Chapter 31: Who the hell is that?

River POV

He pulls me tighter into him like his afraid I'll disappear

One hand now sliding up a little farther against my bare skin lifting slightly the hem of my shirt to touch me

He is soft and gentle

He slowly removes his mouth from mine with a ragged breath and softly starts kissing my cheek, my face, the bottom of my ear and right below my jaw

I can barely breathe now

My stomach flips

It's so hot, like I'm on fire hot

As he's coming back up to the bottom of my ear I can feel his breath in my ear and I shiver as he says

"Why can't I get you out of my head"

Suddenly I get a quick flash of a face that I don't recognize, a younger boy maybe 16 or 17 he has black hair and gorgeous amber eyes his skin's a darker shade not alot darker just like well tanned.

He's cute, really cute.

I can feel his breath near my ear as he leans in and says

"Why did you have to come back and why can't I get you out of my head" his voice echoes through my head

Then another voice this one in a sadder pleading tone

"Amorina please open your eyes"

I start to shake and my body slightly tightens as I recognize the voice from my dreams, the one who pulled me from the darkness over and over again

It's getting to be too much

I need to stop

I'm so confused

I start to pull my arms from around his neck

What was that?

Who the hell was that?

Another flash this time just his smile and the way he crunches his eyebrows at me

How do I not remember him

I quickly pull away from Finn a little more because the memories startle me

Finn has stopped moving, almost like his scared to even breathe

I can feel the tension in his body

We both just stand there for a brief moment looking into each other's eyes.

Both of our chests heaving

"River, your okay. Look at me" I can hear Finn's voice pulling me back to him

Back to the present moment

I must have closed my eyes

"River baby open your eyes, I got you"

"Feel my hands on your checks, focus on that"

I had a memory while I was awake not just some horrible flashback, this was something else.

This was something new

I'm scared but also excited

I'm shaking now

I'm feeling colder

I need to feel Finn, I need his body against mine again

I look at him and into his eyes and all I want is to kiss him again

My breath is picking up as

I slowly start moving my arms back up around his neck

He looks into my eyes and he relaxes as he's leaning back down again towards me

When all of a sudden we hear Chailor's voice

"Wake up sleepy heads, we brought you breakfast"

I jump when I hear her voice and quickly turn and slip out of his bedroom door into the bathroom, as I'm turning the shower on I hear

Lincoln say

"Wake up you jerk we brought you food"

"I'm awake you ass, give me a minute" I hear Finn say back In a rushed voice

I hurry and get in and wash really quickly as I hear a knock on the door

"I'm almost done" I say quickly

I'm still shaking I need to sit down

"It's just me sweetie we brought you breakfast come join us when you're done" Chailor's says sweetly

"Okay I'll be out in min"

I'm still freaking out a bit as I think about what just happened

I've never heard the voice before when I'm awake I've only heard it in my dreams

Who was that boy that I seen

I don't remember his face

Why can't I remember him

I can't quit thinking about Finn and the way his body felt pressed against mine

I'm running my hands down my body

now as I'm thinking about our kiss

I'm so confused and strangely turned on by that kiss

I miss Finn's lips crushing mine

I want so badly to do it again

I want to feel his chest and his muscles pressed against my body

"Ahhhh" I goan outloud

I look down at my body imagining his hands rubbing on my naked body

That's when I see all my scars all the ugly reminders of what others have done to my body

I shudder

I suddenly feel sick

I don't want him to see the ugliness on my body

Finn's face pops in my head and I hear his voice so sweet so reassuring

Maybe he wont be sickened by my body

He's so sweet

I'm feeling better now

I take a few more deep breaths and shut off the water

I quickly grab my robe off the hook and head to my bedroom to get dressed.

As I close my door I glance over at his closed door wondering if he's still in there or if he's out in the kitchen

I hurry and throw on some jeans and a t-shirt as I head out the door for breakfast

I need to get my damn hormones under control before I go out there and just throw myself at him

I hope what happened isn't written across my face

Chailor's really good at reading people and she knows me as well as I know myself

I go out and quietly pull up the chair next to Finn's at the bar

He glances over and gives me a quick dimplely smile

Well now I'm full on blushing

Lincoln and him are talking about the lounge they went to and Chailor is telling him about a new club that just opened that she wants us all to go to tonight

"Sounds fun" Finn says as he glances over at me again and of course my body betrays me again with a quick blush I look down and bit my lip

I notice as I see his eyes get a bit darker then he slyly reaches under the bar and grabs my hand and squeezes it lightly

"What do you think River" Chailor asks excitedly

"Sure why not, I'm off tonight. Sounds like fun" then I notice her and Lincoln look at each other again looking like they're having their own private conversation that nobody else can hear

Shit they know, of course they know

We're so dead