaw. The fear was rising in me. This silence was silence before the stomp. I flinched at the sudden lighting and it started to rain. It only made my fear increase more.

He again took a sharp turn making my body touch the door with force “Zanvil” I yelled but he was not listening to me.

Soon we were at our place. In the blink of seconds, he was out of the car. I don't make any efforts to get out. He removed my set belt and holding my forearm with the tight grip he made me come out of it. “I'm not coming inside” I yelled in anger while struggling to grip in the heavy rain our clothes were drenched.

He just gave me a death glare. I was making it hard for him to take me in. Getting frustrated he lifted me over his shoulder so easily as I weighed nothing. I gasped at his actions “Zanvil put me down” I yelled in anger and fisting my fingers I beat on his back and started moving my legs.

Getting annoyed with my action he made his grip tight on my legs stopping their movement and then he spanked me. I gasped in horror. I felt pain when he did that. I wanted to get free from his hold but his hand was still in a spanked area crashing over there. It made my lower body go still but I was still beating him with my hands on his hardback.

Reaching our room he put me down and that made me stumble on my feet and then he looked at me with anger. “What were you doing there,” he asked me in anger in his bone-shivering cold voice.

I gulped after hearing him but I refused to show him that I'm afraid of him. “I'm free to go anywhere I want. I don't need your permission,” I said in anger.

Listening to me he clenches his jaw and charged in my direction he caged me between him and the wall. “Yes you're bloody free to go anywhere you want to,” he said while smirking angrily at me he closed his eyes for a second like swallowing his anger but as soon as he opened his eyes, it was the same.

The attempt of calming himself down failed. He came nearer to me and said with a clenched jaw “Let me make one thing clear to you. You are fucking not allowed to go away from me. You bloody promised me you will not” and then he threw vase on grown to take out his anger on either side of me.

I flinched in fear and looked at the shattered pieces of the vase in horror. “When I came back. I came to know you were nowhere and when I called your drive he told me you never left. You know how badly I was searching for you and when I interrogated that so-called friend of yours. He told me he doesn't know and it's good that you finally chose to go away from me because you deserve a better man to take care of you, not a person like me who is keeping you in the dark” he said in anger with a clenched jaw while gripping my face with his fingers.

I removed his hand from my face in anger “Yes he is right you kept me in the dark not me but mom and dad too,” I said in anger.

“Why did you keep us in the dark, why do you have to play with our emotions? I know you don't care how I feel but you should have at least thought a bit about mom and dad. They would have let you marry Olivia instead of me if they had known the truth from begging” I yelled in anger tears unleashed from my eyes.

“What the hell I'll marry her and what truth you are talking about,” he said in anger while pinning me to the wall and my both hands on my either side. I looked at him with a clenched jaw and moved my wrist which was in his tight grip to get myself free.

How long he is going to act like this. Till when he is going to carry his act of innocent.

I was sobbing hard. It was hard for me to say that he has a family with some other women. I swallowed hard and said “I know..know it Zanvil. You don't need to hide this anymore. I know you and Olivia are e..engaged from p..past two years and you have a son too” tears were flowing from my eyes.

“Who told you these,” he said in disbelief.

So it's true.

More tears slipped from my eyes. “Olivia told me everything she told me you proposed to her when you came to know she was pregnant with your child,” I said while sobbing.

“What rubbish you are taking me engaged to her. Yes she is engaged but not to me but to her fiance, James and they have a son together not me and her,” he said in anger.

“What,” I said in disbelief. After listening to him, relief was sent to my heart. He is not engaged, he doesn't have a son. Knowing the truth more tears slipped from my eyes.

“Because of this you tried to leave me,” he asked me in his spine-chilling voice.

“What do you want me to do after knowing that my husband has a family with other women and I'm an evil person who is separating them? I'm the one who is breaking their happy family,” I said while sobbing.

He was staring at my crying face. He took a deep breath “I fucking never imagen another woman bearing my child rather than you. After knowing these you never came to talk to me but you left without even thinking about me,” he said with a clenched jaw.

I looked at him with teary eyes. “Is it this easy for you to leave me. When you fucking promises that you won't leave me” he asked me with a clenched jaw hurt was in his eyes. I looked at him with disbelief.

What is he talking about? Does he think it is that easy for me to get away from him? I was just thinking about his happiness all this time.

