Chapter 28 (LOVE)

CHLOE

"How much?"

That made me wonder. Is he asking about my body? The heck of this man!

"How much what?" I asked him, staring at his hazel brown eyes with contempt. How I hate that he was asking me about my price... I am not for sale. I am not like his cheap women crawling through his feet.

"You."

I smirked. "Me?"

"How much is your price to be my wom–"

I hit him hard. There! I was waiting for this moment. Kanina ko pa talaga hinihintay paano ko masasampal ang lalaking ito.

The nerve of him! How shameless!

That's totally insulting too. I am trying to give him the benefit of the doubt but he really loves to irritate me. I hate him for what he did to Carly, I hate him when I saw Strawberry Madrid sucking him, and now I am hating him for making me feel like I am just a piece of flesh he could buy.

I saw Trace's eyes squinted and how he changed from the cool one earlier to a demon giving me his daggering stare. I want to go outside of this room but like someone who was hypnotized, I can't move.

He grabbed my jaw with one hand and then kissed me.

Again and again! Everytime na lang ay sa ganito kami bumabagsak na dalawa. How I hated this scenario!

I pushed him away from me but it was like pushing the walls of this building, mapapagod lang ako pero hindi ko siya matitinag. With Trace, tactics are needed.

I welcomed his tongue inside my mouth but made the wrong move. I felt the passion that made me close my eyes to devour him more. One wrong move led to another as I felt the coldness of the glass wall behind me. Silly me! Naisandal na niya ako nang hindi ko man lang namalayan.

His hand started touching me while his lips and tongue making way down to my neck and back to my mouth. Stupidly, mindlessly, unknowingly... I returned his kisses with equal passion as what he gave me.

Oh, fucking hell!!! I am into this man. I can't deny it anymore.

I removed all my thoughts about other women, about Carly...

Just this once, I want to taste a sin with Trace, my Patricio.

That's what I call him before, the only man I like for that long, and this is no more an infatuation like I thought years ago, I am in love with him. Nagagalit at naiinis man ako sa kaniya pero gusto ko pa rin siya.

Bahala na bukas. Ngayon lang. Pagbibigyan ko na ang sarili ko ngayon. And if I will lose my virginity ay kay Trace ko na ibibigay.

I felt his one hand move to my right butt and he squeezed it. He lifted me afterward and brought me to the couch to lay me there. He topped me as he continued kissing me while caressing my body. As he trailed his fingers on my bare legs, I am beginning to feel the electrifying senses he could give to me.

And with Trace... hindi siya makokontento sa paghaplos lang sa legs ko. The next thing, he was starting to touch my feminine part.

I heard him groan and continued to play his tongue with mine inside my mouth. I sucked and nibbled his lower lip and while I was enjoying his kisses, he left my mouth and stared at me while he was pulling off my undies.

Hindi na ako tumutol, bakit pa? Isang gabi lang at kakalimutan ko na siya at tuloy ang plano. He needs to see Carly for my sister's recovery. I would tell Carly na hindi makakabuti si Trace sa kaniya and I know that sooner or later, Carly would be fine.

Trace positioned his head between my legs and even though I have an idea of what he will do, ay hindi na ako pumalag. What for? It was obvious that I am yearning for this moment to happen too.

I wanna taste how he... Oh, damn!

Hindi ko na naituloy ang sasabihin ko. Just one lick from Trace and all my resentment, negative feelings, and plan were melted. Nakalimutan ko na rin na hindi ako dapat nagkakagusto sa lalaking ito. I tried to suppress my moan but I can't. I moaned softly.

I don't wanna think of anything anymore but Trace and the wonders he was doing to me and my body. Wala na ako pakialam sa paligid at sa kung ano pa man na ibang dapat isipin. Ang importante ay ang idinudulot na masarap na sensasyon na gawa ng dila ni Trace sa akin.

He continued licking me then I felt his finger making entrance into my hole.

No! Doon ako nag-alangan.

I remember he did that to me before and it hurts me. I am not comfortable with that! I moved my lower body so he would refrain from inserting his finger in my hole.

