Chapter Fifty One: I want my mate

"Everything is going to be fine," Rosa whispered within my ear, repeatedly; while she held me, rocking me slowly, back and fort.

"No, no, I keep on telling her,"wanting her to let me go; as I cried for my mate.

Rosa held my face and turned it towards her gently.

"Liam loves you very much, she told me. He will never leave you," she informed me.

"Then why is he not here with me, now?" I asked her while I continued to cry.

"My child, Rosa answered me; while she stared within my tearful eyes. Liam is hurt," she said.

"I should have told him the truth, but I was too scared, I said to her. And now he's angry at me."

"That's not the reason why, he's angry at you, Rosa answered me. He's angry that you've hidden the truth from him and allow his mom and the others to blackmail you; his Luna," she said.

"I just didn't want him to hate me; if he found out," I said to her.

" I know child, I know," she said while she brought my head back to rest on her shoulder, while I cried.

For the day Rosa had decided to close her store; not wanting to do busy; all because of me.

She wanted to be by my side; in comforting me.

"Come," she called me; while she closed her store door.

I removed my naked body from the floor. Following her upstairs; until, I was within the room. I once called my own.

"Go on sit," she pointed towards the bed. As she exit the room; insearch for clothes for me to put on.

The draws within the room were empty. All of my clothes were at the alpha's home.

I sobbed; thinking about how disappointed my mate looked when he had left me here.

I removed myself from the soft bed and went to the window.

My sad face then became lighten by a smile; remembering the night he came through the window soak; just to see me.

I cried even more, wanting only him to comfort me and not Rosa. Even though she was trying to help me the best, she could.

"Bang, Bang,"  I heard a knock on the door.

I didn't bother to turn around, to look. The door was open and I know it was Rosa; just letting me know, she was back.

"I found a dress," she said.

I turned around and saw it was a dress, she had taken from her store.

"I can't pay for it," I said to her. As I approached her.

Rosa hiss her teeth and stretch out her right hand giving me the light, blue dress.

"It's your size," she said.

As I took the dress from her. I saw her paused; staring at my naked body.

Feeling ashame. I hid my body.

"I'm sorry, she apologized to me. No, it couldn't be," I then heard her said.

I stared at her; wondering why she said that. I continued to hide my body; brushing back my hair in hiding my ass and went into the bathroom; in getting dress.

As I entered the bathroom. I took a quick look behind me and saw that she was still staring at me and closed the bathroom door.

I started to put on the dress over my head; slowly carrying it down to body. Not wanting it to rub against my breast too hard. I hated the feeling. Most of all my wolf within me too. I could feel how aggressive it can be when that do happen.

"Avery," I heard Rosa called me.

I exit the bathroom and walked towards her; seeing she was within the same position. I had left her.

"Yes," I answered her sadly.

While my mate constanly kept running through my mind. I couldn't stop thinking about him.

I wanted to be next to him, right now and not Rosa.

Rosa stared at me within the dress and walked up to me.

I watched her carefully, as she approached me. Until we were close.

I saw her moved her hand about to touch me.

I felt my body jumped, uncontrollably. While I growled loudly and angrily at her.

"I'm sorry," I apologized to her while I covered my mouth.

"I don't know what's happening to me, but, I'm unable to control my wolf sometimes," I explain myself to her.

"I understand," she said while she smiled at me.

"What's happening to me?" I asked her.

"Your human form will find out soon," she answered me; while she instructed me to, sit.

"I can't now," I answered her.

I wanted Liam; I wanted to be with him, now.

"Just give him sometime to think, she informed me.

I turned my head aside; not wanting to listen to her.

Come let's go to the kitchen, to get you something to eat," she said.

"No, I want Liam!" I shouted at her.

Rosa stared at me frightenly.

"I'm sorry," I cried to her. As I apologized.

"I know that you want to see the alpha right now, honey, she said. But, now is not the right time. He needs to be alone right now. He need some time to think. And you need to eat," she said.

"I'm not hungry," I said to her. As I sat on the bed.

"I'm  going to get you something to eat right now," Rosa said; exiting the room.

"I'm not hungry," I again said to her. While I lay on the bed.

I watched her as she exit the door until I heard her footstep no more.

Suddenly I came off the bed quickly and ran downstairs. Went into her store and open the door; running to find Liam without her knowing.

I just couldn't sit, wondering if he will come back for me.

As I ran on the road, I looked side ways and saw everyone, stopped what they were doing and started to watch me. I didn't care anyways.

All I could think of was the alpha. My mate. I wanted to see him so much.

My hair pull on the road as I ran to him; pulling behind me like a rope and my thin, beautiful, light dress blew within the wind.

I glance at a man, placing some carrot  within a bucket.

I saw his mouth went wide open, as I speed pass him; dropping all his carrots on the red road. Amazed by my beauty.

I then slowed down as I saw, I was at his home; that we shared. I stood there for a minute, looking to see if I would see him standing at the window. But, I didn't see him.

I slowly walked to the house and knocked the door.

The maid Julene open the door.

"Afternoon," she greeted me with sadness on her face; knowing what I did.

She moved away from the door, allowing me to enter and closed the door behind me

"Is he here?" I asked her.

"Yes, he's upstairs within his study room," she informed me.

I thanked her and walked slowly upstairs to him. My heart raced within my chest; as I thought of being next to him.

I then started to remember the night we could have share within the study room.

Soon I was standing before the study room. I stood still staring at the door; thinking of what I should first say to him. While tears flooded my eyes.

As I was about to knock the door. I felt a strong bad feeling within me; causing me to hold my belly.

I cover my mouth quickly. Running into the room we shared and went into the bathroom. throwing up into the toilet. Not closing the doors behind me.

"Huh..," I made a disturbing sound. While I kept on vomiting.

I was so eager to see him. And I hate what was happening to me now.

Finally I had stop in throwing up. I flush the toilet and went to wash out my mouth; slowly sipping a small amount of water.

Suddenly I stopped while the water continue to ran against my right hand and down the drain.

There was someone within the room.

I turned of the pipe slowly and lift up my head. Looking towards the room and their. I saw him.  Sitting on the end of the bed. Within the same position he had sat; wanting me to take off my clothes for him.

I wiped off my mouth. While I stared within his dark eyes. He was handsome than ever. And dressed fully in black. With his short dark hair let down; with strands of it within his face.

As I walked over to him. I saw him got up walking towards the window.

I ran over to him. Stopping him in standing within his way.

I then took both of his hands.

I slowly put one against the side of my left cheek; closing my eyes. Enjoying the soft touch of his hand. That once played with me and placed the other on my beating heart.That only beats for him.

I open my eyes and saw him staring within my eyes that were darker than the night sky.

"I love you Liam, I told him. I don't want to live without you," I said while I cried to him. Dropping my head on his hard chest.

He held by my chin and lift my head to his face; as we both stood close to each other. And removed himself from me walking towards the window.

Soon he stopped.

I stood there for a while; staring at him from behind. While strands of his dark hair blew within the wind; that came through the window. And walked up towards him; wrapping my hand around his waist. While I pressed my face within his hard back; crying softly.

He didn’t turns to comfort me and hold me within his arms that once comfort me or touch the tip of my small hands around his waist. He just stood there continuing to stare through the window.

Suddenly I lift my face from his back. Which was now wet by my tears.

"It happen when I was sixteen," I told him.

I then saw him turned around. While my hand continued to hold his waist;

And stared within my tearful blue eyes.

**were coming to the end of this novel lsw readers; can you believe it?