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"I didn't; Alice did. Well, Belle and Zofi too, but mostly Alice. She was all, 'Matty's not our boyfriend. We can't stop him from being with other girls.' And Sam was all, 'Yes, we can! He's ours! He belongs to the BTC!' So then I'm all, 'Well what if I join the BTC?' And then all four of them were all, 'Well if you're in the BTC then you can't fuck him. None of us can!' So then me joining the BTC was off the table and it was back to whether or not Sam would let me... or let anybody have sex with you. And Alice started calling out Sam on the unfairness of all that. I mean, it's not like YOU would stop Sam from hooking up with some other guy, would you?"

I snorted. "Of course not. She already HAS hooked up with other guys. Sam's not my girlfriend."

"Exactly. And you're not their boyfriend. So once Sam wrapped her head around that idea, it was no longer a question of whether she had a problem letting you have sex with another girl, but whether she specifically had a problem with ME. And she insisted she didn't have a problem with me. In fact, she said she'd rather it be someone like me who wouldn't try to make you a steady boyfriend and take you away from them."

It took me an extra couple of seconds to process all that, but I finally nodded and said, "Makes sense, I guess."

She took one look at my furrowed eyebrows and thoughtful expression and said, "This conversation isn't exactly the most arousing thing we could be talking about. My fault. I'm sorry. We should get back to the good stuff." She started rubbing my package again.

"No, don't apologize. I'm glad we talked about it. I don't think I could've gone through with it without being sure the girls are okay with it." I frowned. "That said, the other girls don't know about this, do they?"

"What do you mean?"

"Naimh and Mari: they weren't part of the conversation."

"You're not their boyfriend, either." Holly slid her hand into my pajamas, wrapping her hand around my still-hard erection. Whether or not this had been the most arousing conversation, I was still an 18-year-old boy in bed with a gorgeous, naked girl.

"Still..."

"C'mon, Matt. You're handsome, tall, and really fucking good with your hands and tongue. You're considerate and patient, superhumanly patient to put up with all the teasing you go through. You should've gotten laid a hundred times by now, but you're surrounded by six big-titted cockblockers that scare off all your prospects. Don't you think it's time you finally lost your virginity?"

"Nngh," I grunted, my eyelids fluttering at the pleasure Holly's hand was giving me.

She rolled me onto my back and pulled my waistband down to mid-thigh, exposing my dick and elevating it to a near-vertical angle. She pumped it a little faster and a little harder before ducking her head and taking a long lick along my shaft from balls to tip. "I'm soooo wet for you. I'm fucking soaked, actually, after that tongue-lashing you gave me. And I can't wait to feel you deep inside me."

"Ohhh, Holly..." I groaned, draping my right forearm over my eyes.

After swirling her tongue around my crown, she bobbed her blue-haired head up and down a few times, fucking her own face with my cock. I was as hard as I would ever get, and after yanking my pajama pants down to my ankles, Holly got up on her knees, swung one to the other side of my hips, and jacked my rod with her right hand while aiming it at her descending cunt.

"Oh, Holly," I moaned again. "Holly, Holly, wait!... Wait-wait-wait."

Holly froze just as my mushroom head touched her pussy lips.

"I... I..."

"It's okay. You can do this," she urged gently and started lowering herself. I felt my battering ram begin to part her folds.

"Wait-wait-wait!" I screeched again. This time, I twisted my hips and rolled away from her. She had to shift her balance to her left knee to avoid being toppled over.

"Maaatt..." she whimpered, her voice full of need.

"I'm sorry!" I sputtered. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I just... I can't do this. I can't do this to them."

"Why NOT?"

"Because!"

"The girls said it was okay!"

"That's not the point!"

"Then what IS the point?"

"I don't know!" I lay flat on my back, both palms covering my eyes. Holly said nothing, although from the shift of the mattress I could tell she was still on the bed with me. She waited me out while I caught my breath and tried to gather my thoughts. But the more I tried to get a hold of them, the more they slipped through my grasp.

Finally, I just opened my eyes and looked at her. Even if I couldn't figure out what was going on with my own emotions, the chivalrous part of me wanted to be considerate of hers. "Holly, I'm sorry."

