♥ Chapter 46♥

Yara Voss. 

When we finally get back to the hotel, it's already night. The day was full of activities. Kael and I spent hours wandering around Paris, visiting shops, eating in charming restaurants, and he made a point of showing me some tourist attractions that I hadn't seen yet. But despite all these distractions, my mind can't forget what happened between us in the dressing room. That experience changed something in me. I had never felt anything like it before.

Sex was something I rarely thought about. Not that I wasn't curious, but it was never a priority. However, after what happened with Kael, a new desire awakens within me. The desire to give myself to them, for real. Just imagining it makes my body feel warm again. But along with this desire comes fear. I don't know if I'm ready. What if it hurts? How do I talk about this with them? Just thinking about how to approach this subject makes me embarrassed.

I find myself distracted by these thoughts, looking out the car window as we pass through the bright streets of Paris. The city seems like a dream, but my mind is racing. Suddenly, the car door opens, and Kael is there, smiling, with his hand outstretched to me.

''Are you okay, my love? '' he asks, his eyes fixed on me, seeming to notice how embarrassed I am.

''Yes... just tired. '' I quickly agree, trying not to look at him for too long. ''Today was quite... intense. '' I look away, feeling my cheeks burn.

He lets out a low laugh, the one that always messes with me, making me even more embarrassed.

''Yes, it was quite intense. It is very good. '' He says, with a mischievous smile on his lips.

My heart races. I know exactly what he's referring to. My face gets even redder.

''K-Kael, stop...'' I murmur, unable to face him, my voice coming out almost as a whisper.

He laughs again, but this time his tone is softer.

''Alright, I will stop. '' he says, although I'm sure he loves leaving me like this, all embarrassed.

Suddenly, I hear the elevator doors open, seeing Damien and Magnus coming towards us.

''Welcome back. ''Magnus greets us, with his warm smile.

I give a shy smile back.

'' Thanks. '' I reply.

Damien, as always, is the first to embrace me in his kindness, kissing my cheek.

'' How was your day? Did you have fun? '' he asks, looking at me with that affectionate expression that makes my heart warm.

''Yes, it was fun. '' I respond, trying to sound natural. ''Kael showed me several places, and we ate a lot.

Magnus comes over and kisses my forehead, his touch always calming me.

''We're glad you had fun, my love. '' he says, his affectionate tone melting me inside.

I smile, but I can barely pay attention to what he's saying because my mind starts to wander again. I look at Magnus and Damien's lips, and suddenly the image of them doing... that... flashes through my head. My God! I feel my face instantly turn red. The mere idea makes me want to dig a hole and hide.

Damien seems to realize how disconcerted I am and frowns, worried.

'' Everything is fine, love? Did something happen? Your face is red. '' he asks, clearly confused by my reaction.

Before I can respond, I hear Kael's low chuckle beside me.

''Ah, something perfect happened. '' he says, maliciously, and I almost explode with embarrassment.

''Kael! '' I exclaim, my face completely flushed. The shame is so much that I can barely stand there. ''I-I'll go ahead... I want to take a shower.

I don't even wait for them to respond. Furthermore, I simply run to the elevator and press the button for the floor we are on. As soon as the doors close, I take a deep breath and cover my face with my hands.

"Kael is an idiot! My God, what do I do now? I'm sure he's telling them everything. My God, what a shame!" I think, feeling my cheeks burn even more.

When the elevator doors open, I run towards the suite, without looking around. I need a moment alone, away from them all. I quickly enter the room and run to my suitcase, grabbing my pajamas. Likewise, I don't even want to think about the possibility of one of them coming here to talk now. I run to the bathroom, close the door and lock it, feeling a little safer.

I take off my clothes and run into the shower. The hot water from the shower pours over me, but my mind keeps spinning. I never thought that my first sexual experience would be in a dressing room... and in public! What kind of madness is this? The worst thing of all is that, despite the shame and embarrassment, I can't stop thinking about how good it felt. My mind keeps going back to that moment, to the way Kael made me feel. I never imagined something like this could be so... intense.

