Chapter 192 Lilith POV

Chapter 192 Lilith POV
I toss and turn, unable to sleep. Why did we stay? Dragon wanted me get a good night's sleep and then we drive back home in the morning. I didn't want to stay here, we are in the packhouse. Damian is at his place, I didn't know he had one....he had to have had one. When I stayed with him we stayed in the packhouse. None of his family is here either, sounds good to me, I don't want to run into his dad. I will never like him.

Rose had a good laugh, they are staying in Damian's old room. Matt was not amused. Lucas, Lacy and Alpha Matteo flew out after the reception. They will be home by sunrise. My mother left with Trey, he drove her. Jenna and Frankie are on the third floor with Alpha John and Tessa, they were seated tables away from us. We only saw them after Dragon's altercation with Ruth.

What did she even mean...what was given? Is she talking about our pup....why would the Moon Goddess give us that just to take him away. My hand instinctively goes to my bump. Soon I will be able to feel him move, kick.

One more event and summer will be over. Rose and Matt will go back to school. Then Tristan will arrive, I am stoked to watch Dragon handle diapers and feedings. I can't stop the smile that pops on my face in the darkness of this bedroom. Moonlight shines through the window. I should go for a walk, maybe it will tire me out and then I can sleep.

I get out of bed, slipping a hoodie over my tank top. I slide on my flip flops, I look over at Dragon before turning the door handle. He is out, sleeping on his stomach, arms under the pillow. He looks so harmless but that is the furthest thing from the truth.

I walk down the stairs and out the front door. I take in the damp, earthy smell. Guards are scattered around, not like at Lucas or Rage's packs. There they are like pebbles on the ground, there are way too many of them. One step at a time until I hit the sidewalk. Walking across the street, I go through the trees until I reach the meadow. I stop towards the middle and drop down to sit in the grass. It's wet beneath my fingertips. I lay back and stare at the stars above, there are packed tight, they feel so low.

Noise startles me back to reality. A black wolf hovers next to me. I reach my hand up and he rubs his head on the back of my hand. Damian, he shifts back and sits next to me. I try not to focus on the fact that he is nude next to me. I sit up slowly and see Jack and Ethan. Jack has a black and white speckled wolf and Ethan is cream colored with dark brown paws. Damian waves them away, they nod and take off back into the dense forest. Asteria's mark on him glows in the darkness. He rests his arms over his knees.

"Can't sleep?"

"Not tired!" I answer.

"I don't know why my eyes look for you always, anytime I know you are near." he pauses and turns toward me. "Your clothes are making me nostalgic."

I look down at myself and laugh softly. Shorts, tank top and sweatshirt, that is what I wore the first night we spent together. Going into a heat as soon as he touched me, fucking in the shower, then in his bed. I get warm quickly but I don't remove my sweatshirt. Damian watches me as if we are both recalling the same memories. He exhales loudly, running his hand through his hair. We are in the same memory. Desire takes him quickly, I regret every second my eyes spend on his growing member.

"What would Dragon do to me if.....I kissed you?" he asks not looking at me.

"Why would you do that? Damian you are mated and marked! What would Asteria think if she heard you talking like that?"

He laughs. "My mate knows who I am."

The silence between is heavy. I don't know what is happening. Why are we drawn to each other.

"You look older!" I reach for his face, I want to pull my hand away but it won't move. I cup his face, he leans into me.

"I miss your gray hair and your black eyes!" he says cupping my face, we move closer. Too close for comfort, we enter dangerous territory.

I hate it, I feel like my father. About to betray my mate for what a moment of desire, that I thought was not there. With this closed chapter of a man in front of me. Is it worth losing all the work we have done? It took us so long to get here. What the hell am I even doing entertaining these thoughts? I am pregnant.

Our noses brush, thoughts invade my head. We pause, a long pause, I feel his breath on my lips. Then snap back to reality.

I pull away, slide a foot away from him.

I love Dragon.

Laughter breaks out behind us.

Dragon closes in.

"I thought...for a second there....you were going to give me a reason to make Asteria a young widow!"

He sits between us putting his arm around me.

"I know I opened a door last summer, but that door is shut. She is mine, she is carrying my pup. I don't have to remind you, right?" says Dragon tossing shorts at Damian.

Dragon stands giving me his hand so he can pull me up. We start to walk away. Damian turns.

"Don't be mad at her, this was all me!"

They talk about me as if I am not here with them, between them.

"She is a horny pregnant werewolf. I should have listened to her when she asked me to take her home hours ago."

Dragon looks me in the eyes. "I love you so much and I am so glad I can read your thoughts and feel you." he pauses, like he doesn't want to say the next words. "I have my limits. Please stop trying to test me."

"I am sorry I made you feel anything other than love!"

"Let's go home!" he says kissing my forehead tenderly.