He held back and continued to use his tongue only to pleasure me and his thumb to play with my clit. I let him. As long as he won't insert it then it would be fine.

Oh gosh!

He licked my hole and the sides of my V. Oh my...

"Ahhhh... Trace..." I let myself moan louder this time.

The satisfying taste of this desire made me weaker than ever. I placed my hand on the back of his head and my fingers started to curl on his hair.

"Do you... do you love me... Trace?" I stupidly asked between my moans. I should not ask him that.

He didn't answer and just continued what he was doing.

He didn't stop his tongue playing with my mound and his tongue delved into my soft insides. My mind was back to being blown and I forgot the hanging question I asked him. As the adrenaline rises, something forming inside me makes me wanna have it, I wanna reach it.

"I love you, Chloe. I know I do." He was playing with my clit when he confessed and his tongue went back to play with my wetness.

That made me stunned. Totoo ba?

Nah! Impossible! A man like him could easily say he loves a woman just to bed her. And foolishly, just like some women of Trace, I wanna cling to his words so he could have me.

And then I felt it. Oh, God! Oh, God!

"Trace..." I moaned his name as the near-death experience enveloped me. Closed eyes, crossed brows... I orgasmed... and God! I love it!

He didn't stop until I pulled his hair to gesture that he should stop.

Trace looked at me, his eyes were searching for something. He was asking for permission and I nodded.

I was watching him as he removed his coat and undershirt, every movement of Trace is very manly. He was truly dangerously menacing and my fate to be his woman made me feel scared but it doesn't matter, I will make him mine.

Mine alone.

Sorry, Carly...

As he was unbuttoning and unzipping his pants, I was mesmerized. I was staring at his ruggedly handsome look while thinking of how stupidly I fell in love with this man and forget all my supposed plans.

My eyes moved to his length which is enormous and proudly erect. I gulped, doubting myself if I could take it inside me. He is so big and I began to get agitated.

"No worries," Trace said as he knew what I was thinking.

He then started to give me another mouthful kiss while he was removing my gown from my body. He fondled my breasts and played with the crowns. He sucked my one nipple while his one hand played with the other one.

Oh, shit! I want him inside me. I wanna know how it feels.

He licked my hole again and then tried to position himself above me. The couch is small for the two of us and that made him make me lean on the couch while he changed our positions. He bent one knee to place his manhood into my hole's entrance.

His shaft started seeking entrance while he was kissing me when...

Damn! I felt like he was breaking me and that made me gripped on his shoulder.

The pain. I can't take it! I stopped him.

Oh, my God! I was teary-eyed while shaking my head from side to side to gesture I can't accommodate his huge maleness.

He kissed me and when I fell into his kisses... he made another thrust that pushed me to grip onto his biceps. It's painful! Damnit!

"Stop!" Hindi ko na kaya. Masakit na masyado. It really felt like he was going to split me into two.

Hindi naman siya gumalaw pang muli. Umiling ako na ihinto na. I want him to pull it out.

"Relax..." he whispered and kissed me with all the gentleness that he could possibly muster. Mabilis naman na bumalik ang pagnanasa ko pero nang muli niyang simulan na naman ang paggalaw sa ibabaw ko ay napapikit ako at pinipilit hanapin ang sensasyon na kasama ng sakit.

The pain will subside ang sabi pero bakit hindi pa rin nawawala ang sakit?

Few thrusts he did inside me when I felt that it was getting better. It was still painful but there was something uncanny that made me feel the sensation and it was good.

My arms wrapped around his body when my phone rang. I stopped him from moving in and out. I stood up even though I saw irritation in Trace's eyes. I immediately got my phone and saw Mommy on my caller ID.

"Hello, Mom..." I answered with guilt in my voice. I let Trace penetrate me without thinking about what he did to my sister.

"Chloe..." Mom cried and I know this is all about Carly. I bit my lower lip as the pain of being unfavored hit me.

I cleared my mind and faced Trace who was naked and waiting for me on the couch. The rebellion was in my mind because of the emotional pain my mother was giving me this time. Lagi naman gano'n, maaalala niya lang ako tawagan dahil kay Carly.