But what now? How am I going to face Magnus and Damien after this? I know they're all in this together... but just imagining the three of them desiring me, possessing me, I feel a wave of heat rise through my body. I don't know if I'm ready for this. And the fear is still there, haunting my thoughts. Will it hurt? How do I talk about this with them? How do I explain that although I want to surrender, I am also afraid?

I get out of the shower, still lost in these thoughts, and quickly put on my pajamas. My heart is still racing, and I don't know how I'm going to face them after everything that's happened. I let out a sigh and leave the bathroom, heading to the bed, still thinking. I sit on the edge, trying to calm down, but my body remains sensitive, as if I can still feel his touch.

Furthermore, I take a deep breath, trying to organize my thoughts. I have to figure out how to deal with this with them. Even with the fear, I know I want more. More than they have to offer. More than just a moment in the dressing room.

I just need to find the courage to tell them that.

Suddenly, I hear the sound of the door opening. My heart races, knowing it's them coming back. The sound of their voices already fills the room, and my body reacts immediately, a wave of nervousness taking over me. I'm not ready to face them. Not yet. The shame of what happened in the dressing room still consumes me, as if it were written all over my face.

Without thinking twice, I throw myself on the bed and cover myself, pretending I'm sleeping. Maybe if I stay quiet enough, they'll believe it. My heart beats so fast I'm afraid they'll hear it, but I try to control my breathing, making it feel steady, like I'm actually asleep.

''Our baby is already sleeping. '' I hear Magnus' soft voice. ''How fast. Well, have sweet dreams, my love.

I feel the bed sink slightly next to my body, and then a kiss is placed on my head. The gesture is so affectionate that it almost makes me open my eyes. My heart races even more, but I remain still, hoping they believe.

Soon, I hear Damien laughing softly.

''Yes, she deserves to have sweet dreams. '' he says, with that soft tone that always makes me feel protected.

Just like Magnus, he comes over and kisses my head tenderly. My whole body heats up with the gesture, and I feel my cheeks burning under the blanket. God, I'm really not ready to face them right now. Just imagining it, shame consumes me.

''She looks exhausted. '' I hear Magnus whisper to Damien.

''It really must be, after that scene in the dressing room. '' Damien responds with an amused but low tone. ''She must be tired.

I feel my face burn instantly. My mind explodes with shame. They know! My God, they know! Kael told them. It can't be! My heart starts beating so fast, I feel like it's going to jump out of my chest. I try to remain calm, but the shame consumes me completely. They knew what happened in the dressing room, and now, they were talking about it as if it were the most normal thing in the world!

''Tomorrow will be a new day. '' Magnus mutters, apparently not noticing my panicked state. I hope so!

I feel on the verge of losing control, wanting to disappear under the covers. How am I going to be able to face them now? My face feels too hot, and no matter how hard I try, I can't stop thinking about the embarrassing situation I'm in. Pretending I'm asleep seems like the only way to avoid this conversation.

Once again, the bed moves slightly as they get up. I hear soft footsteps around the room and the muffled sound of clothes being taken off. My heart races and for a moment I think that maybe, just maybe, I managed to get out of this situation without having to face them. Then, I hear Kael's voice.

''Is she sleeping? ''Kael ask.

My body reacts instantly. My heart starts racing again, and I feel the heat rising to my face again. He counted! He told everything! The simple fact that he revealed to his brothers what happened in the dressing room leaves me completely disconcerted. I try to control my breathing, making it as calm as possible, but I know I'm failing miserably.

''Yes.'' Damien responds, with that calm tone. ''Poor thing, she is exhausted.

''Well...'' Kael mutters. ''She deserves to rest.

I swallow hard, trying to keep still. The sound of Kael's footsteps approaches, and my heart pounds so hard I'm sure he can hear it. The bed dips slightly beside me, and my entire body tenses. I expect any provocative comments, but to my surprise, he just leans in and places a soft kiss on the top of my head.

''Sleep well, Yara. '' he whispers, with a tenderness that completely disarms me.

Finally, he stands up, and I can breathe a little easier. For now, they believe I'm asleep.