Chapter 63: Finn? Yes, doll?

Finn POV

She's laying in bed texting someone, I just watch her for a minute or so.

She looks up and her face lights up when she sees me.

She puts her phone on the nightstand and pulls the blankets back for me.

I smile and go to her.

I slide in and pull her into me as I wrap her in my arms.

I kiss her head as I get settled in.

"Finn?"

"Yes, doll?"

"I'm going to miss you so much when your gone"

She sniffles

I pull her tighter to me and hold a kiss to her head.

I can hear her sniffle a little more.

"River, I'm going to miss you too"

She turns to face me.

She runs her fingers through my hair, then she kisses me softly on my lips.

I reach over and caress her cheek

We just hold each other and look into each other eyes until we fall asleep.

River's twitching like crazy, I just hold her and wait.

"Who are you" she says in her sleep

"It's me Finn" I say just so she knows I'm here

"I don't know your face" she mumbles.

She sits up with a start.

I rub her back.

She's breathing heavy.

"Do you need anything?" I ask softly

She's breathing so heavy.

She looks over at me.

"No I'm fine" she says

She lays down on my chest.

Her hand just slowly rubs around on my chest for a few minutes.

I reach up and gently stoke her hair and face.

I think this is what I'll miss the most, just a quiet moment with just us.

"River, I'm going to be gone for 2 years"

Her hand stops for a second then continues.

"I don't want you to put your life on hold, I want you to go and have fun and get to know people and enjoy your life" I tip her face to mine.

"I can do both, I can miss you with my entire heart and still live my life" She kisses me deeply.

"I love you Finley" she says surprising me.

I grab her and kiss her with everything I have while I roll us over. She's partially under me now.

I look into her eyes and move the hair from her face as I say "River. Baby doll, I love you too. More then I ever knew was possible."

I kiss her again.

We just keeping kissing not really in any rush, going slow.

Touching each other's faces and hair.

She stops our kiss and looks at me.

"Do you really love me?" She says quietly.

I roll off her on to my back and pull her to my chest.

"River, I would never say I love you if I didn't mean it"

I can hear her crying.

I lift her up on my lap as I sit up.

She wraps her legs around me and puts her face into my neck.

"It's going to be alright baby" I kiss her head firmly.

She pulls her head up and looks at me.

"Please just be safe. I will be here when you come home" she kisses me on the dimple.

"Finn I'm yours and that won't change" I grab her and kiss her this time.

"River, I'll be back for you. I promise I will do what ever it takes to come back to you"

I feel the tears slide down my face.

She now has her own tears coming down.

She grabs me and kisses me again with so much love and passion.

I wrap my arms around her and I don't want this moment to end.

I can hear my phone ringing in the livingroom when it stops her's starts.

I slowly pull away from her lips with a goan

"Sounds like it's time to go" I say with a huff.

She grabs me back and kisses me softly.

"Back to the real world" she says as she starts to get up.

"What's this?" I say as I pull a notebook out from under the pillow.

"Ohhhh shit, I almost forgot that" She kisses me as she grabs it.

"What is it?" I ask again.

"It's my dream journal, I write down things that I dream or remember. It's to help with my memory loss"

I just nod and smile.

I get up and walk over to her and pull her to my chest.

I kiss her softly and whisper in her ear "River, I love you"

I see a huge smile go across her face as well as a slight blush.

She's grabs me and kisses me so deeply that It leaves us both breathless.

The sound of the door opening makes us both turn.

"If someone don't feed me right now, there's going to be hell to pay" Chailor snaps.

We both start laughing.

"You heard my wife, my baby needs food now. You have five then your finding your own way" Lincoln barks.

I lean in and kiss River's lips one last time and grab her bag.

"Me and Finn are taking down the bags and I'll pull the car up, meet us down there when your ready" Lincoln kisses Chailor gently on her head before he picks up their bags.

I turn and smile at her one last time before I walk out the door.