Chapter twenty eight
Lenarya's p. o. v
I watched Zeus with shock evident in my whole body as i tried to comprehend what he had just said but i couldn't bring myself to ask him i just waited for him to finish his story.
He wiped my tears and continued " even though it was six years ago i still remember it like it was yesterday , I didn't believe my wolf so I confronted the doctor along with my parents and they told me that since I was over infatuated with my mate, the bond between us had grown stronger as a results of my endless prayer to the moon goddess which is why the pain I felt for the death of my mate was equivalent to the pain a mated wolf would feel at the loss of their mate. That year when I grew cold and closed off, I had nothing to lose and nothing to live for, my pack was not enough to make me feel whole especially when I saw the way mated couples treated each other. "
"I had built my reputation as heartless and i became feared by wolves and creatures that had heard of me , i ruthlessly killed rouges as i thought that maybe they were responsible for the death of my mate , i killed Alpha's who mistreated omegas and people called me a monster and made up stories about me thinking that I was killing the alphas for either power or no reason at all when the only reason I killed those Alpha's was because I had thought that maybe my mate was an omega and died at the hands of a ruthless Alpha . Sometimes I would feel like maybe my mate was still alive and then I would remember the pain I felt or hear people saying that the moon goddess didn't give me a mate because I was a monster and i didn't deserve one , i started believing it which resulted in my wolf becoming more hostile and feral towards others... "
I couldn't bear it anymore, i couldn't handle hearing about all the pains and anguish i had unknowingly caused my mate and so i wrapped my arms around him as i begged him to stop, i kissed away the tears that he was trying to hide from me while mumbling ' am sorry ' over and over as i cried for him. I decided to come clean to him and share a part of my story with him so as to help him better understand and maybe then he can forgive me and himself...
"It's my fault, I am so sorry I caused you such pain, I swear I didn't know . I was raised like a princess, i was the Alpha's daughter and the future alpha of the lunar eclipse pack , life was a fairytale until one day when i was 11 years old a pack of rouges had infiltrated my pack and ruthlessly killed everyone in sight , i was the only one who survived thanks to my mother taking me into a secret passageway, all i had on me was a survival bag filled with my mothers belongings. "I could feel his eyes on me so I choose to continue
"I was a rougue at the age of eleven , i barely survived two weeks on my own but after that i had found a rougue couple who ran away from their pack because the alpha wanted to forcefully mate with the female werewolf who was at the time John's mate , they took me in, loved me , protected me and trained me to survive on my own... until one day when I was 14 years old i had left to hunt some food for us without informing them , when I came back to our campsite i found them drowning in the pool of their own blood , rouges had killed them without any mercy or conscience and that was the second time in three years i had lost the people i loved to rouges "
Zeus wiped away my tears and said " Am sorry for not being there to protect you my love " i shook my head and said " zeus you don't understand , six years ago when I was 14 and running away from the rouges i was attacked by five rouges, i managed to fight them off but I was still young I wasn't strong enough to fight them all off without sustaining great injuries and because of that and the fact that I was outnumbered i got injured during the fight and i was bleeding to death. The rouges had used weapons spiked with silver and wolves bain so my wounds were not healing and i was losing a lot of blood but fortunately for me a friend of my mothers Emmeline who was a powerful witch found me but still , her magic could not heal me because i was too weak, I had lost a lot of blood and i..... i..... d-died , when i had gotten to the after life i saw my parents and they provided me with the knowledge i needed to survive. I was dead for seven minutes until Emmeline had used a magic spell to force me to shift into my wolf in order for it to heal me but i didn't come back to life until hours later for the pain of a forced shift when my body was not ready resulted in me being in a two month coma . I didn't know that my death caused you such pain, i was unaware of the fact that you had felt me die ... even till this day the events in my past still haunt me.."
I cried in his arms as he kissed my forehead while wiping away my tears " it is not your fault that you suffered so much at such a young age my love don't cry , i promise to make you happy for the rest of your life , i want to carry your burdens for you so that you never have to be in pain , i hate seeing you cry . I will forever be grateful to the moon goddess for protecting you and bringing you back to me , only she knows how meaningless my life would be without you "
Zeus and I stayed in each other's arms as we silently comforted each other . We both knew that there was a lot we still hadn't told each other but we didn't say anything. ...... we just wanted to stay in each other's arms.
Zeus suddenly held me closer as he started to play with my hair , I turned my head to look at him and what I saw made my heart beat speed up . Zeus's eyes were now golden as a sign of Zane being in control.
Ummmm hi....... i said to Zane, i didn't know how to act towards his wolf... all I knew about Zeus was how much of a heartless and ruthless killer he was and that didn't help me calm down at all. He looked into my eyes and said " god.... you so beautiful"
Thanks was all i said as a blush covered my face.
He lifted me up bridal style, where are we going? I asked " mate was crying so Zane would feed mate ice cream and chocolate cake " Zane said with a goofy smile on his face . Wow he is so cheerful and cute it doesn't really suit the description that I have in my head but I wasn't complaining. A man who gives you ice cream and chocolate cake is a keeper.