Chapter 315: We might have to kill him

Pickle POV

"I'm going to kill him." Denalii says running his hand through his hair.

"That counts as every Christmas and birthday present for her forever." Lucky says.

"I think that's bigger then the first house we had when we started Alyce's Place." I gasp out. Good god! Our daughter is going to be a spoiled princess.

"Flame." Denalii points out the window.

"Finee you big babies I'll talk to him but you know he's just going to say 'Did you make this money? No and it's between me and my

nipotina'." Flame says.

"That's what Nono calls me but I can't say it right yet." Annie says.

"Auntie did Hadley eat all my waffles?" She asks Chailor.

"Nope she's down stairs waiting on you with Aunt Mia." She says kissing my cheek.

"I love you bubba give my soul sister my love." I squeeze her hand with a smile.

"I love you Munchkin and I'll talk to you later. No more answering phones and please wait for mommy and me before you start yelling at the people outside the gate okay." I kiss her nose and set her back down. She grabs Chailor's hand.

"I love you too daddy. I'll be good but if they make me mad I'll try to hold my mouth but me and daddy get fired up." Lucky laughs grabbing her and throwing her in the air.

"That we do my love. I'll be down in a minute and then we'll work on your holds and follow through. Ask Mad Had if she wants to practice, Crash and Mia are coming out too."

"Yes! I'm going to flip Crash this time." She says hurrying out the door.

Lucky hugs me. "Remember she needs you, she asked for you. Be gentle with her Pickle she's doesn't need a lesson she needs to be surrounded by the arms of the man who makes her feel safe and loved." Lucky kisses my head and punches my chest before he jogs out the door.

"She'll be okay brother." I say looking at Denalii. He looks broken and nervous.

"General Ludlow sent me a email. He will be here in three days to talk with us before he makes a official statement." I sit on the bed.

"That doesn't sound good right?" I ask. I don't know official military protocol.

"I'll let the suits worry about that. We all need to work on a statement. They want one group one and each of us to do one of our own."

"Fuck! I'm going to have to tell River." I say droping my head in my hands massaging my head. His phone dings like three times in a row.

"Fuck! I got to go threaten my dad. He just bought a vacation house in Florida and one in California in case she wants to go to Disney World or Disneyland this week." He looks at his phone.

"Oh I'm sorry apparently it's not a if, it's a done deal. He just set a two week vacation for both girls him, Lucy, the Spencer's, Pinky and Maria they are taking them on a grandparent trip. But don't worry he pretty much has a fifty person deep protection detail going as well."

I sigh heavily "At least it will a better memory for them then this shit." I say laughing.

"They are leaving in the morning he emailed all of us the details. He wants her to be able to talk to River before they go." I grab my phone and message him a big thank you. Denalii's phone dings.

"Tell her I love her and not to give up hope." He hugs me. His phone dings again. I hug him tightly before I let him go.

"Damn it! He just brought them a entire princess package and rented out the whole Disney park in both states so they won't have to wait or be inconvenienced by other people." He rolls his eyes. "You might be right, he actually might buy her a island cause he just bought them both a star what ever that means." His phone rings.

"Dad no stop! She doesn't need a horse. Yes it's too soon to buy her a plane!" He yells in Italian as he makes the crazy sign with his finger.

I laugh so hard my stomach hurts after.

"River's going to kill him." Flame says laughing. She gives me her hand and pulls me to my feet.

"Tell her I love her. I miss her and I hate that I've given her a reason not to trust me with you. I'm sorry love. I'm going to go stay at Ryder's for awhile at least while this is going on." She leans up and hugs me kissing my cheek.

"It's not all on you." I say as I move her hair from her face tucking it behind her ear. I caress her cheek. I pull her in a tight hug and hold her for a minute or two.

"Fiammetta I'll always love you. I love you still to this day but I'm in love with her. I just don't know how to explain it to her or to myself sometimes." I drop my head to her shoulder. She wraps her arms around me. "This is your home and I refuse to be the reason you leave it."

"Luca you'll always be that same angery broken boy who loved me so hard that I learned to love myself. You saved me,  you gave me my family, you taught me how to defend my self and you'll always be the man who didn't leave my side the whole three days I stayed in bed crying after I killed my monster. I love River with my whole heart and I won't be the cause of her pain. This is my decision." She kisses my cheek hard holding it for a moment before she walks away.

"Flame." I say as I grab her arm and pull her back.

I grab her face and kiss her lips lightly. She wraps her arms around my neck as I lift her up. She doesn't wrap her legs around me even after I deepen the kiss. She pulls away, I lift her back to her feet.

"I'm sorry fuck! What's wrong with me" I say dropping to the bed looking only at the floor as my guilt eats me.

"Hey Pickle, it was just a sweet goodbye for those two lost broken kids we used to be, now we can move on with our adult friendship." She kisses my head lightly. I look up at her.

"We weren't forever my love and we both know it. Ryder and River are forever though and it's okay to close our chapter."

"Thank you." I say pulling her to me.

"You have a hard time when your stressed or hurting and you turn to me because I'm safe for you which is fine and that will never change. Please forgive your self and I'd still like for you to join me for a session with my therapist. She's really helped me with my feelings for you. Go and get our girl" she says.