Chapter 244: Oh, Please Not Him!

Chapter 244: Oh, Please Not Him!
Kelly Anne's POV:

What is happening to me right now?! Where exactly am I located at this particular moment? Oh, please tell me I'm not caught up in another one of those black-shrouded clouds. The kind that only seems to appear around me whenever I am passed out due to an overwhelming and stressful situation. At that particular instance, I had my eyes closed as I was too afraid to look around at my surroundings. I didn't want to open my eyes and reveal the truth. The truth that I was striving so hard to hide myself from.

The last thing that I remember is that I was standing there on the curb beside the parked car our SUV had been pushed into during that horrible accident. I recall that I was last standing there, frozen in place as I stared over at Shane's silhouette across the street. I remember going over it in my mind, recalling each and every little detail about the scene that was played out before me. I even remember thinking one particular phrase to myself.

It was deep in the back of my mind so that Jasper wouldn't hear my thoughts. I didn't want him to worry about me. About the fact that I thought I saw my ex. About the fact that I was standing there, in that moment, all the while I was staring directly at Shane. Oh, please not him! I pleaded with myself, over and over again. Even now, I could hear that thought going over and over in my mind, hoping that he wasn't here with me, even at this particular moment.

Unexpectedly, this time, I heard something in the back of my mind, although it was a bit different somehow. However, this time, when I heard the shrill sound that usually sent chills down my spine, something caught me off guard. I didn't like that. I didn't like it that it made me feel this way. Why was there a slight difference to it? What was it? What could the difference be? Why did he have to be the one to torture me? Why did it have to be him? Why did he have to treat me this way? What did I ever do to him that would make him treat me the way he was treating me?!

There was no doubt even in the most remote corners of my mind. There was no denying it. I knew it to be true. And that was the last thing I ever wanted. The last thing that I would want is to see him again. How did he find me? How did he know that I was here? This is me we are talking about. How was it that no matter where I was, he always seemed to find me at my weakest moment? He knew exactly what to do. He knew just what to say. Hell, he even knew how to bring me lower, even when I was at my all-time lowest point in my life. And now, here we are again. It was him, and he was here!

"Will you ever leave me alone?" I questioned in the deepest part of my mind.

I listened quietly, my mind not thinking about anything else right then. Nope, there was nothing other than silence. Even then, I still dreaded opening my eyes. The last thing I wanted to do was to open my eyes and to see his hated face, staring right back at me. So I allowed myself to be frozen in fear. All I could do was exist. It took everything I had to manage my own mind so that I could exist in this single moment with my eyes closed. I needed to think. I needed to go over each and every thought about the details of everything that led up to the last moment before I closed my eyes.

The more I thought about it, the more I tried to come up with another answer. However, no matter how hard I tried, it only seemed to bring me back to the same conclusion each... and every... time I made the attempt. No! It just can't be, could it? Did it have to be him? Why did it have to be him!? Even then, the more I pondered, I knew without a doubt. There was nobody else it could have been. The only person who would look that way, letting their appearance be so unkempt while out in public... I tell you, nobody else could pull that off but Shane. No one else would even come remotely close to 'fitting the bill.'

But even then, that still left one unanswered question in my mind. How? How did he find me? How did he even know that I was going to be there? Who would have told him that I was there, heading in that particular direction? Who hated me so much as to turn against me? To treat me as such in a way...

"You foolish bitch," I heard the voice ring out as if they were standing right next to me.

Just then, the sudden and unexpected sound of their particular voice... the sheer sound of its shrill sound that originated from the back of my mind, got ever so louder, as if it were actually screaming at me! I couldn't help it. I couldn't take much more of this. Why was he here?

"Leave me alone!" I thought I told him, but still, even in my lowest moment, I could only hear my words resound on the inside of my mind.

What the Hell is wrong with me? Why can't I speak?! Why can't I just tell him how I feel? Hell, he tells me how he feels each and every time he is around me? Why am I somehow unable to speak? How is it that I am unable to speak my mind with it comes to him? Am I so full of fear that he still holds this uncanny ability over me? Am I still so afraid of him, even now?

I could tell that I furrowed my eyebrows, knowing that my fears were coming true. I knew what it meant to hear this unforgettable shrill sound originate from the deepest part of my mind. I knew what it meant to hear the powerful fear and anger that always managed to be in the sound of his voice. I knew who the owner was and how powerful that voice had become over the years we had been together.

Wait, this is wrong. I needed to do something. Just cause I knew who the particular voice belonged to, that didn't mean that I had to listen to it. I was in charge of my life. I was in control of my destiny. Suddenly, I felt as if Shane grabbed me by both of my shoulders and was standing there, as if he was directly in front of me. Wait, what is he doing? Wait... is he... somehow laughing at me?!

"You foolish bitch..." Shane spouted off as he continued to laugh at me. "You actually think you are the one in control here, dumb broad..."