Chapter 78: Does this feel real?

River POV

I hurry and open the door, and see his worried face.

I throw my arms around his waist.

"I didn't want to wake you you looked so peaceful" I say squeezing him so hard.

He picks me up to his waist. I wrap my legs around him.

I'm still shaking a little and I'm cold now.

"Will you just hold me for awhile," I ask as he wipes the tears from my cheeks.

"Baby doll, I'll hold you forever if you'd let me" he says as he kisses me softly.

"I love you, Finn"

"I love you too doll, let's get you back to bed"

He kisses my forehead and puts me down, I scoot over so he can get in next to me.

He pulls the blanket over us and wraps me tightly in his arms.

"River, you could have woke me. If you need me you wake me I don't care what it is for. Even if you just need some water" he kisses my neck lightly.

I'm trying not to cry, but now I feel guilty.

I turn so we're face to face.

He kisses my nose softly.

I start crying harder now.

He leans up on his elbow "Baby it's okay. Shhhh, your in my arms and your safe" he kisses my forehead.

"I'm sorry. I should have woke you up" I'm crying all over his bare chest now.

He pulls me into him, holding me tighter and I feel safer now.

I reach up and cup his cheeks. I just stare into his eyes. I feel loved in those eyes, I feel grounded in those eyes.

What if this isn't real and I close my eyes and he's gone again.

"Finn this is real right? This isn't me dreaming right?" I cry against him.

He kisses me.

"Does that feel real?" He says gently.

I nod. He wipes my tears and gently kisses me again.

"Can you feel my love for you, cause that's as real as it gets." He says kissing my face firmly.

"Finn, I'm so sorry" I cry harder.

"River baby, what's wrong?" He sounds scared.

"When I was in the bathroom I was scared and confused and instead of going to you" I take a breath."I called Pickle" I wait and slowly look up at him.

He looks like his thinking or trying not to get mad. I'm not sure what's going through his head.

He pulls me back tightly in his arms and kisses my head holding his kiss for minute longer then he usually does.

That's it, he's just so mad he can't even talk to me. I take a deep breath as silent tears run down my face.

"River?"

I don't want him to leave me I love him, I know it's love because I've never felt like this before. I'm scared, what if I'm just to much for him.

I sniffle "yes?" Let's get it over with.

He kisses my head again.

He pulls away a little.

"Can you open your eyes and look at me please"

I didn't know I closed them.

I slowly open my eyes.

"River, I love you. I mean I will do anything from burying a body for you, to dying for you. That's how deep my love is for you now and it will only get deeper as time goes on"

He kisses my lips this time and wipes a tear that is running down my face.

"If you're not able to come to me, I'm glad you have someone as protective of you as I am to turn too. Yes, I would want you to come to me first but I would never be mad at you for going to him."

I look at him for a long while, only seeing the truth in his eyes.

"Really?" I sob.

"Yes. Baby yes. If you need both me and Pickle to help make you happy and heal, then I would rather share you and be part of your life then lose you to jealousy."

I kiss him fiercely and rough.

He still loves me!

I deepen the kiss.

He growls under his breath and pulls me tighter and closer to his body as his hands roam my body under this robe.

I pull my self up on him and he sits up to pull me closer.

I can feel him getting hard under me.

I start kissing his neck and down his shoulders, he starts moving the robe off my shoulders as he is peppering my neck, shoulders and chest with kisses.

"Sometimes I think it's me who's dreaming" he whispers in my ear.

I lean up to my knees into a squat as I reach for his dick, I want it, no I need to feel him in me.

He holds my hips as I try to slide myself on to him.

He moans as I arch and my mouth falls open as his head enters me.

"River baby" he moans,

As I lower my self down slowly taking his dick as much as I can in to me a little at a time.

While his eyes never leave my face.

He pushes in gently as he moans and my head drops back.

"Ohhhh goddd Finn" I moan.

I can feel every inch of his dick in me and I feel like I can explode at any minute. I slowly start moving as he pulls me down into him.

We both goan as his dick slides deeper into me.

I begin moving up and down as we pick up speed.

"Ohhhh goddd baby" he moans.

He grabs the back of my hair gently and tips my neck to him as he kisses and sucks my neck.

"Ohhh myy gooddd Finnn" I moan loudly.

He keeps switching between my boobs and my neck and that has me going faster and faster.

He moans out a few times then grips my hips and flips me over to my back.

He hungrily takes my lips as he lifts one of my thighs up and starts pushing in to me hard and fast.

We're both moaning now and I have to dig my nails into to him to keep from screaming out his name.

I can hear him moaning into my ear and feel his breath against my neck as I gently bite his neck a little.

He growls and pulls out a little and slams into me as he takes my mouth with his again and we both climax at the same time.

We fall back onto the bed.

He gently slides out of me and moves over to my side as he falls on to his back.

He gently pulls me to his chest.

We both just lay there trembling, our breath heavily and ragged.

I pull my head more up on his chest as we just lay there holding each other.

I just listen to his heartbeat as sleep takes me over.