After nearly three hours of phone conferencing with the council and twenty of the one hundred east coast packs involved in the prospect program, I’m finally free to leave my office. It was a grueling three hours as I haven’t been able to pull my mind away from the young man in the hospital wing, Alpha Cole Redmen.
I was able to do some research on him while on the phone and he is indeed the Alpha’s youngest son. The only information I have received is an email from Dr. Carter showing me the medication he’s on. Unfortunately that’s all I’m allowed to find out as I don’t have a justifiable cause to invade his private medical files. At least not yet.
I run into Lily just as I’m exiting my office. I quickly wrap my arms around her before giving her a long sensual kiss. I gently nip her lower lip, asking permission to take it a step further. Something I only do when I know no one else is around. She pulls away gently, knowing exactly where this is headed. She’s smiling but apprehension laces her eyes.
Despite werewolves being very sexual creatures and we’ve been together for twenty-two years, we haven’t engaged in sex regularly unless she’s desired a pup. Sex has never been easy for her yet she knows that’s exactly what I’m asking for and I know I’m going to get it when she opens my office door back up.
I close the door gently, locking it as she heads for the back room containing a full size bed and a full bath. I gently close that door as well when I get in there. I stand a foot from the door, watching her movements as I vowed twenty years ago that I would never hurt her again like I did that first time.
Although she claims she doesn’t know if her father raped her, her father did admit to mine the he actively engaged her in ‘sexual training’. An old tradition where the girl’s father teaches her how to please her mate from an early age and the end result is rape. It’s been considered sexual abuse for decades but that doesn’t stop it from happening.
We met when I was eighteen, she was sixteen. Her father had been training her on how to please her mate since she was six. He had us get a room together while my father worked out the arrangements necessary for us to bring her back to our pack. The only time my father would bring one’s fated mate back to the pack before they were eighteen was if they were being abused or if the pack was more than a twelve hour drive from ours. Lilly was both.
Her body is tense as she slowly walks around the room, kicking her shoes off at the edge of the bed. I do the same at the door but I don’t like her posture, she needs to relax or I’m not going to take her no matter what she says.
I walk up behind her, gently running my hands down her arms, taking her hands in mine. I lightly run the tip of my nose down the side of her neck taking in every aspect of her scent before lightly nipping my mark on her. Her wolf purrs lightly as she leans into me. It’s a little more towards what I’m looking for with her but she’s still tense. As much as I need this release with her to clear my head and focus my thoughts on how to handle this abused young man in my territory I won’t hurt her again.
“You’re tense Lilly. I know you won’t refuse me but you also know I won’t take you tense. What’s on your mind?”
“That boy in the hospital. It’s been a long time, Demetri. My cycles have merged this month so I know I’m on the sensitive side which will make this difficult for me but I need this from you just as much as you do.”
She turns in my arms, placing her hands around my waist.
“I know you go off body language more than my words but please Demetri, you know what I need when stuff like this happens.”
I nod my head as I kiss her forehead. I don’t linger there though. I move to the side of her head to her ear before giving it a gentle nip. I continue my trail down her jaw, to her neck before concentrating on my mark. Her body responds instantly to my kisses, licks and lite nips upon my mark. A single bite mark, now a scar, in the crook of her neck between her neck and collarbone.
I trail my fingers gently behind her neck finding the zipper to her dress and slowly pull it down to her waist before concentrating on the clasps of her bra. She shrugs both items off her shoulders just before she captures my lips into a deep sensual kiss bringing the soldier between my legs to attention. Her hands wonder my body slowly clueing me into her own hesitance of what she really wants. My arms are wrapped around her back, pulling her into me tightly, my bulging pants grinding against her panties. I can feel her hands shake as she unbuckles my belt followed by the button of my jeans. It’s as she’s grasping the zipper that I growl sharply, firmly pulling her hand away as I’m met with a lite whimper.
I look down into her stunning blue eyes as they fill with tears from my sudden rejection of her actions.
“You’re shaking Lilly. You’re afraid of me right now. You know I can’t do this when you’re shaking like this.”
She reaches her hand up to my face as I close my eyes and lean into her touch.
“I forgave you a long time ago for that first time. It’s about time that you do the same. I love you and despite knowing how the hardest part of this will feel, I sought you out. Just be gentle with me.”
“I’m always gentle with you, Lilly.”
I whisper as I look into her eyes again, searching for the hesitation I know I feel from her. I find nothing but longing, a desire to be with me.
“Just be gentle with me.”
She emphasizes again as she pulls my head down into a deeply sensual kiss filled with passion and need. I know by her emphasis that this is going to be difficult for her so instead of simply giving her what she wants I want to pleasure her. Take my time to give her as much pleasure as I can before it mixes with the pain.
I wrap my arms around her and make no moves to stop her from gently pulling my zipper down, careful to miss my manhood. My jeans fall quickly to the floor as she hooks her thumbs into the waist of my boxers, pushing them away as my hardness is fully uncovered. I hook my thumbs into her panties and in one motion, finish disrobing her as well.
She squeals loudly as I pick her up and carry her a short distance to the bed. I lay her down gently and make no moves to adjust my position as her legs are already wrapped around my waist. She relaxes her legs into an open butterfly as I move onto her chest. She gasps as I gently suck one of her nipples into my mouth. Gently flicking it with my tongue her body melts in ecstasy. I switch breasts sucking the other pink bud into my mouth.
It’s while she’s distracted that I run my hand down between her legs. I take my time, feeling every aspect of her body as I run my hand gently over her inner thigh. I slowly circle around her pelvis until I’m touching her other thigh. She quivers and whimpers as I cross over the middle. The more time my hand spends between her legs the more she tries to close them, the unmistakable nightmares of her past evident in her whimpers.
I slide my hand back to the center, in between her legs. I still my movement as I push my body back towards her head, capturing her lips in mine. She’s not as confident as she was a few minutes ago. I’ve taken her out of her comfort zone. I slowly run my hand gently between her legs. My wolf purrs lightly at the feeling of her slit beneath my hand. She struggles with my touch, her desire to close her legs is obvious as she squeezes my body between them.
I leave her lips and start back on her mark hoping it would distract her enough from the mental uncertainty of what I’m doing for her to accept the feeling of her mate between her legs. Her whimpers quiet as I gently nip her mark. I continue my distraction as I gently press my middle finger barely into her slit, rubbing gently and slowly. I increase my pressure slowly until I reach the sensitive skin inside, rubbing gently against her sensitive nub.