Chapter 51

I gasped in shock and saw him in horror. “Zanvil listen to me..” I tried to say while helping Scott to stand up. But he took hold of my elbow in a painfully tight grip and made me face him. My face showed pain because of his grip. I saw him with teary eyes.

His face was showing no emotions in it. He was pissed beyond his limits. “Did I again ruin your sweet time?” he asked me in his cold voice with a bitter smirk plastered on his lips.

In a voice which was enough for me to run away from his hold and hide somewhere very far away from him and at the same time made my body go stiff.

I saw Scott was trying to get up from the floor. “Sir try..” he didn't let him finish because before he could say anything else Zanvil punched on his face again. Blood started coming from his nose.

“O my God Scott you are bleeding,” I said in horror and tried to help him stand up.

But Zanvil took hold of my hand and made me see him. “So he is Scott,” he said with a clenched jaw. “Because of these, you didn't want me to fire him,” he asked in anger while pointing out things between us.

“No,” I said in an angry voice. He gave me a death glare not believing my words.

“I will deal with you later. First, I need to take care of your Romeo” he said in anger with a clenched jaw. And he pushed me behind him so I won't come in between them. He took hold of Scott by grasping his collar by both hands and making him stand to face him. Scott stumbled a little bit on his feet to balance himself. Zanvil was seeing red “How dare you. Try to take what's mine,” he said with a clenched jaw.

“W..what yours?” Scott said in a small voice in confusion. He looked at me with the same stare he was hell confused about everything.

“Yes, what's mine, and you're going to regret it throughout your life because of it,” he said in his cold voice which causes goosebumps all over my body.

He again lifted his hand to punch him and my eyes widened in horror. Before he could punch him again I stopped him with all my strength. If he punches him again he will faint. “Zanvil just stop it. Just stop don't harm him” I shouted in anger tears flowing from my eyes continuously. I stood in between them so he won't harm Scott anymore.

“So you can't stand seeing him getting hurt,” he said angrily with a clenched jaw. “So you were going to say yes to him if I would have not interrupted your sweet proposal,” he asked while breathing heavily. I just gave him a disbelief look.

Like always he misunderstood it and again he took my silence as yes. Seeing my face he bitterly smiled and then gave his death glare to both of us. And next thing I know he punched the wall beside him. A gasp left out of my mouth in fear. “Zanvil why are you doing this,” I said in anger while trying to take his hand in mine but he snatched it away from my hold.

“What do you want me to do after seeing my wife getting proposed by another man and she is defending him too,” he said while flaring his nostrils in anger.

“Wife” I heard Scotts' shocked voice. “Yes, she is my wife. Do you have a problem with it?” he said in anger, trying to beat him again but I didn't let him do that. He looked at me with a clenched jaw “Of course you do. You are fired and get the fuck out of my property now unless you want to go out in an ambulance” he spits in anger with a clenched jaw. Listening to his threat Scott's face turned pale. He was not the fighting type of guy he was. Listening to his words my face turned pale too.

He can't do this with him. Scott needs this job so badly in this stage of his life. I won't let this happen. He can’t bloody fire, someone, without giving them a chance to explain the situation. He can't take such a rash decision because he misunderstood the situation.

I was burning in anger. Scott tried to go out of the cabin but I took a hold of his hand to stop him. “Scott, you don't need to go out of this hotel. Just, go to the kitchen. I will explain everything to you later” I said in a firm voice.

Devil-eyed our hands he was burning in fire. He was taking a deep breath to control his anger but he lost it. “If I find you in my premises you are for sure going out in an ambulance and not in one piece” he threatened him while seeing in my eyes.

He is indirectly threatening me. I won't back out now. He can't punish an innocent one. I stared at him back “I too see who stops you from staying in my hotel. Go and wait for me” I said in anger. Scott nodded at me and went out.

He clenched his jaw in anger “I'm going to kill him” he muttered in anger and tried to charge in Scott's direction but I caught his hand. He saw me in anger.

“Stop it Zanvil just stop it. Have you lost your mind” I said in anger

He glared at me “Yes” he said these three letters in a voice which was enough to make my world shattered. I immediately let go of his hand. He saw how I left his hand in fear. He went to the door and locked it. Turning around he smiled wickedly at me. “Guess what. I need to take care of you before him” he said in his bone-shivering voice.

