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Café Rosso was a tiny, elegant spot in a quiet corner of Naples. It served good coffee and had a strong base of locals looking for discretion rather than flash. Val was just on time at twelve o'clock, walking slowly on her crunches, for her leg was yet dragging from the ashamed foot.
Luca’s men had fanned out around the café — at neighboring tables, in parked cars, watching from across the street. She’d demanded to come alone, but Luca had demanded backup. Both sides described it as a compromise that left them not entirely satisfied.
In a corner of the room sat an older woman, serene and stately. A woman in her mid-60s, with silver hair pushed back from her face, she was dressed in a navy suit that telegraphed wealth and understated taste. She watched Val walk towards her with brilliant dark eyes that looked as though they held entire universes of knowledge.
"Valentina Caruso," the woman said, indicating with her hand the empty chair. "I'm Elena Ricci. I was the wife of the man your father killed.”
Val stiffened at once, her hand going to the phone in her pocket as if she could decide before she did so whether it was possible for her to dial for help fast enough. She rose part of the way up, but Elena held up one hand, a gesture so unassumingly powerful that Val sat back down.
"Please," Elena said. "I'm not here for revenge. That ship sailed years ago."
"Why should I believe you?" Val asked, her voice guarded.
“If I wanted revenge, you’d be dead already,” Elena said matter-of-factly. “And because I respected your mother too much to do that to her daughters.”
Two coffees, Elena told the waiter who materialized at her elbow. They remained silent while the coffees came and until the waiter had withdrawn.
“My husband was a thief,” Elena said next. "Violent. He had it coming to him. I won't mourn him. But his death had consequences. The Ricci family splintered. His younger brother took things over, and was even more brutal. This is where Matteo came from — the drive for revenge over a death he didn’t even understand, to preserve a family’s honor already reduced to ashes.”
Elena took a sip of coffee. “I’ve been watching your family for years, Valentina. Not out of spite, but out of... care. For Isabella, and then for you.”
"How did you know my mother?" Val asked.
"We were friends. Secret friends of the sort powerful families discourage. I received an email from Isabella years after my husband died at a very low time in my life. She needed to talk with someone, somebody outside of her world. Someone who knows violence, and its fallout.”
Elena's expression grew sadder. “I attempted to get her treated for depression. I encouraged her to meet a therapist, and to leave your father if she needed. Yet Antonio wouldn't admit that anything was wrong. He regarded anorexia as a weakness, as a personality defect rather than an illness.”
Val’s hands trembled as she had coffee. "The night she died—"
“She rang me” Elena interrupted softly. "We spoke for about an hour. She said she could no longer live with the weight. The only way to keep you and Alecia safe was by getting out of your lives, she said. She imagined, incorrectly, that you would be better off without her shadow hanging over you, without her illness influencing your growth."
Tears scorched Val’s eyes. "She abandoned us."
"No," Elena said firmly. "She was sick. Deeply, profoundly depressed. And she made a decision, the wrong decision, but it was an understandable one from within that depression. You have to understand — your mother did not have all her sensibilities. It is not commonsensical to commit suicide. It is a decision made by someone in such relentless pain that they can’t see any other way out.”
Elena Stringer pulled a small wooden box from her purse. She pushed it across the table toward Val. "Your mother gave this to me. She hoped you would have it when you were old enough to care. She termed it her ‘true story.' It’s her diary over the course of about 20 years.”
Val was so afraid to open it that she just stared down at the box.
“When you’re ready, read it,” Elena said. "But know that she loved you. Understand that her depression wasn’t your fault. And know that she would be proud of you for making it through what she couldn’t.”
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Returning to Luca’s temporary home — while the penthouse underwent more renovations from the fire and shooting — Val sat down in an empty living room, pulled the journal into her lap and read in peace.
The first entries were from when Isabella was twenty-three, just arrived in Naples and smoothing out her new self. She wrote about how she met Antonio, about how fell in love, about how she thought she could make a normal life.
"I've escaped," one entry read. And now I'm free from Father's house, free from the darkness! Antonio is kind and strong. I feel like I have the potential to be happy with him.”
Val read about the story of her birth and Alecia’s, about Isabella’s joy as a mother. There were entries filled with love and hope, as well as dreams for her daughters’ futures.
But then the mood started to change.
When Val was around five, the journal entries began to grow more and more fragmented. Isabella wrote from nightmares, from flashbacks to her own childhood, to the weight of memories left behind but she thought she’d escaped.
“I dream Father’s face in my sleep. Bianca is crying out to me, I must save her. I'm failing everyone. I abandoned her here, and now she’s stuck in this house with him. How can I go on living when I know what she’s going through?”
Years passed. The entries darkened and grew more desperate.
Then there was an entry from about a year before Isabella’s death: “Antonio knows something is wrong, but he doesn’t want to accept it. To him my depression is a mark of personal failure, a defect that reflects poorly on him. When I tried to tell him about my family, what Father did, he told me to stop living in the past. “He said it was unhealthy to dwell on it.”
And then another one, even from months before: “I know Antonio made a deal with Luca Caruso. I read that Valentina’s marriage was a business transaction. I tried to stop it.” I said to Antonio that I would drag everything out — his criminal activities, links with the mafia. But he laughed at me. “No one would believe a depressed woman, he said, that I do have mental health records that will demolish my reputation.”
The final entries were heartbreaking.
“If you are reading this it means that I have been to my happy place, I just want you to know that it is not your fault. Not about you letting me down, not loving me enough. It’s about my being sick in ways I couldn’t cure. This is about a weight that I was never meant to hold, and yet bear. The darkness in our family is so deep, I just don’t have the strength to escape it. Perhaps you will. Maybe you will be stronger than me. I hope so. I love you both so much. My life, my happiness. That's why I'm doing this. Because I love you, and I can’t be the mother you deserve when I’m so busy drowning. Forgive me. And for the love of all things mighty, don’t let our family’s darkness dim your light. Be better than me. Be better than Father. Be better than all of us. Live for me. That's all I ask. Live, love and break the mold. Your mother, Isabella."
Val snapped the smooth cover of the diary shut, heartbroken but relieved for once.
Luca discovered her secret on the balcony in Naples, clutching that damned diary. Without asking questions, he pulled her close and let her grieve properly for the first time — not for the loss of her mother that she’d felt them I wasn’t there at noon on a bright Looking-Glass day but for finally knowing the mother she’d lost.
"I'm pregnant," she whispered.
"I know," Luca said softly.
“I’m scared I’ll turn into her. That I’ll pass this darkness to child.”
"You won't," Luca said. "Because you're aware of it. Because you're breaking the cycle."
They appeared side by side at the end of the evening, and for a moment everything seemed like it might actually be okay.
Then Val's phone rang.
Unknown number. She nearly didn’t pick up the phone, and then she did.
The voice was garbled, electronically disguised: "Valentina Caruso. Thought it was finished Wish you just begun. Your grandfather's trafficking ring? It never stopped. And the people in charge of it now? They know you have Isabella's testimony. They're coming for you, to be sure, and for that baby. Savor your peace while it lasts!”
The line went dead.
Luca had listened on the phone. Their eyes met, and they both knew: this nightmare was not over. It was just beginning.