But soon that hurt changed to anger. “I should have known these before you are just like every gold digger. Finding the opportunity to get rid of her husband after knowing that you have a big hotel in your name. How did I forget about this,” he said with a clenched jaw?

I gasped at his word and I moved my wrist in anger trying to make them free from his hold. “Why are you in shock? Did you think it is easy to get away from” he said in anger.

I was staring at him in anger why he always thinks like this. Taking a deep breath he opened his mouth. “Fine,” he said this word while looking into my eyes and then he claimed my lips. He kissed me hard like he was kissing me last time. He spared my lips and again looked in my teary eyes. “I will give you this golden opportunity to do whatever you want to. Go away from me do whatever you want to do. I won't stop you” he said while leaving my wrist from his grip.

I stared at his face in disbelief and then he went out of the room. Without sparing me a glance closing the door with a loud thud. I slid down on the wall and sat on the floor.

Why he is doing this with me. Why he thinks it is easy for me to forget everything.

I cried my heart out thinking about it. After some time I stood up and changed my clothes, still sobbing.

Why I'm the one who always faces the blame in the end. I always wanted his happiness. Why can't he see how difficult it was for me to take this decision.

I was still lying on my side of the bed and crying. When he came back. After some time he came out of the bathroom and lied on his side. I turned around to see him but his back was facing me. He never slept like that.

I know he is mad at me but why is he behaving like this? He never stopped holding me and it made my heart pain more. I can't sleep like this. I scooted near him and wrapped my arms over his waist. His body stiffened when I did that. Resting my head on his back I cried hard. He moved his hands on my encircled one.

He is going to remove them. I made my grip strong but he was still able to take them away from his body.

He doesn't want me to be near him. I removed my hands away from him. I don't know when I sleep while crying. Again at night, I saw the same dream but the more bad and painful part of that night.

My body trembled in fear and pain to see it again. I saw people carrying my parent's lifeless body away from me. The pain of them leaving me was so unbearable.

In the end, everyone leaves me alone. In the end, they abandoned me in pain and misery to face it alone and that pain made me scream and cry in my sleep. When I woke up I was laying on Zanvil's chest. He woke up listening to my scream.

“What happens, Jane,” he said in a worried voice while cupping my face with his one hand. I saw him still crying. He is going to leave me one day. That pain in my heart increased a hundred times more.

Why is he holding me now when he refused to touch me?

Why only to leave me alone in the end.

Tears slipped from the corner of my eyes. I tried to push him away from me. He made his grip tight on my waist and pulled me to him. I was still sobbing “Jane calm down it was just a nightmare,” he said to calm me down.

“No, it is the truth. You will too leave me alone in the end.” I said in my hurt voice.

“Claim down, love. I won't leave you” he said while kissing my forehead.

“E..everyone does my p..parents left me alone you will too,” I said in a breaking voice.

“No, love I won't. I won't go away from you” he said like he was promising me. He wiped out my tears from his thumb and then pecked my lips.

“Sleep I'm here,” he said while moving his hand on my back in a soothing manner and kissing my head.

“P..promise,” I asked in a crying voice.

“Yes promise,” he said. His words gave my heart unknown relief.

I snuggled in his neck and wrapped my arms around him. Breathing in his scent made my nerves calm down and I drifted back to sleep in his arms.

In the morning he didn't talk to me. He was still giving me his cold shoulder. What happened to his last night's promise. I was still facing his cold wrath. He is still angry with me.

I tried to make things light between us by pecking his lips while going to work but that pecking turned to the heated make-out session by him pinning my body to the wall but it didn't help me. As soon as it ended he left as if nothing had happened between us a second ago. Like he never kissed me hungry against the wall and that made my blood boil in anger.

I was sitting in my cabin and doing my work but my mind was somewhere else. Why I'm not liking the ideas of him being away from me. I was waiting for this day to come when he will leave me alone in my life but today when that day has come why I'm hating it so much. Why I have a sudden change of heart.

That time my cell phone ranged. Still lost in my thoughts I took the call without seeing the name. The person on the other side said “Hello” and my eyes widened in recognizing the voice from the other side.

It is the same voice which I heard in my dream.

I immediately looked at the caller idea and my eyes widened in shock. I never knew the owner of this voice was there on the accident scene. When my family had an accident.

Why no one ever told me about it. I was semi-unconscious at that time and my brain erases that painful memory from my brain.

But why this person never talked to me about it.

Hundreds of questions were coming in my mind. Why they kept this away from me...