Chapter 17 CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
ETHAN’S POV
I sat at the bar, looking out the window, focused on nothing, I couldn't bring myself to understand why Zaria would want him, rather than me.
She kicked me out, and it hurts badly, I know not everything is about me, but it still stings.
“What's your order?” the bartender asked, distracting me from the thought of Zaria.
I turned to look at him, and my mouth fell open, when I saw him. He is one of the guys I have hooked up with in college.
“Fuck!” I cursed under my breath.
Conrad isn't just someone I hooked up with a couple of times; we had some connection until I called it off.
“I didn't know it was you, I'm sorry,” He said, trying to walk off, to call another bartender.
“Wait!” I called, with a hard gulp, because it had been a shitty day, and I needed to get it out of my head. “I want Tanquilla”
“You hate Tanquilla” he scoffed, tilting his head sideways, fuck, I missed his ocean eyes and how they stared at me.
His thin jaw line widened as he smiled.
“Yeah, but it has been a shitty day, and Tanquilla tastes like shit, a perfect distraction for the day,” I said, rubbing my palm together.
“It is about her, again,” He said, with a nervous laugh.
“What?” I asked, feigning ignorance.
“Come off it, you are not in crescent pack, I know she is married to Alpha Max, and that sounds shitty” He replied to my question.
I was hurt when Zaria married that asshole, he is supposed to be the enemy, and the fact that they keep staring at each other the way they do, makes my skin twinkle in disgust.
I spent months trying to make Zaria happy, so could at least see me, but Max spent just a night, and boom! She is on his fucking bed, keeping him warm.
It hurts! What hurts the most, is that I have to mask my hurt and fake being happy.
“She doesn't love him, besides it's not as if Zaria and I were a thing” I rolled my eyes, masking my hurt feelings again.
“You are still doubting your feelings for her!” He scoffed, “She knows you are bisexual, so just try your shot”
It may seem easy for Conrad to say, but when I look at her, she doesn't look at me with love, she doesn't look at me the way she looks at Max, even if they barely know each other.
“Can I have my tanquilla?” I asked, shoving Zaria off my thoughts. I would give up everything to be with her, but she isn't just meant for me.
“I will get you a cup of Bloody Mary, you like that more,” Conrad laughed, walking off to prepare my order.
I couldn't bring myself to leave for Crescent pack, not when she was in a sick bed and someone tried to kill her.
I would just stay around, till tomorrow, in case something comes up.
“Here is your order, Sir,” Conrad laughed, taking a quick look at me. It was a flirtatious look, but I ignored it.
“Thank you,” He chuckled, handing him some money, but he pushed the money towards me.
“It is in the house, besides, I own the bar, I would make up for it with two more orders,” He said, I tried to decline but he insisted.
“You know, I don't deserve this, I fuckong broke your heart,” I said, as the flashback of that horrible night came to my memory.
I broke up with him, the day his parents separated, and to be honest, it made me feel like shit.
“That happened a year ago, Ethan. We have grown older, besides you won't repeat that same mistake,” He scoffed, “would you?”
I didn't know if I would, the only reason behind our breakup was Zaria.
She was getting close to me at that time, and I felt it was time to own my feelings. I broke up with Conrad immediately, without thinking of how he felt.
I went to meet Zaria, only to find her in the arms of another man, she was drunk though, and the thought of it still hurt.
“I don't know, I guess I am naturally mean!” I said, sipping from my cup of bloody Mary.
“Did you leave me because of her?” he asked, and I shook my head immediately.
“No, I just felt you needed space” I replied to his question, and that wasn't a lie although Zaria was the main reason.
I gulped down the cup of Bloody Mary and stood to my feet.
“It was nice to meet you, but I have to run” I smiled, “but I would surely write to you though”
“It was nice seeing you too, and I look forward to seeing your letter,” He smiled back.
I strolled out of the bar, to search for a motel to spend the night in when I got stopped by some guards, Max’s guard.
“What the fuck is this about?” I asked, and a blond-haired guy walked in, with a wicked smile on his face. He was probably thinking I would be intimidated by his huge physique but I wasn't.
“Hi, I am Raymond” He introduced himself, stretching his hands.
“Why the fuck do I owe this unpleasant visit?” I asked rudely, smacking his hands off.
His perfectly tailored suit, annoyed the fuck out of me because my mother and I lived with barely anything to feed on, but some bunch of assholes get to have the silver spoon.
He smiled at me, and I won't even lie, He has a dashing smile but he is definitely not my type of guy.
“I just wanted to make sure you head back to Crescent pack safely, Zaria sends her words, and we execute,” He said, still wearing a smile and it fucking pissed me off.
“Tell her I am fine!” I said, walking off.
“She needs assurance, so you are staying with me in my house tonight!” Raymond ordered, earning a laugh from me.
“I am not one of your bitches you get to order around, so no, I am not spending the night in your house” I rolled my eyes.
“I knew it was going to be difficult,” he huffed. “Capture him”
“What, you have…” My sentence was cut off, when a bag was put over my head, and I was lifted off my feet.