Chapter 39

Chapter 39
"What are you doing?"
I looked at the message with surprise and surprise, and replied to him immediately.
"I can't sleep, and now I'm in a daze on the steps in the yard."
I was looking forward to Ethan's next message, but there was none. Just when I was feeling lost, a familiar tall figure suddenly appeared in front of me. It was Ethan.
Ethan was wearing a loose gray T-shirt and sports shorts, revealing his strong legs and arms.
His expression was not clear in the night, but his handsome face could still be seen.
Ethan sat down next to me on the steps, turned his head and looked at me, and said softly.
"Is it the unfamiliar environment that makes you sleepless?"
''Indeed, but Miranda's snoring is too loud. How do you tolerate it? "
Ethan smiled bitterly with a bit of helplessness.
"Sorry, I made you suffer. "
"Uh...how are you going to solve the problem between you and Miranda? Do you really plan to stay away from home? "
Ethan looked at the confused night and was silent for a moment, then said.
"Let's not talk about this issue for now. How are you and Jack?"
"Well... that is, for whatever reason, we are together by accident. "
I was a little overwhelmed when I mentioned this topic, but it is true that I was together with Jack because I recognized the wrong person that night.
Ethan fell silent again, and the faint mint scent on his body kept entering my nostrils with the night wind, making me a little emotional for a while.
I suddenly wanted to explain why the three of us watched a movie together that night, and I mistakenly recognized Jack as Ethan, which led to what happened later.
But when the words came to my lips, I didn't know where to start. Is there any point in explaining these things at this time?
At this time, Ethan suddenly Then he looked at the night and said to me.
"Ethan... At the beginning, it was you who disturbed my heart..."
My heart suddenly tightened, as if a big stone was pressed on it. It was indeed me who provoked Ethan first, and I felt very guilty about it.
Just when I didn't know what to say, Ethan glanced at me and suddenly walked out.
This orphanage was built on the hillside, with large rocks and grasslands outside. There was also a stream in front of the orphanage. In the night, the water flow was shining with stars, which was a unique beauty.
"I'll take you to a place."
I looked around, and there were mountains in the distance. I didn't know where to go, so I quickly followed Ethan's footsteps.
"Where to? "
Ethan didn't say anything, but walked forward quickly. Ethan walked very fast, and seemed to be very familiar with the terrain. I quickened my pace and followed him closely.
When we reached an area covered with bushes, suddenly a furry thing screamed and almost pounced on Ethan, and Ethan was so scared that he hugged me.
I also hugged Ethan tightly and looked at the thing. It turned out to be a squirrel. The little guy saw that he had bumped into someone, so he jumped and ran away.
"It's just a squirrel. I didn't expect you to be so timid. "
I didn't expect that such a strong Ethan would be afraid of a squirrel. I felt a little funny. Ethan realized that he was holding me and quickly let me go awkwardly.
We followed the stream to a flat place covered with thick grass and sat down on the grass.
Ethan looked at the stream dotted with stars under the moonlight and slowly told me.
"In fact, I came to this orphanage with Miranda a few years ago. At that time, we were still in New York. We just got to know each other through family introductions. In fact, I didn't have any feelings for Miranda. One weekend, she said she was going to volunteer at an orphanage. Every holiday, she would come from I flew here from New York to volunteer. I went with her once. I saw her singing and dancing with the kids. I thought she was very kind and lovely. I finally agreed to marry her. That night, she took the initiative to invite me to have sex with her. It was our first time. At that time, I clearly realized that although I didn't love her, I only admired and was grateful to her. I thought it was a marriage after all, and it was not bad to marry such a kind and lovely woman... "
I didn't expect that there was such a story between Ethan and Miranda.
Ethan's eyes were a little sad. I felt very sympathetic towards him, even though he was with Miranda just for the marriage. , but they have been married for a year and they are in love.
Ethan was silent for a moment, then continued.
"Actually, before that, I had never made love with any man or woman, because my sexual orientation was very confused throughout my adolescence. When I was in high school, I had a crush on a girl, but when the girl took the initiative to kiss me and invited me to have sex, I suddenly resisted, and my first love ended just like that. Later, when I was in college, I had a crush on both boys and girls, but my father was very strict with me. He did not allow me to decide to develop a romantic relationship with anyone privately, and only ordered me to obey the arrangements of the family. Since then, I have never fallen in love with any boy or girl again, I never accepted courtship from any boy or girl until I graduated from college, when my family arranged for me to marry Miranda... "
I knew Ethan wanted to talk, so I didn't interrupt him, but just listened quietly. He paused, suddenly looked into my eyes with resentment, and continued.
"In fact, since I was transferred to the University of Greenland to teach, my work has become busier than in New York. I haven't been to this orphanage for several months. This time I quarreled with Miranda, and I wanted to calm myself down, but more importantly, I wanted to avoid someone..."
When he said this, he stared at me with burning eyes, and I immediately understood that the person he was talking about was me.