I glued at his words and unconsciously took one step back. He started coming in my direction with slow steps like a lion. Who walks steadily before attacking his prey. “You have still not answered me where you're going to say yes to him,” he asked in a demanding voice while removing his blazer and throwing it on the floor. Leaving himself in only his white shirt and trousers. I was just staring at him with shocked eyes. He was not breaking his eye contact with mine. His gaze was making my body shiver in fear. My brain stopped working a while ago. My steps came to a halt when my lower body touched my working table. He smiled wickedly at me. He was standing only one hand distance away from me. “So you are not going to answer me,” he said while eyeing me. “So I have to get answers out of your mouth,” he said while eyeing me.

My eyes widened in more fear when he started unbuttoning his shirt. “Z..zanvil w..what are you doing,” I said in a breaking voice. Fear was visible in my voice.

“I'm going to put some sense in your brain,” he said with wicked determination in his voice.

He won't listen if I try to explain to him the situation. I swallowed the invisible lump which was forming in my throat. “Z..zanvil what are you talking about,” I said while trying to get a chance to run out of this cabin and when I was about to run in the direction of the door he caught me by my waist. My body went stiff when he caged me in his tight grip. My back clashed with his hard chest.

“You are so eager to go and see your Romeo,” he whispered in my ear in his cold voice which made the small hair stand on my body. “You are not allowed to go. Not before I fuck you hard on this table and embed it in your brain that you only belong to me” he said in his dark voice which made my knees go weak in fear. And in a second he threw all the things down which were on the table and made me lay flat on my back on it.

He removed my scarf and threw it on the ground. “Z...Zane didn't let me complete and the next voice which came out of my mouth was me wailing in pain. He bites on my collarbone. Tears were flowing continuously. He opened all the buttons of my blows. My body was shaking in fear. I tried to fight back but he pinned one hand above my head and slammed his lips to mine.

I tried to push him with my free hand but he was not budging from his place. His hand moving on my bare skin stomach spread a burning sensation all over my body. His hand slowly moving up from my stomach. My body went into a paralyzed state. When he unhooked my bra from the front, more tears started slipping out of the corner of my eyes. He grapes my left breast with his rough hand. A foreign sensation was shot throughout my body from the tip of my toe to my head's hair follicles. I gasped because of it and it led him to shove his tongue in my mouth to explore it.

I tried to protest but he was making my attempts go in the drain. He was not giving me a chance to breathe. I lost my hope of saving myself. He won't spare me until he gets what he wants. He is going to force himself on me and at that thought, I closed my eyes shut. My body was already shaking in fear. I was preparing myself for the worst because there was no energy left in my body to fight against the devil himself. Suddenly he stopped. I was sobbing hard in hiccup tears running all over my face.

He eyed me with a clenched jaw. His eyes were telling me that he was fighting the internal battle with himself and his expression changed to defeated one. He slammed his fist on the table on either side of my face. I flinched in fear and again he buried his face in the clavicle of my neck. I was still sobbing. He took a deep, heavy breath in my neck and then pulled me upward. He made me stand on my shaky legs. It happened so fast that I was about to fall when he wrapped one hand on my waist.

“I can't do this with you,” he said in a small defeated voice. In a voice which was not his while resting his forehead on mine. I was breathing heavily but my eyes were still close in fear. “Even if how much I want to fuck you hard and fill your whole body with my marks and claim you as mine” his words made my body go stiff. His lips were brushing on mine while he was saying it. My eyes short open listening to his words. I saw in his eyes they are filled with so many emotions and one of them was hurt. He was hurt. “Did you let him” he swallowed hard “Did you let him touch you?” he asked in a hurt voice. It was difficult for him to ask me that question. I was just staring at his face in disbelief.

He is not the devil Zanvil which I know. The devil I know would never back out from claiming what he wants by hook or crook.

He moved this hand and cupped my left cheek. His thumb moving on my brushed lip. “Do you love him?” he asked me with a heavy heart. I tried to read his emotions but I couldn't.

Still, with teary eyes, and a dry throat I said “No.” He was shocked after listening to my answer. I saw happy and sad both emotions in his eyes. It was like he did not believe what I said but he was happy that I said no. It is so hard to understand this man. Unconsciously my shaky hand moved to his cheeks and when my palm touched his cheeks he closed his eyes for a brief moment. “We don't love each other Zanvil” he opened his eyes and looked at me. “Scott already loves someone and they are going to welcome their first baby soon,” I said in a small voice. He looked at me with confused eyes.

