Chapter 344: It's just you and me

Finn POV

"Tell me Spencer. Look at me! It's just us. It's just you and me." He says taking my face. I breathe or at least I try but it's ragged and my chest is feeling like it's being crushed. My head is getting fuzzy and it's like my legs are jelly. I fall to my knees again.

"Put me down now!" Sheldon yells close to me but his voice sounds far. I grab my chest as I try to get air into my burning lungs.

"Guys back away! Give him space!" Lucky yells.

"It's a panic attack. He just needs a minute." Sheldon says as they move his stretcher down next to me.

"Finley breath. It's me, I'm here. Feel my hand in yours." I try to breathe but it feels impossible. I try to focus on his hand in mine but I'm numb. She watched them do this to me, to him. I throw up again and again my stomach in knots and feeling like there's heavy rocks at the bottom.

"Baby can you hear me?" I hear his voice coming in a little clearer now. I squeeze his hand back and I hear him take a deep breath. He pulls my face to his. I push my forehead against his as his fingers caress my cheek and neck.

"Spence your doing great just keep pushing through it." I try and focus on his voice like I've done so many times before. I take a slow breath in and out. My eyes can focus a little better now.

"Take your time go slow." He say as he moves the hair from my face.

I laugh as my hand cups his face "You always like when I go slower." He laughs as he pulls my mouth to his. He wraps his arm around my neck pulling me closer and keeping me there. I'm breathless again as I pull my lips from his. I clear my throat as reality returns and I realize we're not alone.

"Tell me Spence." He says not even looking around just keeping his eyes on me like I'm all he sees.

"They sent the..videos to them. Three of them for sure. River watched the first one." I say trying not to think about what she saw.

His hand drops from my face and I can see him thinking about that day. That day was the day we realized how fucked we actually were. That day changed everything. It changed how we acted, our well thought out plans, hell it even changed the way they started torturing us. I can feel his hand shaking as I squeeze it tighter under mine.

"Did Lucy see it? Did my mom watch it?" He yells.

"I don't know. Denalii insisted on watching it and River watched it after they hid it away from her." I say trying to keep my calm as he chips it 8away with every question.

"Kenny!" He yells sitting up a little. Kenny runs to our side.

"I'm here." He says.

"Did mom watch the videos?" He asks half yelling now.

Kenny shakes his head "No absolutely not. Lucas would never allow that." Kenny says so sure and confident.

"The first one was Nunzio, Pickle, Lucas and I think Lincoln watched the start of it. I was still deployed and didn't know about anything yet but I think thats all of them. Not sure who watched any other ones." Kenny says.

"Lincoln saw it?" I gasp out my breathing getting heavy again.

"Hey hey he didn't watch long." Lucky says rubbing my back in small calming circles.

"Some of the videos got leaked to the press and Brain is close to finding out who did that."

I look up at him and then to Sheldon. I notice his wound is bleeding again. I take off my pack and start looking it over as I get a new clotting pad to patch him up.

"What's done is done." I say standing now.

"Finn we can talk about it more." Lucky says. I shake my head.

"They will treat us the same and the torture will be the same once they have us in custody it's only difference is we'll be tortured by people from our own country and we'll be alone." I say lifting my head as I start walking.

"Let's move!" I yell whistling.

Sheldon POV

That's it, that's all. He's shut down now and going into leader mode. Nothing we say now matters, he's going to shut us all out and close down.

"Lucky." I call out as we walk.

"Yes brother?" He says squeezing my shoulder.

"Watch him please. He's stubborn and he's shutting it all out. We know what will happen to us as traitors in custody. I'm not sure we will survive it on our own. Is there anything else that can be done?"

"That's not my area but trust me Ted, Lincoln and every lawyer the Nunzio's have are working day and night to figure it out. We have a back up plan in play if needed, we will do everything we can do legally if that fails us then we will do everything we can do in that special way we do it!" He says.

"They're not laying a finger on you guys. Hell maybe we will all become Mexicans and next week we can be on the beach working on our tans." Nathan says with a laugh. He leans closer to me "I've got him my brother. We've got you both just rest." He kisses my head and jogs up to where Finley's walking. Just from the way he's holding himself and walking I already know the Finley I've had the last few months is gone replaced by the perfect Soldier that's drilled into us. He won't let them use me as his weakness. I close my eyes as the tears leak from them.

I must have fallen asleep when I wake I can hear yelling, lots of yelling.

I groan as I try to sit up and look around.

"What's going on?" I ask Kenny. He has his gun ready but not pointed at anything yet. He just squeezes my arm and puts his finger to his lips.

I lay back and just listen to what I can.

I can hear Spencer and Burks talking in Arabic back and forth with someone. Their words getting lost on the wind. I'm only getting a few words here and there.

"We're staying together!" I hear Burks yell.

"Then just take one please. He needs a medic now!" That's Spencer and he's in a panic but trying to stay in his soldier mode. I can hear it in his voice, I know that panic, I know him and he's close to just fighting his way through.

"Wait... days...you are never." Fucking wind! I can't hear shit now!

"Only Americans!" I hear someone yell.

"This is bullshit! We're fucking American citizens every single one of us! Fuck most of us have wore the same uniform as you!" Jasper yells.

"Tell the colonel that Finley Spencer wants to talk!" I hear Finn yell.