"Is it Carly, Mom?" I asked when my mother can't even utter a single word because of her concern for Carly.

No answer but a crying voice from my mother and when I was about to speak, I heard Daddy's voice...

"Carly's gone, Chloe. She didn't survive this time. Come home."

Then the call ended. I was stunned, staring at the man who was the reason for Carly's demise.

I'm screwed. Totally screwed.

TRACE

"Stop!"

She was breathing heavily while making me stop thrusting deep inside her. Kanina pa ako nihihirapan pasukin siya. Tanginang hymen ito!

Ito ang ayaw ko sa virgin eh pero hindi ko naman gusto na may ibang mauna kay Chloe. Okay lang sa akin kung hindi na siya virgin dati pa pero dahil nalaman ko na virgin pa nga ay s'yempre hindi na pwede na may iba pa na kukuha ng kainosentehan niya. Ako lang.

"Relax..." bulong ko sa kaniya at muli siyang hinalikan. Lunurin ko muna sa mga halik ko para makalimutan niya ang sakit na normal lang naman sa una.

When I noticed that she was getting wet and ready again, I started to shove my member inside her. With few in and out thrusts to adjust my length inside her, she was getting by, and with her nails digging in my flesh, I knew that the feeling of lust and sensation was into her once more.

Natural! Dapat lang na mapalitan ng sarap ang hapdi na nararamdaman niya. I am good in fucking at pagtatawanan ako ng mga demonyo sa utak ko kapag hindi ko naparamdam kay Chloe ang kaligayahan na ako lang ang pwedeng magbigay sa kaniya. Ako lang.

Tuloy-tuloy na sana ang pagiging komportable ni Chloe nang may iritableng tunog na naninira ng magandang nangyayari.

Putangina naman talaga!!!

It didn't stop and that made Chloe tap me to stop what I was doing with her.

Woah! Istorbo!

I stopped and pulled out my hard dick from her. I let her get her phone and answered it. Kung sino man ang istorbo na iyon ay mayayari sa akin kapag walang katinuan ang dahilan ng tawag. I checked the time on the wall clock. Past eleven in the evening.

Then I heard Chloe's voice talking to her mom. Ayoko naman makinig at wala ako pakialam pero the fact that her mother was calling her made me miss Mama.

Fuck!

Remembering my mother meant remembering the bitterness of the past that was caused by my stupid father and his mistress. Mga putangina nila!

I removed the sad thoughts from my head and stared at the beauty of Chloe standing in her nakedness. She's officially mine. Wala na pwedeng maghiwalay sa aming dalawa. I made her mine.

"Is it Carly, Mom?"

I heard her asking her mother. Carly na naman? Napailing ako. Naririndi na ako sa pangalan ni Carly pero mabuti na lang at alam ko na kung sino si Carly at paano ko siya nakilala.

Damn! Alam ko na magagalit si Chloe kapag sinabi ko ang tungkol kay Carly, pero pagdating sa isla ay ipapaunawa ko sa kaniya kung ano ang nangyari noong gabi na nakasama namin si Carly.

Truth is kasama ko sina Elliot, Logan at Jake that night. Nasa New York kami dahil kay Jake, we visited him that time and then...

"Oh, my God! Carly..."

Napakunot ang noo ko. Tangina naman! Umiyak na! Ano problema sa Carly na 'yon?!

I stood up and walked to get near here. I was about to touch her when she stepped back. Iniwasan niya ako.

Bullshit!

I was gazing at her at gusto ko na magwala nang pinandampot na niya ang mga damit niya at nagsimula magbihis.

"Anong problema?" tanong ko pero hindi na siya nagsasalita at patuloy na umiiyak.

She was done with her clothes when I pulled her to me. Sa lahat ng ayaw ko ginagago ako at sa nakikita ko ay ginagawa na akong tanga ng babae na ito. Hindi palibhasa inamin ko na mahal ko na nga siya ay gagawin na lang niya akong ewan at naguguluhan na naghihintay ng sagot kung ano ang problema niya.