“Then what the hell he was doing sitting on the floor on the knee and with that bloody ring in his hand,” he said in anger while remembering that scene. I could see he was burning with fire. He fisted his hand in anger which had a little cut on it because of his all-punching activity. Before his brain goes in another wrong direction. I have to tell him the whole story.

Lowering my eyes I took his hand in mine and traced my finger on his cut “He wants to surprise her. By proposing to his girlfriend in front of her and his entire family so he just wanted to practice it with me. So he won't make a fool out of himself in front of everyone.” Next thing I said looking in his eyes “You know he is hell nervous to do it because it is the biggest step in his life. The step to accept his responsibility and give it a name in everyone's eyes. The step of starting his own little family and to protect them with all he has” I said in a small voice but with a faint smile on my lips.

He stared at my face and in my eyes for a second and the next thing I know. He hugged me tightly. My body was stiff in his hold. His hold was so strong on me. I don't know for how long we stood like that in silence him hugging me tightly. It's the second time he has hugged me like this. After that day in an amusement park. When he thought that he had lost me there. My heart was filled with happiness. I don't know why but I wrapped my arms around him tightly. His lips started moving on my neck again. He broke the hug and his tough moves where he bites earlier giving me a burning sensation all over my body.

My fingers curled at the edge of the table to support myself. While still sucking on his mark on my neck he started buttoning up my blouse. My hands were still curled at the edge of the table to support me. His toughness was doing its magic and reducing the stinging pain of his mark. I suppressed a moan by biting on my lower lip. After some time he lifted his head and looked at me “Why didn't you refuse when he asked you to practice with him” he asked me not in a demanding way.

“Because I'm the only female who works in the kitchen. He helped me too when I asked him so it was my turn to repay him and I also wanted to know how it feels if someone proposes to you. Even if it is a fake one,” I said while sheepishly smiling at him.

“You still work in the kitchen,” he asked me in a little pissed voice. I sign in disbelief.

From all the things I said he only got that I still work in the kitchen.

“Yes,” I replied to him.

“Didn't I tell you not to?” he said with a little bit of anger.

“Zanvil I love working there, everyone is so good to me,” I said in a pleading voice.

“No, you won't work there. What if some other guy comes and in real life asks you out. So many young boys work there” he said with a clenched jaw it was like he was imagining the scenario in front of his eyes. He shook his head in denial. “Finally, you won't work there,” he said in a firm voice.

“Zanvil why the hell you think that every guy in this building is going to hit on me,” I said in annoyance.

“Because you are so fucking beautiful. Who wouldn't want to be with you and I won't be able to stand for another situation like this” he said in anger. As soon as he heard my question and then he realized what came out of his mouth. He said loudly what he was thinking. I was just staring at him with stunted expiration. I was not expecting this answer. I thought he would blame me for distracting them in their work because of my clumsiness but his reason was something else. Is he the same Zanvil who always said that I was ugly, not fit for him? He cursed under his breath and without saying anything further he lifted his blazer from the floor and left the room by slamming my office door loudly. I flinched at that loud sound.

I came out of my dreamland because of it. “Did he just say that I'm beautiful?” I muttered to myself in disbelief. It was the first time he ever complimented me. It was the first time he ever spoke loudly about what he was thinking. A big smile was plastered on my lips. I don't understand how things change in between us. Some time ago I was crying because of his actions and now I'm smiling like an idiot. I cleared my throat when I remembered that I have to go and see Scott. I made myself look decent and hide the big hickey with my scarf.

When I went to the kitchen Scott was pressing an ice bag to his face. I stood in front of him, “Are you ok?” I asked him sheepishly.

“Yes I'm fine Miss Adams,” he said in a hurt voice still pressing the ice bag to his face swelling.

Guilt stabbed me “I'm sorry Scott I didn't tell you the truth,” I said, feeling guilty about it. “I'm sorry about how he behaved with you,” I said swallowing my tears.

He grabbed my hand and made me sit beside him. “You don't need to feel guilty about it Jane. I know you must have your reasons,” he said while faintly smiling at me.

