Chapter Twenty two

Lenarya's p. o. v

     I slowly open my eyes and ohhh my god i feel like I have been hit by a truck. I looked around and saw zeus laying on top of me with his head laying on my boobs. I harshly tap his shoulder as he opens his eyes and smiles at me.

     "Please stop feeling me up and leave my room " I say as I push him off me" he stands up and is about to speak when I raise my hand and stop him .

     "With all due respect 'alpha 'i will appreciate it if you were to leave my room before i say or do anything i will not regret. I am losing my temper so please leave before i lose it completely " that's all that i said before i entered the bathroom and shut the door.

     I looked into the mirror and there it was , his mark on me , he had claimed me without my permission. In the werewolf law it is compulsory for mates to ask permission from one another in order to lay their claim as a show of respect, love and commitment.

     I'm not really that mad at it, i kind of like it but i am mad at him ... I just feel so violated and derailed just wish he would have asked me first before doing it... atleast give me a choice in the matter.

     I hate being forced into things and now that he has marked me there is no going back I am stuck like this. All I wanted was for me and my mate to have a heart to heart talk where he tells me all his secrets and I tell him all mine along with my baggage.

     I cant even be Nemesis anymore because my scent is now mixed with his and everyone will just know that it is me.

     I can't find the man responsible for my pack's death without leaving a trail leading back to me.

     I took a shower and did my business before going into the gym. I didn't talk to anyone. I just went straight to the punching bag and released my rage.

     My knuckles were bloody red as I continued to punch the bag without boxing gloves . The mere fact that I have lost my whole identity  just angered me more.'I am happy that we are marked but I agree with you on asking for permission, in any other case i would have said it was just a matter of time but with our past i also feel anger for now we have to compromise on many things including our identity along with protecting our brain from mind reading'.

     "Stop!..... stop it! ...... lenarya you bleeding for goodness sake just stop !" I slowly turned around and looked at zues as pack members looked at us.

     "What the hell are you doing here barely dressed in front of all these men? Don't you see that you are bleeding! " I took a deep breath and slowly bowed my head and said'' I am sorry Alpha for choosing to let out my anger on a punching bag instead of your face. I didn't know that I was not even allowed to make that choice also. Can I please go now?"

     I didn't even wait for a response. I just left and slammed the door.

     I spent the whole day locked in my room reading and dancing around to angry breakup songs. Jane and a few others came to bring me food and I just said I am not hungry when i actually just ate snacks that I keep in my room and am not angry enough to give up food! he's not worth it.

     In all honesty I am angry because he hasn't even apologised or talked about last night. Does he regret it? Maybe he doesn't want me anymore. ....

     "Lenny " I hear him from the opposite side of my door. "Please open the door love "  I continued to ignore him. Did I imagine it or did he really say he loved me last night?

     "I have the spare key in my hands so please open the door before I do it for you because I know you are in there and I can hear your heartbeat. '' I slowly got up and opened the door for him.

     I waited for him to come in and then I walked out and left him in my room. I could hear his footsteps as I walked into his room and straight to his closet.

     His hands came around my waist as I continued to look for something to wear in his closet . "You know that you don't have to steal my clothes. I can always give them to you . We can even go shopping if you want " he said as he snuggled closer to me.

     "If you don't let go of me in three seconds I will break your nose" I said calmly as I counted down from three . I then hit his nose with the back of my head as he let go of me. I took a large black t-shirt and went back to my room as I shut the door in his face .

     "Lenarya please forgive me for not asking for your permission to mark you it just happened i swear I didn't do it on purpose "

     "You are obviously not sorry which is why it took you the whole day to apologise to me which shows exactly how you don't care about me or how you hurt me. You don't know half of the things that you have caused for not asking for my permission. This shows that you have no respect for me . You probably did it so you can cause me more pain  because since i met you all you made me feel is pain , frustration,  sadness and anger nothing more and nothing less"

     "I know am a horrible mate but I didn't mean to hurt you  i just lost control of my wolf i couldn't stop him because I myself had lost control thanks to our heated make out session last night i just felt greedy and i didn't want to let you go"

     "Don't you dare try to push the blame on me because i didn't ask you to  kiss me back, i didn't force you i also didn't ask you to mark me but you did it anyway. I  thought that maybe things can be worked out between us but you are still the same guy that hurt me nothing has changed, you cant even give me a decent apology! "

     "Am sorry for being like this. I swear I'm trying to change. It's just that Alpha mates tend to have a stronger need to mark their mate; they usually mark each other a few days after meeting. I just controlled the need back for too long and I couldn't do it any longer. Am sorry i can't apologise to you properly am just not used to all this i usually don't apologise since am the fearless alpha and all that "

     He looks so cute as he rubs the back of his neck while biting his lips which shows how nervous and embarrassed he is right now. And so I decided to at least try to  forgive him since it can't be undone... At this point I'm just forgiving him for my own peace of mind. I am exhausted.

     I slowly walk towards him and wrap my arms around his neck and say " even though am still very mad at you i want to kiss you soo bad but am afraid of what you would do this time so I  ask you to leave my room and come back in an hour to lie down in bed with me so we can talk some more , ok alpha? ...."

     I was anticipating his reply as his eyes turned from brown to a lustful black .........

     Ohhhhh goddess what have I gotten myself into.