"Tinatanong kita kung ano ang problema," mahina ang boses na tanong ko pero ang asar ko sa ginagawa niya ay buhay na buhay na.

"I need to go." She pushed me.

Pinakawalan ko siya hindi dahil sa sinabi niya but because of how she look at me. The hatred. The pain. All in her eyes. Why?

"Tangina naman, Chloe!"

"Tang—ina nga..." she cried. She broke down in front of me at naupo na sa sahig. Sa couch siya sumubsob at umiyak na nang umiyak.

Gusto ko man matawa sa pagmura niya at pagtagalog ay hindi ko na ginawa dahil umiiyak na siya na hindi ko maunawaan. I let her cry. Magsasabi rin siya.

I let her and waited... pero putangina at inabot na lang ng ten minutes ay hindi pa rin siya tapos umiyak. Nanlambot na lang ang alaga ko ay umiiyak pa rin siya.

"Tell me what the fuck is happening, Chloe."

"You! It's all about you! I should hate you... I should..." she stood up and pushed me when I was about to hold her. Her tears are blurring her eyes and I hate the fact that she was blaming me for what she was crying about.

"Kung iniiyakan mo ang virginity mo ay kanina pa nawala, huli na 'yan."

Hindi na siya umimik at masama na tingin lang ang ibinibigay sa akin. Para ba naman natakot ako sa masamang tingin niya.

Pero puta! Ano ba talaga ang problema?! Mukha na akong tanga. Ano gusto niya? Huhulaan ko na lang ba? Gago ako at hindi manghuhula!

I get it. May itinawag ang mother niya kaya siya ganito ngayon. Kanina pa masakit ang puson ko sa pambibitin niya tapos ngayon ay iyak pa ng iyak na parang namatayan. Gusto ko na magalit pero kakaamin ko lang na mahal ko. Tangina! Hindi ko na sana inamin. Swerte talaga nito eh!

"Ano problema? May namata—-"

"Carly is dead and it was you who made her kill herself!" She cut my words with that information. I went dumbfounded.

What the fuck! Hindi ako nakaimik.

And being stupid that I was like struck by lightning, she left me in my office. Hindi ko na siya napigilan. O mas tamang sabihin na hindi ko na talaga siya pinigilan iwan ako.

"Fuck!" I uttered angrily. Bakit ba kasi kailangan pa manggulo ni Carly sa aming dalawa ni Chloe?

Lumapit ako sa desk kung nasaan ko ipinatong ang phone ko kanina. I called Nite and instructed him to make sure Chloe gets home safe. After that, I called Keros.

"Boss..."

"Sino-sino mga babae ko na nakapila d'yan?" tanong ko.

Ang galit na nararamdaman ko ay kailangan mabawasan. I need a fuck at hindi ko gugustuhin mag-masturbate dahil sa iniwan ako ni Chloe. I need a real pussy tonight.

"May ilan silang nandito, boss..." Keros stated. "Si Ella Jane kararating lang. Paakyatin ko ba d'yan?"

Tangina! Iniiwasan ko maulitan ang Ella Jane na iyon at masyadong clingy. Minsan ko lang napagbigyan at ilang taon na ang lumipas ay hindi pa rin nakaka-move on. Umaasa pa rin na mapansin ko.

But the fuck! Katulad din siya ni Berry na sawa na ako kaya mas mabuting huwag na pansinin pa.

"Si Siobe, boss. Nandito rin pala. Baka ito type mo."

"Send Siobe here."

Okay na si Siobe at hindi magulo ang babae na iyon. Alam niya kung saan siya lulugar.

I ended the call and breathed heavily.

That's it! I love Chloe but the fact that I need someone to continue what she was supposed to do with me made me look for a replacement.

Papatapusin kita sa pagluluksa mo, Chloe. Pero hindi ka pwedeng bumalik ng America na hindi maayos ang tungkol sa ating dalawa at mas lalong hindi ako papayag na aalis ka na hindi ako kasama.

I was in that thought of mine when a message from Lev disturbed me at kasabay ang pagpasok ni Siobe sa pinto.

"You need me, master?"

"Strip! Don't fucking ask. Just strip and blow me."