“No Scott I need to apologize for how Zanvil behaved with you,” I said while swallowing my tears.

“You don't need to. I know he behaved like this because he loves you so much. I would have behaved the same as him if anyone had proposed to my wife” he said while looking into my teary eyes. I was stunned after listening to him.

“Scott you misunderstood it he doesn't love me. He is just possessive about me, nothing else,” I said while smiling in nervousness and disbelief.

He smiled at me and said, “Possessiveness comes from the person who is madly in love with you.”

He doesn't love me. Scott is misunderstanding everything.

“No Scott you are wrong. Our marriage was not because of love but it was to keep his parents happy because we both love them so much and what you saw today was his anger because I married him when he didn't want it. He always tried to rule my life. It was not the first time he behaved like this. He always behaved like this when he saw me with someone else and in the end, he blames me if any guy showed interest in me. He was always so mean to me” I said while trying to explain to him the status of our relationship and Scott, on the other hand, was listening to everything. I felt good when I talked to him about it.

When I was done he took my hands in his friendly way. “Do you think he is a guy who would marry a girl if he didn't like her a bit?” he asked me in a serious tone.

Of course, not Zanvil is not that kind of person.

I shook my head in denial. Scott smiled at me. Is he saying he married me because he loves me?

No.

“But he can marry a girl for his parent's happiness even if he doesn't like her a bit,” I said, trying to explain how we got married.

“Do you think it was hard for him to convince his parents to do something against his will?” he asked me. I gave a thought and again I shook my head in denial. I was quiet for a minute or two trying to process everything and then I tried to prove him wrong but he stopped me. “I can understand it's very hard for you to accept it but it's the truth and about things, you said about his behavior. He behaves like that because he is insecure that you would find someone else who may be better than him. Who won't be insecure if his wife is as beautiful as you? Maybe this is the thing that always lets him behave possessively about you. Remember one thing Jane boys are always mean to the girls, to whom they like the most. I saw love in his eyes. Jane believed me” he said while smiling at me and I was staring at him with confused eyes with a pale face. I walked out of the kitchen like a zombie.

No, he doesn't love me; he has someone else in his life whom he loves so much. Scott is not trying to see the complications in our relationship. The relationship can be called that. I don't even know if we have any sort of thing like that between us. I think Scott's brain has stopped working because of Zanvil’s punches. Yes, I'm right we have nothing in between us rather than hate for each other.

I sing in frustration and grabbing my hair in annoyance. For the past thirty minutes, I have been sitting in my cabin and thinking all about what Scott said to me earlier and my head starts to hurt because of it. His last words were echoing in my break like a tape recorder.

“I saw love in his eyes.”

“ugh,” I said in annoyance grabbing my hair in more frustration. “Scott, he has put all the rubbish in my brain. I need a break from everything” I muttered to myself while resting my head in both hands. I heard a knock on my door. “Come in,” I said.

Hazel came in “Jane sir has requested your presence in his office,” she said politely. I nodded and followed her. She left me inside his office and went to do her work.

He lifted his piercing gaze from his computer and shifted it on me. He gestured to me to sit in front of him. I took a seat “I won't be able to come home for a week because I'm leaving for a business trip to London,” he said while eyeing me.

Listening to him I saw him with happy eyes and asked “really.” Now the whole room will be mine for a week. Seeing my face he eyed me angrily. Jane, you need to control your emotions, don't let him know you are happy. “Really,” this time I said it with a sad face.

His eyes were looking at me in amusement. He shook his head when I said that. “Yes really,” he said in a mocking tone. “Now listen to me carefully till I come back. You are going to handle everything Haze will help you if you need any help. Now you can go and continue your work,” he said in his bossy tone. I nodded and ran out of his office in happiness.

One weak devil free. He won't be here to boss me around all the time. Maybe this devil-free weak can help me find my inner peace. O I'm loving this idea so much.

Four days ago zanvil left for his business trip. The first day without him was so good. I was jumping from one department to another in happiness and that night I and Nina did a night out for the first time after my marriage. It was so fun. On the second day, I was still happy but I was feeling a little anxious. In the night it was difficult for me to sleep because now it was a habit for me to sleep in his possessive hold around me.

The third day was also good but I don't know what was happening to me that night. I dreamed about him. I blushed hard remembering about it. It felt so real God, it was so embarrassing. I don't know why the hell I'm dreaming about that devil.

