Chapter 60: She's alive?!!

Brain POV

"She's alive?!" I say outloud before I can stop myself.

Just then at the same time Flame sits up screaming and swinging her fists, her eyes tightly closed.

My front door comes flying open and Lucky comes running in like a mad man.

What the fuck is going on!

"I could hear her screaming as I got to the door!"

Lucky says breathing heavy.

"She just started" I say in a fog.

I'm so... I can't even explain how I feel right now it's a mix between, scared, worried, confused, excited, exhausted and useless.

I can't help Flame, I can't climb on the bed and work my way around her while she's in the PTSD state.

She's taken down Pickle in a state like this before.

She's panicking and trying to protect her young self with her older selfs Boxing/MMA skills.

She's magnificent when she's in the ring, beautiful, so graceful and deadly.

Especially in a state like this.

Lucky's just about in place so now it's my turn.

"Flame, baby it's me it's Ryder. Please listen to my voice, your safe, your so loved."

"Shhhh Flame, I'm here. It's ok, open your eyes my love please"

I nod to Lucky.

He slides in behind her and wraps his arms gently around her as I say "It's Ryder I've got you, your safe in my arms, open your eyes"

"Get ready to catch bro" Lucky says quickly as Flame's eyes shoot open and he pretty much throws her into my lap.

I have her in my lap wrapped in my arms now

"Baby, please. Open those beautiful eyes and look at me" she quickly opens her eyes and looks at me for a second before her eyes fill with tears and she swings fully around and straddles me in my chair throwing her arms tightly around my neck.

"Shhhh baby, I've got you. I love you." I tell her as I kiss her forehead.

We had to start doing this after she would come too and realize that it was lucky or pickle who was touching her and she would literally beat the crap out of them.

Lucky waits a min and goes into my computer room, pulling the door shut gently behind him.

"Hi beautiful" I say with a smile holding her face so I can see it all.

She smiles softly as she starts to cry in my arms.

"Did I hurt you or anyone else?" She says nervously.

"No, sweetie.You did so good" I say kissing her forehead.

She breathes deeply a few times.

I just stroke her cheek and her hair as her breathing starts coming back down to normal.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I ask her softly,

she shakes her head and gives me a little smile.

We've had this talk so many times, about how she could never say anything that would change how I look or feel about her.

I love her and I've loved her since the first moment I saw her beautiful chocolate colored eyes look at me.

She's told me some things about her past but she's still hesitant about telling me more which is fine because I'm not going anywhere and when she's ready I'll be here for her.

"I love you and your so strong and kind and beautiful" I say kissing her all over her face.

"I love you too my perfect Cervello" she says kissing me back.

"I'll order you breakfast and then Lucky's taking you to the club to do a few rounds with some unlucky newbie"

"Please tell me you got Raymond? I would love to knock his cocky ass down a few pegs" she says.

I laugh.

"Trust me love, we all want that" she starts laughing with me.

Lucky knocks from the bedroom door

"Is it safe for me to come out now?"

"One minute" I yell.

"Baby you want to put some sweats on really fast"

She looks down and realizes she's only in a thong and tank top.

She laughs "Yeah I wouldn't want Lucky getting knock out before he can drive me around"

She quickly jumps off me and grabs my grey sweats from the chair and slides them on.

Lucky knocks again harder and Flame jumps.

"I'm going to rip your fingers off your hand if you knock that loud again" I yell.

"Come out asshat" she yells.

She smiles a thank you to him.

He nods and gives her a quick smile.

"So who's the hot ass blonde?"

I turn and scawl at him.

"You found something?" Flame says looking at me.

"Ryder, I see it in your face. What did you find?" She says looking at me.

"My sister" I say my eyes full of tears now.

"What!!" Lucky and her say at the same time.

Flame runs to me and wraps her arms around me.

"I never asked her last name and I didn't put it together. Ohhhh my god Finn's River is your sister River?!!" She's crying now.

Lucky has sat on the bed in shock.

"I'm still not sure how?" I say trying to keep my voice steady.

"My father told me how he strangled her to death and how he stabbed my mother over and over as she held River's body crying. He said River was still in my mother's arms when he buried they're bodies"

Flame hugs me tighter.

"He was such a monster it never occurred to me that he was lying" My tears are falling down my cheeks now.

She wipes my tears gently with her fingers and kisses my face gently.

"Hey yeah...so Brain man" Lucky's hiding something.

He's running his fingers through his hair which he only dose when he's lying or has something that's he hiding or don't know how to say it.

"Soo a, yeah... Ummm" he says unsure.

"Lucky for fuckes stakes, spit it out. It's like your having a stoke, what?" I finally yell at him.

He sighs heavily at me.