She sat upright, knees to her chest, with her arms wrapped around them. She didn't look angry or anything, just confused and a little... contemplative.

"I'm sorry," I repeated. "I never meant to tease you. Believe me, I know exactly what it's like to be brought right up the bitter edge of doing something only to be stopped at the last fucking moment."

Holly snorted and gave me an amused look. "Yeah, I suppose you would know. Sam's told me stories of some of the things the girls have done in the name of teasing you. There was this one day when she sat in your lap wearing the skimpiest of bikinis. She parked those massive hooters on your face, blinding you with her boobs, really, and actually dry-humped herself to an orgasm on your throbbing erection."

I rubbed my forehead. "She's done that twice, actually. I wanted so desperately to slide her bikini top over just half an inch and pop her nipple into my mouth. I did enjoy grabbing her ass and helping her grind herself on my dick though. I nearly came in my swim trunks."

"But you didn't. She's never let you cum, has she?"

I shrugged and started to sit up, like her with my arms around my upright knees. "It's part of the game."

"This part of the game sucks though. I don't think anyone's ever teased ME and not gone through with it before. I don't like this feeling. It sucks."

"I'm sorry."

"Stop saying that." She shook her head. "How DO you put up with it? If a bunch of girls treated me like this, I wouldn't stick around. I'd say 'Screw you bitches. I'm gonna find someone who'll put out.'"

"We both know I'm not gonna do that."

"Then you're a pussy."

"Calling me names isn't going to change my mind."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. It's just." She took another deep breath, her eyes big as she shook her head. "Wow! This feeling SUCKS. I really think this is the first time a guy's ever turned me down!"

"It's not you. You're amazing and gorgeous and I would have loved to have sex with you. It's me. I just-"

"'It's not you, it's me'?" she cut me off. "Did you really just say that?"

I rubbed my forehead again. "Trite as the sentiment may be, it's true. This has nothing to do with you and everything to do with me."

"You mean everything to do with your feelings for the BTC girls."

I started to say 'no' but caught myself, sighed, and nodded affirmatively. "I believe you when you say they gave their permission. But even so..." I took a deep breath and sighed, a pained expression on my face.

Holly eyed me carefully. "You really love them, don't you?"

My eyebrows popped. "What?"

"The BTC girls. You love them."

"I'm not in love with them. We're just friends."

"I didn't say you were IN love with them, like, romantically or anything. Six girls and one you? That would be really awkward. But it's always been clear how important they are to you, and how important you are to them. They're your best friends, and you can't shake the feeling that if you sleep with me, you're somehow betraying them."

I frowned and thought about her words. Again, I started to say 'no' but caught myself, started to say 'yes' but stopped again, and finally said, "Not that I'm betraying them, no. Whether or not Sam feels territorial, or any of the girls feel territorial, I'm NOT their boyfriend and they have no right to demand faithfulness from me."

"True."

"It really is about ME. I'm gonna sound like a 14-year-old girl, but this is my virginity. And..." I paused to collect my thoughts. "You're really hot, Holly. But as much as I like you, and as grateful as I am for you giving me my first blowjob and being the first girl I ever went down on - even my first naked boob - we don't really know each other."

"Oh, so it actually IS me. I'm not special enough to give your virginity to."

"I don't mean..." My voice trailed off as I made a face. "Well..."

"I'm not one of the BTC." She started laughing.

"Well..."

Holly kept laughing. "You realize you've totally screwed yourself. You're saving yourself for one of the BTC girls, but they've all agreed to never have sex with you."

"I never intended to SAVE myself for them."

"But when you had the chance to stick your dick inside me, you suddenly realized you ARE saving yourself for them."

I buried my face in my palms again. "This is so fucked up."

Holly took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. I still had my face in my hands, but I could feel her shifting across the bed until she wrapped an arm around my shoulders and rubbed me softly. "If it's any consolation, I think it's actually pretty sweet. I mean yeah, you do sound like a 14-year-old girl, but I also know my first time was nothing special, and that's a regret I'll have to live with for the rest of my life. Most guys are so eager to have sex that they don't really care about the girl they're with, as long as she has a working vagina. I think whichever girl finally gets your cherry will be very lucky indeed, because then she'll know for sure she means more to you than just an available pussy."