Chapter 41

Chapter 41
|| AZRAEL DE LUCA'S POV||
' I don't love him '
' Ryan was a miracle '
' I am going to get married soon! '
Her words kept reverberating inside my brain again and again until I felt sick inside. Maybe not physically but mentally, I was having a war against strange emotions. I was nothing but an accident to her. She said them so confidently in front of those judges that it made me doubt herself. All the kisses we shared, didn't mean anything to her?
The sound of my punches kept rising with the burning rage inside me. I was using this man's face as a punching bag. He fucking dared to send a threat to Matteo who went to finalize a deal to represent me.
Whoever comes in my path should face death!
" Stop...Luca..you will kill him..", David warned me, pushing me away from the guy who was half dead. His face was probably bleeding, his nose broke from my hard punches. David continued in a growling voice, forcing me to sit and calm down,
" Don't vent your rage on him! He didn't make any big mistakes. Besides, the little prince is still in the house. I don't think that he should see his father killing someone at this early age. You should go and spend time with him now, Luca. He is yours now completely."
Yes, Ryan was becoming mine but this battle didn't excite me a bit. Ever since we parted our path from the court, all I could remember was her crying face. I wanted to hold her in my arms instead of that bastard who was coaxing her.
She was gone...
I didn't see her face nor did I hear her voice. Feelings were crazy things indeed. No matter how much power you have, you have to bow in front of them one day.
Keeping David's words in my mind, I went to Ryan's room not before cleaning up. As soon as I opened the door, I saw him rolling over the bed.
" Can't sleep?", I told him, switching on the lights. He sat up immediately, his face had a big smile that melted my heart,
" Daddy!"
I froze in my tracks, and almost couldn't believe my own ears. But all the doubts were cleared after he spoke again in his baby voice,
" Daddy..why doesn't Mommy come these days? She always says that she has work. I hate it!"
Guilt swelled my heart. How could I tell him that I was the reason behind his mom's absence?
Flashing him a forced smile, I climbed up on his bed, putting him on my lap to speak,
" Mm! She seems like a busy, sweetheart."
He dropped his eyes sorrowfully. I swear, I hated to see his sad face just like her. Both of them were turning my weakest spots. I could feel that evidently. He mumbled in a low voice,
" I miss her..."
I miss her too.
My inner voice replied but I couldn't bring those words to my lips. A wicked idea crossed my mind. I couldn't hide the temptations of this idea which seemed to work beneficially. I blinked innocently, and asked running my fingers through his hair,
" Don't be sad.. sweetheart...Mm.. Would you like to meet your Mommy! Cough. I can take you there if you want..."
Ryan flashed me a devilish grin that made me embarrassed as if he had seen through my intentions. Grinning from ear to ear, he muttered in a lower voice,
" Don't lie, Daddy! I know it's you who wants to see her. Well, since we both miss her.. let's just help each other. But you must promise me something.."
I laughed practically in front of him. He was really my son. Even I didn't need any DNA test to prove that. He picked all the naughty habits of mine. I used to trick my father like this. I nodded, smiling at him,
" Go ahead!"
He replied excitedly,
" We will take your bulldog too. I want him to meet Mommy. He is my new friend now.."
I was seriously speechless. My bulldog? He actually made friends with my scary bulldog which we used in missions sometimes.
God..he was going to be scarier than me.
_______________
" What the fuck... are you...Ryan..." The change in her expression gave me the urge to laugh. She started cursing me as soon as she opened the door. Her eyes shone brightly as soon as she saw Ryan in my arms, crying.
Well, it wasn't like he was really crying.
To make the situation better, he started crying from the ground floor on purpose. Fuck..His cry sounded too real. Thank god, he got some genes from his mother too.
I explained in a nonchalant voice, passing her Ryan,
" He didn't stop crying. I had no choice but to bring him here.."
Kiera just furrowed her brows a little suspiciously but I kept pushing myself to keep up with a hard face. She didn't invite me in, hussed our son to ask him to stop crying. Her one hand grabbed the door, ready to shut it off in front of my face but Ryan suddenly started whining,
" Daddy..."
Oh, my smart baby.
He stretched his little arms at me, asking for his mom and dad together. Kiera had no choice but to compromise. She opened the door wide with a helpless sigh,
" Come inside! You can go back once he falls asleep!"
I smirked, following her inside. She was wearing a night robe, and looking freshly showered. I knew that she had a habit of taking shower before going to sleep. As soon as I entered her small apartment that she had been living in temporarily, all the happiness that I felt to see her was gone. Over the couch, her friend was sitting there.
Alastair...
I found through David that they were friends for life. Still, he was a man and I didn't trust anyone around her. Alastair looked shocked when his eyes went over to fall on Ryan in Kiera's arms. He smiled knowingly, took his leave fast,
" I guess, it's family time, Kiera. See you later!"
Thank Goodness that he left. He was making my blood boil in rage.
" What does he do at this late hour?", I asked irritated, and went over the couch to take the opposite seat in front of her. Ryan was already sleepy in her arms. It seemed like he just fell asleep after having his mother's presence.
Kiera sent me a glare, replied with a scowl on her face,
" Just what do you do at my apartment at this late hour! You could have sent David.."
Fuck...Did she want everyone else but not me?
I clenched my jaw hard, not wanting to wake up my son. Letting out a scoff, I reached for the open window, lightening up a cigarette,
" Only for Ryan!"
I lied to her but she didn't seem interested in hearing my words. She warned with a scoff,
" No smoking in front of him!"
I quickly threw it away, no risk when it came to my son. Looking behind, I saw her, putting our son on the couch. Then, she tiptoed towards me to remind me,
" What are you doing here, Luca? The court forbade me to meet him these days. You are practically breaking the law."
I smirked at her threatening glare, replied with another arrogant scoff,
" I am the lawmaker. I have broken a thousand laws already. So breaking one more wouldn't make any difference. What about you? Are you going to marry that guy?"
Her gaze narrowed and confused,
" Who?"
" Alastair!", I almost gritted the name out, trying to sound neutral but I was failing badly.
Her face grimaced but she skipped the question, answering something else,
" I am not obliged to tell you!"
Shit...She was making this hard for me!
I swallowed thickly, and told her out of nowhere,
" I am taking Ryan to meet my grandpa tomorrow in ITALY!"
She denied instantly, seemed anxious,
" No. You..you can't. The court doesn't approve..I..I.. will come with you then..I can't leave him alone.."
" You will?", I asked, my heartwarming happiness. Finally, she was willing to spend time with me. I hated the last time when she avoided my touch as if I was a germ to infect her.
She nodded before looking away,
" I have reduced my work lately. I won't be at peace if I stay here. Just think of it as a vacation..."
I kept staring at her with intensity. Although she knew that she had no powers against me, still she was doing her best to fight against me.
Would I ever find a better mom for Ryan than her?
I questioned myself but got no answer. My hand raised subconsciously to cup her face but a sudden annoying voice broke our peaceful atmosphere,
" Kiera....Kiera......Ki..era...Come ..Out...Ki. KIERA...Where are you...Ki..Ki..era.. please...."