Chapter 54

What the fuck is she saying? Is she playing with me? This is so hilarious and stupid; she left him because of that silly reason? No plot nothing. I thought she cheated him or he cheated her or the family has not accepted conspiracy and stuff but, there is nothing. She just left! How can she do that? Has she gone mad?

It is not her who is mad it is you, my inner me slapped.

What the fuck is she saying? How can she say that I am mad?

You moron, when the fuck did you start thinking like a typical freak. She left him because she isn’t ready to get married and have a child. It was her life and her decision. It’s her choice. Who are you to decide what she has or have done? Why it should always be a conspiracy or something? Why can’t it just be a person, their choice and their decision? Why can’t it be her? Just her! My inner me pointed with a hard slap.

She is damn true, when the fuck did I start thinking like that, yeah she must have talked with him, that's another angle but wait . Did I just talk like Jake? Fucking yes, he changed me a lot like him.

No, he hasn’t changed you, it is your morality that has slept and he helped in awakening that, my inner me slapped again. I rolled my eyes at myself. What if she had talked with him and he hasn’t agreed? That too would have happened.

“You just left?” she nodded “You should have talked with Jake"

"Yes I should’ve but at that time he wouldn’t have listened" What? Jake wouldn’t have listened to her. She really doesn’t know him. Nat pulled me to her

“Don’t you find it hilarious, Jake not listening? We know him" Nat hissed, I looked at her; she is trying her best to control her laugh. No, stupid!! No confusing that is not the Jake I know. But why does she think like that? She really doesn’t know him. Did she really love him?

"We don't know what and how the situation was Nat, so stop it"

"Come on Ell you too find it hilarious, don't lie and we both know how understanding Jake is "

“Yes that is true we know him, but we don't know what and how the situation was. It was her decision, we should respect that” Fucking yes, I now understand his words at the restaurant on our first meet and at the hospital ‘I respect your decision’ my understanding, my poor Mr. First.

"Is there a problem?" Samantha asked, of course she would. We were busy in our murmuring.

"Yeah, I have to attend a call" Nat answered, thank you Nat.

“Looks like an urgent call, you can" she said with a smile

"Thank you” Nat said and was about to leave, I pulled her to me

"Don't even try to tell Jake about this and if he calls tell him I was asleep" I gave her my phone, she rolled her eyes and left.

"Where did you go?" I continued

"England" so the antiques, I get it. She told me about her England experiences and I tried my best to convince her that Mr. First still loves her. But I have a doubt.

"How many months are you?" Oh no, looks like she found out.

"Six"

"Congratulations. You should be careful" I nodded with a smile "Make sure the father is with you"

"He is very protective and he'll" Nat answered from behind. Samantha smiled.

“Convey my wishes to the father” I nodded

"So… you can come to Jake's place tomorrow let's have a meet up" I said

"Yeah sure but, I don't think he'll be okay with that"

"He will love it, I'll be there too, come on" I assured her.

“You can congratulate the father there” Nat said sarcastically, I kicked her leg. She shrugged.

“Okay then” Samantha said, thank god she didn’t find the sarcasm in Nat’s voice.

We left her house and went to our car. I took a deep breath and looked up. Mike is standing before us.

“Hey hi, what are you doing here?” he asked.

“We are here to play Cupid” Nat mocked, Oh come on Nat.

“Sorry?” he said

“We are here to meet our friend, why are you here?” I asked

“My parent’s lives there” he showed a house at the end of the street. I smile “Come I’ll introduce you to my parents”

“Some other time Mike, we have to go” I said

“Are you okay?”

“Yes” but why is he asking. He pulled me to him and hugged me tightly, what the fuck. He swiped my tears. Holy hell, I looked at Nat she shrugged. I am crying, why?

“You can share anything with me” he said. I took a deep breath and nodded. He didn’t say a word but hugged me tightly “I am there for you Elena, remember” he patted, I nodded and we started back. Nat didn't say a word in our return journey, she is angry that I didn't tell Samantha about our relationship. What is there to say, we are just parents. Tomorrow we should see how it goes.

What should I do? This is going to be our last, last night together. We are not going to see each other again. We are going to meet only when he wants to see the baby; baby is our only hope and only chance to meet. I love him. Love him so much, but we are going to be apart. Can I be happy? Even if I’m not I have to do this, he still loves her. She is even okay with meeting him, they love each other. He said he loves me, yes he did when he was drunk and then, there was no Samantha, but now Samantha is here. What should I do? How can I leave him? The man I love soon is going to be someone else’s, no the man I love is already someone’s, I just came in between. But I love him, love him so much. What should I do? Do I really have to do this?