Because you are missing him.

Shut up the inner voice, it won't be possible in this life for me to miss the devil. Everything at work was good but the thing which was pissing me off so much. He has not even called me once not to even ask how work is going.

See I told you you miss him.

My inner voice mocked at me. I just ignored it and sang in annoyance. It's late. I should leave now. I went home where only I was leaving with some servants. “Ma'am would you like to eat your dinner,” Roses asked me.

“How many times have I told you, Roses, to call me Jane and I'm not hungry,” I said while sitting on the couch.

“Ma'am, please,” she said in a pleading way. Whatever I do I have to eat it because that devil gave her strict orders to feed me every day like a baby. Sitting in London he is still controlling my life and it is annoying me so much. After I was done with eating I went directly to change clothes and sleep. Even if it's hard these days it comes to my eyes. I need to get rid of this uneasiness feeling in me and only my sweet sleep can help me with it.

In the middle of the night, I felt fingers moving from my jaw to my lips. Opening my eyes a little bit I saw Zanvil's face.

Am I seeing this dream again?

Seeing my eyes open he smiled at me still moving his thumb on my lower lip. For sure I'm seeing this dream again because he won't smile at me like that and he is not even here. He won't be back till Tuesday. Taking a deep breath I smiled back at him still with sleepy eyes because I'm happy to see his smiling face in my dream.

He kissed on my jaw and then on my cheeks spreading a tingly sensation all over my skin and then it traveled to my lips. He was kissing me so softly. His lips traveled to my neck pressing soft kisses. Closing my eyes, I let my hands travel in his hair and then on his bareback. His lips kept on moving down till my V neck of my big t-shirt which I was wearing with only my pants underneath. It was showing my little cleavage where he pressed a soft kiss. My body was burning in his touch like I have a fever.

His hand moved to my breast. I breathe heavily because of the burning sensation I was feeling outside my body now I was feeling it inside too. His mouth slowly moved at the tip of my breast and I got stuck on my breath when he captured it. My hands fisted on sheets arching my back due to the foreign sensation which was shot inside me.

He was sucking on it with the still thin fabric of my t-shirt separating his mouth from it. He slowly started lifting my t-shirt and he removed it completely leaving me only in my panties. I was breathing heavily. His sea-colored eyes were touching my naked body with his intense gaze. A shiver runs through all over my body and I unconsciously bite my lower lip.

I saw how his eyes darken seeing me and in a second dipping his head down he captured my lip before tucking it out of my teeth with his and then he kissed me hard. His hand moved to my breast and I gasped at his rough hand contact to my bare sensitive skin which led him to take complete control of my mouth. His hand started slowly moving down, spreading more burning sensations all over my bare skin.

I Immediately jerk my body up. My heart was beating so fast. Cold sweat was running all over my forehead. It was so real but thank God it was just a dream. I sign in relief. I need to get ready for the office. When I tried to get up something was stopping me and when I looked down I was naked. Remove my sheets, my eyes widened in horror. Zanvil's hand was wrapped around my waist and he was peacefully sleeping beside me.

I swallowed hard and my face was burning red. It was not a dream. When the realization hit me I immediately ran out of his possessive grip. Before he could wake up I got ready and ran to the office all the time my face was red. I'm going to avoid him as much as possible. To remove everything out of my brain I made myself busy with my work but my eyes were glued to the door. My heart was still beating wildly. What if he walks in and at the same time my door opens. I had a mini heart attack but my heart came down when I saw Hazel entering my cabin.

“Are you ok?” she asked me. I closed my open mouth and nodded at her with a faint smile. “Sir is calling you,” she said with a smile. My smile fades immediately when I hear her words.

For the past five minutes, I'm standing out of his door deciding if I should go in or not. Taking a deep breath I open the door. My eyes widened in shock when I saw who was inside. I never thought I would meet with her again. They were standing so close to each other and she was showing him something on her mobile and seeing something they both laughed at the same time.

It's the first time I ever saw Zanvil smiling like that. They seemed so happy together like the world around them doesn't matter. They didn't even sense my presence in the same room because they are so engrossed in each other. I swallowed the lump in my throat. My face turned to grime one and my eyes filled with tears.

Now I know with whom he is in love...