Chapter 12

Nicolas

I woke up Sunday morning with a huge hangover, I emptied 2 bottles of tequila so it doesn’t surprise me that I had a hangover. My mouth tasted like a cat pissed in it. I got up and walked to the bathroom. I haven’t stopped thinking about Nicol or Nikki not even with all that tequila in me. I brush my teeth and jumped in the shower. I started to make list in my head of things I needed to do. The first thing on the list was the fact that I wanted to be a part of Nikki’s life the question was how we are going to do it. When I got out, I got dressed in my sweatpants and a t-shirt then I went to the kitchen got some pain killers and a cup of very strong coffee. I stood in the kitchen drinking the one before I made myself another cup. I should probable eat something but there were just too many things I was thinking about. I took my coffee and went to my office where I started to make a list, yes, I am a list type of guy, pros and cons especially. The thing is when you start making a list of what the pro’s is having a kid the con’s is so much more, the biggest of all is that that person is your responsibility for the rest of your life. I threw that list in the bin, there is no way I can make a pro and con list of being in Nikki’s life, the fact is I want to be, Nicol and I will just have to talk about that first. So, the first thing on my list should be having a conversation with her. I wrote that down, then I sat back and thought about what she was up to the past 12 years and will I ever get an honest answer if I ask her so I decided to call my private detective. The phone rang twice before Jeff answered “Nicolas how are you?” “Hi Jeff sorry to bother on a Sunday.” “No worries I’m not busy.” “Good I have a job for you.” “Okay what?” “I need to dig into someone’s past, I want to know where she was for the past 12 years and anything you can find out about her life in that time.” “And who is she?” I knew what he meant he wanted to know who she was to me, but I ignored that question “Her name is Nicol Green her birth date is 22 April 1989.” “Okay and what do you want to know in specific?” “Everything, what she did, where she lived, what she had for fucking breakfast everything.” “Okay got it you want a very big dive.” “I do and I want it like yesterday.” “That’s going to cost extra you know that.” “Yes, and you also know I don’t care just get it done.” “Okay I’ll be in contact during the week.” “Thank you, Jeff.” I disconnected the call and got up standing in front of my floor to ceiling window, looking out at the streets of New York.

While I was standing there looking out on the streets something hit me like a cold bucket of water, that was the way I lived my life the past 12 years since Nicol left me. If our poor child had to google me, she would think what the rest of the world thinks of me, I didn’t care about the rest of the world but I did care what Nikki will think about me. She will see me with another women every time I’m in the press. I didn’t mind it at all as my parents passed away a few years ago and they wouldn’t see it. I’m sure my father was on the point of firing me as CEO before he passed away but I was still doing a good job and I was still making money I was just not a good image for the company. I decided there and then I need to get my tech guy to get rid of all my social pictures, everything that was positive he can leave but the rest have to go. I sat at my desk and called Mario the best guy I had “Morning boss.” “Hi Mario sorry to bother you on a Sunday.” “No bother I am at the office.” “Great, I need a huge favor.” “Of course, boss whatever you need.” “I need you to scrap all the social pics with the models from everywhere no one should ever see that photo’s not ever.” “Okay but why?” “Personnel reasons Mario, you can leave all the good articles things that I accomplished but all the bad publicity or unsavory has to go.” “It’s going to take a while boss.” “Just get it done as soon as possible.” “On it boss.”

I felt so much better I know it won’t wipe it from everyone in the worlds memory but when we tell Nikki I’m her dad and she googles me one day she won’t see all those pictures and that is all I wanted. I got up ordered me something to eat and went to sit in front of the TV I wanted to see if there was anything on the reality shows about me from the weekend although I did behave myself so I don’t think there could be anything. I started to channel hop and found a small piece on the Christmas Gala and my speech when they showed my face, I looked so angry even the host of the show made a joke of it. Her words where ‘Clearly Mr. Brown don’t like giving out his millions.’ I turned the TV off and got up. “Fuck Fuck Fuck, I need to talk to Nicol and soon or else I will stay this angry.” I said outload. I can feel myself wanting to grab another bottle of tequila, yes when she left me 12 years ago, I got drunk on tequila multiple times. There was a knock at the door, luckily food arrived and I could put my attention on something else.

I ate my steak and vegetables while thinking how stupid I was to not get Nicol’s phone number I could have called her today and we could have talked already and I would have had a way forward but now I have to rock up at the hospital and hope I’ll run into her. No, I don’t have the patients for that I will use my roll as a board member to get a meeting with her I decided.