“Sorry, I’m so sorry Ell. I have been hard on you” he swiped my tears and hugged me tightly, when the fuck did I start crying. We are in the middle of making, fuck! He is about to come out, I pulled him closer.

“No don’t stop, you are not hard, please don’t” I pleaded.

“No Ell, you are weak, I’m so sorry” he almost cried.

“No Jake you are not, just fuck me hard and I want to feel you inside for days” I shouted.

“Mrs. First, what are you say? You are weak”

“Just fuck me!!!”

“We can do it later, when you are strong”

“No Now!!” I started moving, you have no idea Jake, we are not going to be together and I don’t want to waste the night I have with you.

“Whoa Mrs. First” I grabbed his back and invaded his mouth and we were lost.

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It is the morning, last night I took everything I can take from him, I mean mostly, it was the only thing I can take from him, he doesn’t know what is going to happen now and he thought I’ve become horny. Yeah I’ve but selfish last night, I just want him. I don’t want to loose him. We became close after the sex and going to be apart after the sex. I don’t think I can handle this. Stay strong Ell, you can do it. I encouraged myself.

“You should have taken some rest, you are weak” he hugged me, I hugged him hard “Have some rest, please Ell” I nodded. “I really want to stay now, but I have to send a mail, I’ll be back in no time” I nodded. He gave me a beautiful kiss and went inside. I still have that doubt when he had built an empire all over the world why hasn’t he found her when she was in London? Who knows? I rolled my eyes.

Why isn’t she here yet, I've already shared her the location, has she changed her mind? What should I do, I’ll call her if she doesn’t come. While I was thinking the door bell rang; I opened the door it is her, Samantha, thankfully. I invited her inside.

"Are you sure he wouldn't be angry" I nodded "where is he?"

"Inside, call him" she is excited, her smile and excitement are so genuine.

"Jacob….Jackie...” she called, so she calls him Jackie. Her pet name to him is bad; my own pet name to him suits him better. Stop it Ell, stop her!!!! My inner me is screaming.

“Jackie” she called again. He came out of the room and looked at her, stunned. He is stunned; I think he is happy seeing her I shouldn't be here. He turned and looked at me. I don't know what his expressions are but, I think I should leave now "How are you Jackie" she asked

"Excuse me" I said and came into the bedroom. My face is covered with tears, I can't stop them. Why are you crying Ell you did that because you want Mr. First to be happy with his love. You yourself brought her. You have accomplished your mission, you should be happy, why are you crying? My inner me asked. I don't know. I can't stop my tears. What should I do and the baby, I’m so sorry baby but daddy loves someone else. We can’t take him away from his love for our selfish reason. Mommy loves you she’ll take care of you. She is going to be both your mother and father. I love you. I’m not going to leave you. Daddy will come to see you time to time. I promised that to my baby, I hope I keep my promise. That is what I can say to my baby. What if she is against his meet with the baby? What should I do then? She is not that cruel Ell, stop thinking negatively. The door got opened I turned back, it is him.

"How is the reunion Mr. First, sorry Jake, sorry Jacob"

"Why is she here?"

"You are happy right, to get back your love"

"Why is she here?"

"You don't have to worry about living in a fantasy world; you are going to have your own real world"

"Did you bring her here?"

"You'll have your own wife, own life, own family everything, all in reality"

"Why did you bring her?"

"She still loves you, she too didn't get married"

“If she had she wouldn’t have LEFT!”

“She was just tensed”

“No she wasn’t”

“You are made for each other”

“No! She was not for me and I was not for her”

“You are just confused”

“What about him?” he asked placing his hand on my stomach

“You are his father; you can see him whenever you want to. I’m not going to object that” my tears flow increased.

"What about us Mrs. First"

"What about us Mr. First? Who are we?"

"Parents" he placed his both hands on my stomach. Parents? See, he is still seeing and just saying us as parents; I thought he would say more, more like I love you, I want you and many but no, nothing. My decision was right about bringing her here.

"Yes, just parents nothing more than that"

“Nothing more than that?”

“Nothing” to you, but I love you so much, I want to yell, slap and hug you hard but, I can’t, my tears increased.

"Then what about this” a huge gasp came from the door, I looked at the door, it is Samantha, she is in shock, why is she? I should tell her that I am going to leave this place and our relation too. She might get wrong intention seeing us together like this. Her expressions, they are more than shock and surprise. Why? What is this? What is happening?

What the Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!