ALICE
I woke up and found myself alone though I felt someone was with me, with whom I felt safe, warm more than what I felt with Ethan.
My brain recalled last night and a smile appeared on my face don't know why but it feels good to spend time with him as he seems someone who is mine.
Grandma entered and interrupted my thoughts which includes mostly includes him more than what I should do for Ethan. He is all over me but I need to stop so I scold myself and went washroom for getting fresh.
After having bath I had breakfast which grandma got for me and I ate happily from her hands. Don't know but I like to it from her it gives me that motherly love.
She dried my hair and then did some oil in my hairs as they were damp and dry. Her hands were just so soothing for my scalp and me. It was as if like she did some kind of magic to me and is taking every sorrow, deep thoughts, pain away from me.
Spending time with her is my favorite pass time here though I don't do anything else of this but yeah I do talk with myself, get lost in thoughts of that intruder, Ethan, Lauren, Dad, Alex, Grandma and my company which was mine. My work I miss it more than anything, they were my everything and I just can't get back to work because of Ethan's stupidity I am stuck here in this big cold-hearted mansion.
After lunch time I was alone sitting in my room watching the blue sky on which white clouds were sailing peacefully but some black smoky clouds passed them.
It seemed as if a beautiful going life just shattered because of the darkness but after sometime that went off and again the beauty of life came back.
On my window sometimes I get to see two birds who were deeply in love and always busy in each other. But today, that male bird seemed abusing the female one and then he pushed her down. She could have fall but her friend came and saved her.
I know its just so unrealistic but it happens and I feel same is gonna happen in real life too. As after seeing this my heart suddenly feels bad instincts and a fear of getting broken. I don't know if it is for me as I am not sure may be I have imagined and observed a lot that's why I may be feeling bad for her heart break.
My eyes were busy seeing out when my thoughts and instincts spoke loud, I felt suddenly scared and too Ethan's name which made me restless so I searched for a phone.
It is my luck or my love for him that I found grandma's phone on my dressing table and I picked it dialing his number. The call was getting cut for first time but at the second attempt it got answered and then what I heard just made my instincts right.
He called me a Slut, Fucking Whore and a Bitch with a no love in his voice but hatred full of hatred. I was shocked and the next second the call disconnected but I wanted to speak and ask why he called me that. I want answers was his love, affection, care, kiss, touch, feel, proposal everything fake.
Was my intruder right that he don't cares for me and is just being fake? Did he just throw me out of his life like that male bird did too the female one? Was I nothing to him but just a slut, whore and bitch? My love for him was true but his was fake....
I said to myself and then I was surrounded by guards who snatched phone from me but I was so broken and shattered that didn't felt like to speak and say anything to anyone.
Mr. Intruder came and bark at his men but I stayed silent and didn't even moved an inch. Everyone left and he lowered himself to me as I was sitting on ground.
He kept on yelling but I didn't got anything he said else of tears a flowing from my eyes which seemed more like fire, blood and pain. As the tears were burning my eyes, my heart and me totally, I felt like I lost everything, that all moments which would make me smile made me angry and shattered more and more with every second running in my mind.
When he made me look at him I was lost in his eyes, as there was no fakeness but a connectivity with him which makes me always attracted toward him and for him. I let my heart come out near him and cried till I wanted his words, eyes, concern, touch made me sooth and helped me to get my burning heart normal again.
I hugged him tightly and fall asleep in his arms as it made me far away from the cheat, lie and betray. The way he punched the wall and hurt himself seeing my pain and feeling it I couldn't stop myself from holding his hand. His eyes showed equal love, pain and betrayal in them as I had love for him and pain, betrayal from Ethan.
When I woke up he was very close to me and our lips almost touched the feelings which I felt for him in these days came out of me. Especially, after the breakdown my heart and mind said together he was my soulmate but I refused to accept it as I already heard my heart once and Ethan broke it. I know my mind was always against it but here both are agreeing and I feel afraid to get broke.
I claimed his lips pushing my thoughts away for sometime and devoured his sexy red lips. It felt more strong then ever feelings for him when I kissed this man lying beside me.
He was for me when I needed someone and is still with me when I need him now and no one else but I had to break his heart by saying that I kissed him for getting my pain less but the truth only I knew.
When I said my words his eyes showed the hurt in them and the next second he left me alone in this room again. And I am sorry for hurting his heart in the process of protecting mine. I know now the person whom I can trust is he and my every unsolved question answers were near him.
"I am sorry Intruder but I had to break your feelings and heart. But I swear I will never use like he did to me and will try fully to not hurt you anymore."
I cried more and more for my already having pain and a new added in it which was the guilt to hurt him who didn't hurt me but only healed me.
"SORRY... I AM REALLY SORRY!!!"
ETHAN
"I want that girl from anywhere and want results otherwise i'll kill you just get me the information about that guy. Who is he and why he wants us to be bank corrupt", Dad and uncle yelled at me.
I nodded my head and let a sigh out of me, I drove myself to her favorite spot which was mine too. I know my love, feelings, words were all fake for her but now I was just habituated to her. My body craved for her to be in my arms at night and it is just so damn habituated that now my nights are sleepless again.
"Why Alice? Why you became my habit? When I was just asked to pretend in love madly and badly but I started caring for you. Your pain somehow felt like mine. I just used you all these days and would be using you more if you come back. I don't want to that but I am just helpless, I am ordered and trained for this only all my life. That I would be using you and make you fall in love for me. At the end, marry you and just take your life and everything."
I wish she kills me off before I do kill her coz I can't kill her anymore, she became a part of me and still me bein bloody bastard have to kill you, hurt you, and ruin your life though you never did anything wrong.
"Why I would have been choose for all this? Why my fate decided to make me finish in the process of ruining her? She just wanted love and myself near her. She was just a perfect girl whom a lucky one can have and I guess being lucky was my bad luck. I myself will be taking her life and snatch my good luck from myself", I yelled looking at the sky but my voice came slow and low out of me.
After spending some alone time and letting my original self here I straightened myself and again made the bad me alive in me going to my office which became my second home as home was called home only when I knew she would be there for me in my arms. Fuck!!!
When I reached my office I barked at my words and abused Alice which made me hurt and killed myself internally. I didn't knew in this pretending days I actually fall for her but after she left me I got to know what kind of gem I lost.
My phone ringed but I disconnected it twice and kept on saying my harsh words for her. When I was done I looked at the number and it made me feel like it was her. But when I called her back a old lady picked it saying she by mistakenly called me as she lost her glasses.
But still I felt it was her and she called me. SHIT!! I should have picked it.
I punched the near wall and my men came running to me but I showed him hand so he stops. I went to my room in office only attached to my cabin and feel asleep staring her pictures in my phone after locking the door.