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Amina

I sat on one of the couches in the living room while waiting for Ivan to come back with my phone. I was so happy, he probably had no idea. If he gives the phone to me, I will try and finish my up assignment quickly so I can listen to some of my downloaded songs on it before I went to bed.

I looked in the direction where footsteps where coming from and saw Ivan as he walked to where I was.

"Your phone," he said and held it out in front of me. I took it carefully from him like it was a treasure of some sort.

"Thank you," I thought I should say again even if I had already showed my appreciation to him before.

"You submit your assignment tomorrow right?" He asked.

"Yeah. Don't worry, first thing tomorrow morning, I will return the phone to you before we leave for school." I assured him when I heard the uncertainty in his voice.

He nodded and smiled."The password to my wifi is candb067."

"Oh. Okay." I said and had this urge to hug him. It's weird, I know. I didn't think my decision through, I just did it. I put my arms around him and hugged him; I was happy about getting to use my phone after this long.

I thought he would put his arms around me too...I mean, all the things he said In the car on our way to school and also the day I thought he would kiss me. I think he likes me so I expected he would hug me back but he didn't. I should worry more over the fact that he wasn't hugging me back but I got distracted by the smell of him. Gosh, he smelt so good, I didn't want to stop hugging him but I had to tell myself how awkward it would be that I was hugging him for this long. I separated myself from him and cleared my throat which had gotten dry all of a sudden.

I looked up at him to see if I could decipher his coded thoughts by the expression he had on his face but he looked away before I could do that. I smiled to myself when I became aware of him trying to hide his face from me by looking away.

I still had my smile on when I remembered what he said to me once when he had entered my room without knocking; I was just in the pink towel and he had come Into my room and approached me and just when I thought he would do something to me, he had said:

“If I ever do touch you, Jewel, you would want it. You would want it so bad.” They were his exact words. They had given me goosebumps that day and even now that I was just remembering it, it made my hairs stand on edge.

I just don't understand Ivan. Sometimes, he is so mean and scary, and other times, he is kind and caring and annoying in a sweet way. I had to remember his words giving me goosebumps because I couldn't believe it was the same him that I just gave a hug and he didn't return it, he just stood there like a mannequin. Maybe he remembered the thing I had said to him that day when I was just in the towel.

“If you touch me Ivan, I will tell my father and he will make sure to gut you with a cutlass.” I remember my every word that day too and I can't help but go DAMN, did I really threaten him with that? He could have done whatever he wanted if he did that day, my father was back home in Nigeria and I was here, in his house, alone with him.

"I will order some food for us. Know that's why I'm at your door when I knock." He finally looked back at me.

His face was expressionless and cold without an ounce of emotion reflecting for me to depict what I wanted to. He always did this; he always turns to giving me a dead look and a cold face whenever he didn't want me to see or know what was on his mind.

"Okay." I just told him.

"You can go to your room now." He said and I felt bad, kinda. It was like he just wanted me gone and out of his sight.

‘You can go to your room now.’ I replayed his words in my head and wanted to stick out my tongue disrespectfully at him and maybe annoy him. At least, that would be my revenge for him pushing me off like that.

First, he promises to take me wherever I wanted to go if I took my drugs and then he doesn't fully keeps to his promise; he knocks me out and coerces me to take another of my drug which I wouldn't have to take if I wasn't made unconscious by him.

I clicked my tongue and walked to my room. Gladly, I had my phone for the night. I was house to finish up my assignment research and then listen to some good music. Goodness knows how much I've missed listening to some songs and dancing to the beats..

I got to my room and took out my books to start with the assignment. It was harder than I imagined to write an essay like we were asked to but I was done in no time. I packed up all my school things and jumped onto the bed. Finally, it was time for some good music.

I went to my streaming app and checked if some new songs were out since I was deprived from using a phone. I downloaded some new songs and decided to put my playlist on shuffle. It began with the new song and it was just me nodding my head to the beat but then the next song was an old download. It made me get out of bed with the urge to dance.

I swung my waist and moved my body to the beat of the song till the phone starting to play another old download which was an r'n'b, compared to what I was dancing to before. I made my body move slower now, trying to follow in the rhythm of the music and let it's sound envelope me.

While I danced, I remembered that I hadn't bath yet since I returned with Ivan so I started to take off my clothes. I removed the outer knitted vest I had on first, then I took off my top slowly, still dancing. Left with just my bralette, I began to slide down the thin strap of it down my right shoulder.