Chapter 13

Nicol

We where in the emergency room, waiting for the pediatric doctor on service tonight. I was fussing over Nikki, making sure her pillows where right she wasn’t cold. I was trying to keep myself busy to not think about the fact that we are going through this for the 3rd time this year. I’m sure the doctor will want to do extra test but that costs money and I don’t have that kind of money not yet, I’m saving up for her to have all the test and make sure why this is happening so often. I just took her temperature which was 105 degrees when the doctor open the curtain. “Nicol?” Dr Manno the Dr that gave me the tickets to the gala said. “Hi doc we are back.” He looked at a very weak Nikki laying in the bed, “What’s her fever?” “105 I just checked.” “A take it there was no sign of her getting sick?” “None at all she was so chipper yesterday she even wanted to go to Central Park because all the big kids are doing it then she went to her dance classes and she was so excited and happy, this morning when she didn’t get up, she was sick with a fever then she started coughing and I decided to bring her in.” “You did the right thing.” Dr Manno wake Nikki up. “Nikki” she slowly opens her eyes. “Hi doc” He just smiled at her. “Can you sit up straight I want to listen to your lungs.” She tried to get up but was too weak from the fever. I took her back and help her. The doctor listened to her lungs. “They are really bad.” He said. “You do know I will feel better if we do some more test to find out why this is happening so often.” “I know doctor I’m saving up for those tests can’t we just do what we normally do?” “Yes, it’s fine I’ll keep her in hospital for 2 nights on antibiotics and oxygen but Nicol we really need to do those tests.” “I promise doctor before her birthday, okay?” “If I’m right her birthday is on Valentines Day?” “Yes Doctor.” “Well then I’ll make you an appointment so long for the 13th.” “Okay I’ll be ready.” “One of the night staff will come now to take you to your room, I’ll book you off sick for the next 2 days because I know you would want to be with her.” “Thank you, Dominique, you to kind to me.” “I told you we will look after you.” I couldn’t stop the tears as it was streaming down my face yet again. “Mommy why are you crying?” “I’m just worried angel.” “You know I’ll be fine.” “I know angel.”

The doctor left and one of my work friends Angelic came to take Nikki to the children’s ward. “I’m so sorry you have to go through this again Nicol.” “It’s part of being a mom.” I told her. When we got to the room all the nurses remember Nikki, she always gets more attention, probable because I was also on the staff or because Nikki always makes friends where ever she goes, another trade she got from her father. Angelic got me a recliner because they knew I will be by her side the next two days. When Nikki was linked to the drip with the antibiotics and they gave her something for her fever she fell asleep. I pushed the chair back covered myself with the blanket Angelic gave me and also fell asleep. I was so tired I didn’t even wake when they came in during the night. That is one thing of being a nurse you can basically sleep anywhere.

The next morning Nikki was looking a little better her fever didn’t break yet it was still high but at least she wasn’t as weak as she was last night. I got her to sit and to eat some of her breakfast, with a lot of moaning but she knew if she wanted to get out of the hospital she needed to eat to get her strength back. When she was done, she didn’t even want to go and brush her teeth she just went back to sleep. This seems worse than the other times, normally when she’s on the drip she get’s better faster. I took my toothbrush and went to the bathroom to try and get myself decent. Although that was very difficult in these circumstances. Dr Manno came in for his morning check up “How is she?” “The fever didn’t break yet.” “It will just be patient.” “By this time, it normally has, what if there is something wrong with her and just because I don’t have the funds I’m failing her.” “You are not failing her Nicol she’s going to be fine, this time it will just take a day longer but she will be fine, there is nothing else to worry about, her heart is fine it’s just her lungs and we know this type of medication helps her.” “I know I’m just a bit negative this morning I’m sorry Dominique.” “Don’t be we all get those days.” “I wish it was only a day.” I said under my breath. “What was that?” “Nothing just thinking out loud.” “I’ll come and check on her tonight, okay?” “Thank you.” The doctor left leaving me alone with Nikki that was sleeping. I went to my guilty pleasure and that was looking of pictures of Nicolas. When I checked google the images of him was getting lesser and lesser I wondered why? And off course how? How can google just delete images of someone. I noticed that all the pictures of him with other girls was the pictures that was disappearing. “Interesting.” I said out load. One of the day staff nurses one I didn’t know as well came to me “Nicol Green?” she asked “Yes?” “Someone just phoned the front desk the hospital board wants to talk to you.” “You serious? Do they know I’m not working because my child is in the hospital?” “I didn’t ask but they want to see you immediately. Don’t worry I’ll sit with her.” “You sure you don’t have other patients that needs you?” “No, the head nurse said I should stay with Nikki until you are back.” “Thank you so much I won’t be long.” “Take your time we’ll be okay.”

I stormed out of Nikki’s room I was furious I mean I’m sure Dominique told them Nikki was in the pediatric ward. I march up to the boarding room and open the door slamming it closed before I turned around and the only person that was at the table was none other than Nicolas.