Chapter 23 It Is Good To Know Everything Still Works
Corran
I am taking a cold shower. I need it. I am feeling things this morning that I didn’t want to. My hormones are racing. I haven’t had a sex drive in a long time. It vanished when I lost Edin, but now, it seems to be creeping up on me. I know the reason, but I refuse to admit it. I can’t admit it. I rest against the walls as the cold shower flows over my naked, shivering body. I close my eyes, thinking of everything and anything I could to try get rid of the impure thoughts in my head.
I didn’t mean to get wasted last night. I didn’t mean to make April worry. If I hadn’t gotten drunk, then April wouldn’t have come here, and I wouldn’t have woken up in bed with her next to me, and these thoughts wouldn’t be present. I am so confused. I have known April for a very short time, not even two weeks, but she has been making me feel things that I haven’t felt at all in the last two years, something that I plan to keep to myself.
I stay in the shower ten minutes before I can’t handle the coldness any longer. I rush out, wrap a towel around me tightly and hurry to my bedroom. I jump under the covers and try to heat myself. They will get wet, but it is fine. I can change them. The cold shower wasn’t a good idea after all. It was my best option, even if I could have fixed the issue with my hand. Thankfully, it doesn’t take long for me to heat up, and I crawl back out of bed to change into some clothes; joggers and a tee. I don’t plan on going out today, so casual clothes are fine.
I need food, and what I crave badly is some of the soup from yesterday. I hope April hasn’t put it all in the freezer. She said I know where she is if she needs anything, so I am sure she won’t mind me showing up to get some. Slipping my phone into my pocket and grabbing my keys, I exit my place, locking up behind me and stroll down to April’s place, knocking on the door.
I wait patiently for her to answer. She does, a moment later. The second my eyes fall on her, all the feelings from before my cold shower come rushing back. She is in a sports bra and cycling shorts, her hair pulled up in a messy bun. Her face is red, and her body gleams with sweat. I swallow hard, and my length twitches to life in my boxers. Involuntarily, my eyes scan over her toned stomach and long, tanned legs. Oh fuck! I should pull away, but I can’t. She is so damn gorgeous. I assume she was working out before I disturbed her.
April clears her throat and brings me back to reality. I quickly met her eye again, embarrassed that I got caught. A smirk curls on her lips, and she raises her brow at me. “Enjoying the view?”
I rub the back of my neck nervously and divert my eyes to the ground. “Um, sorry.”
April laughs loudly. “It is fine. Come in.” She smiles and steps aside, motioning me to come inside.
That is all she has to say? I expected her to lecture me or slam the door in my face for looking at her in such a way. I nod and stroll inside. She has a yoga mat set up on the living room floor and a workout video paused on the TV.
“Do you want to join me for some yoga?”
I shake my head. “No, thank you. I am not flexible enough for that. I can come back later if you want. I don’t want to interfere while you are working out.”
If I tried yoga, I wouldn’t get back up. I will stick to running and the gym.
“No, you are fine, take a seat. I will be done soon, and then I will get you some soup.”
“How did you know that is what I came here for?” I chuckle.
“I know everything,” she snickers and winks at me.
I take a seat on the sofa, and she plays her video again. How am I going to handle her working out right before my eyes? I won’t look, well, I will try not to. April returns to her workout. I look everywhere that isn’t her, but then she bends over into a downward dog position. I think that is what it is called. My eyes fall on her ass, which looks good in the shorts she has on. I shift where I sit, and my tongue darts along my lips.
No, I can’t be doing this. I quickly get up from the sofa. “Can I get some water?”
“Sure.”
I hurry to the kitchen to get some water. I rest against the counters and sigh, running my fingers through my hair. It ha’s gotten very hot in here suddenly. It is best if I stay in here until April is done. It is safer that way. It will stop me from looking at her and thinking naughty thoughts. Though I am glad to know that everything is still in working condition if I am reacting to April in such ways. I honestly thought I was done with anything sexual, not even just sexual, but any sort of attraction. Maybe gorgeous women have hit on me, but not once did I pay any interest in them or show them any attention until April. I know I can’t have her. Even if she did want me, which she doesn’t, I truly believe I would go through with it if the opportunity arises. I don’t think April would either.
I sip my water, in no hurry to return to the living room. I am soon lost in my thoughts. I don’t know how long for, but I am pulled from them when April’s laugh echoes through the kitchen.
“I didn’t know it took ten minutes to drink some water.”
“Um, I got lost in my head, sorry. Are you done?”
“Yes, I am done. It is safe to come back through. It is okay to look, you know? It doesn’t mean you will or want to do anything about it.”
“Am I that obvious?”
“Yes,” she giggles, “The soup is in the fridge, help yourself. I need to go jump in a quick shower.”
“Do you want some?”
With a nod of her head, April strolls out of the kitchen, chuckling to herself. I am such an idiot! I couldn’t have been more obvious. Though, by what April said, it makes me wonder if she likes me looking at her? Who knows, either way, I need to be careful. I shake my head and take a tub of soup from the fridge, pouring it into a pot to heat up. I didn’t plan on staying here to eat. I was going to take some home with me, give April some space from me, but it doesn’t seem to be what she wants. I will happily stay. I like spending my time with April. It is better than being alone all of the time.