"Good just be sure to pick up the phone when I call you. I love you." She replied back before moving her hands that were placed on my arms and walking away. I stood there in utter shock from what just happened. I look around to find myself alone until I find Chandler sitting down from afar. I walk to him before sitting down besides him. Now I can strongly smell everybody that passes me. I can hear their hearts and their blood pumping through their veins and smell their sweet, sweet blood. He turns to me with his eyebrows furrowed in confusion. "What's the matter?" "How can you do it?" I whisper to him while I watch the chairs fill themselves up with people. I see Evan standing in front of John's casket with a group of people who are paying their respects. "Do what?" I wipe my arm over my forehead and I catch some sweat. "Control yourself when everybody's blood scent is lingering." My voice ratters nervously when the room gets fully packed. "I'm guessing your smelling intensified?" He leans and whispers in my ear. I lick my lips, staring at the man sitting in front of me. His neck is perfect and bare. There's a blue artery running down from his jawline to the collar of shirt. It's pulsing and oh how good his blood would taste if I can have a bite. "It really did. Thankfully I don't have my fangs yet or I would have ripped everybody's throat open." "Wait till you actually taste human's blood." I wince at his sentence and he can't help but smile. "Trust me you'll be able to control it." "I hope so." I mutter before holding Evan's hand when he sits at the empty seat besides me. "May everybody please quiet down." The Pastor says and everybody finds a seat however there was more people so many stood in the back of the room. We all silently watched the Pastor talk for a while but I didn't pay any attention. I stared at John's parents who were up in the front. His mom was sobbing and his father tried to stay strong and hold it in. John's best friend spoke then his closest cousin. They would say the usual that everybody would say at a wake. How much they loved them and cared about them. Also that now they're in a better place. "Would anybody else like to stand forth and say something?" The Pastor says, standing besides John's casket. There's a podium with a bible placed on it. I swallow the lump that formed in my throat and stood up, everybody cocking their heads to me. My body was trembling and my lips couldn't stop quivering. I let go of Evan's hand and I step out of the row we were sitting in. Chandler and Evan watched me walk down the middle aisle and I go up to the podium. The Pastor gives me a soft nod and steps aside. He sits in the front where there's an open seat for him. "Ugh," I start, looking down at the bible that's resting on the podium. I take a deep breath so I can push all the vampire abilities I have now away. The room grows more and more silent by the second although it's impossible for that to happen. I place my hands on the side of the podium and I hold onto it for support. I felt like I wanted to faint. Everybody patiently waited for me and I thanked that. "I-I really didn't have time to write a eulogy but I do have the words to form one." I look at John's parents and his mom gives me a soft smile with her tired, weak big brown eyes. I can't look away from them because it's the thing that's showing her so much pain. Pain from losing her son. "It's okay." She mouths to me and I purse my lips into a thin line. "J-John was many things to me. He was my best friend, soon became my boyfriend a-and um... it broke me when we realized that we wouldn't have been able to have a long distance relationship when he moved." I pause and I bring my gaze to Evan who is staring back at me with a grin. "John basically knew everything about me. He knew what hurt me, what made me laugh, what made me put a smile on my face. He was able to do all of those... well, besides the hurting part." Most of the crowd erupts with chuckles or giggles. I couldn't help but smile at the thought of it. I take a deep breath and tears stream down my face when I blink. "When he came back, he asked for a second chance and I gave it to him. I wanted to give him a second chance because I cared for him so much. But he got attacked and was sent to the hospital. I made sure I was there for him because many people thought he was going crazy and for some reason I didn't. All the things he was saying felt utterly right. As if we both understood each other." Evan looks away because I was talking about the time he almost killed John in the woods and he was in the hospital. "The day we both got shot, the last thing he said to me was 'no' because he tried to save me from the bullet but failed miserably because I got hit too. I watched him drop to the floor and I wanted to do something but I couldn't. I was vulnerable at the time to even scream." I pause because people started to cry. I turn my head to the side and I look at John. "When I woke up I thought it was all a dream until I realized that I would never see him walk in my house with the big goofy smile he always had. I would never hear his voice or his laugh. John wasn't just a silly, compassionate boy waiting to go to college. He was stubborn and would take no as an answer. He wanted to be there for you and fight by your side. If you asked him for a favor or told him to do something he would do it, no matter what." "He wanted to hold your hand the whole way through or wanted you cry on his shoulder. He wanted to smother you until all the nightmares ended and everything was back with blooming flowers. He wanted all the bad things to go away and awaken you with the beautiful life a broken person can't see. He wanted you to be happy." I stop so I can wipe the excess of tears on my face. "I thank John for being in my life and I'm sure no one will be able to replace him. Although we did have different opinions sometimes, I couldn't be mad at him. I'll truly miss him, all of us will. However I will never forget him no matter what. Thank you." I finish before walking back down the aisle. The Pastor goes back to the podium and starts to talk again. I sat back down and Evan told me that I did a great job. I didn't respond but stare in oblivion until the wake ended. ~~~~~