Chapter 300: Then I hear it again
River POV
I want him. I need him. I just feel like a whore who likes to fuck different men and apparently I can never get enough, I'm just out here collecting men. Maybe I do need help. I can't just keep a million men, that can't be healthy for Annie.
I should just leave everyone they will be better off without me. I'm a ton of drama and I'm so fucked up in my head. I've been having nightmares again about that night and that day, at least I think it's that same day. That boy, how do I block out a whole year of my life, a whole person? That year was rough my dad got more abusive at least that's what my o
rthopedic surgeon said after my bone scans. I'm a broken useless whore and I don't deserve love. I can hear my dad screaming that at me over and over again as he shakes my shoulders.
"No baby please. Just stop and focus on me." Krazien is in my face now shaking my shoulders. I try to focus on his mouth on what he's saying.
"River baby. Come on my love please just say my name." I blink my eyes trying to focus. He pushes a pill in my mouth, I swallow it no questions asked.
"Krazien." I say softly as tears roll down my cheek. He pulls me tightly in his arms my legs wrap around him as do my arms.
"Hi baby." He says smiling at me before he kisses my lips.
"I was spiraling. I'm sorry. Everything's so confusing for me right now." I say crying. He holds me tight. Someone knocks on the door.
"Fuck off!" He yells.
"It's Randy." He rolls his eyes and looks at me. He pulls me down fixing my dress and kissing my nose before he goes to open the door.
"Krazien and River not who I expected to be in here." His face is full of rage till he sees my face.
"River my dear what's wrong?" He asks hugging me. I just stare at him blankly then I relax in his embrace. I start crying again. He runs his hand through my hair and on my back as he just hugs me letting me cry all over what I'm sure is the $300 silk shirt he told me about the other day.
"Your shirt." I say trying to wipe my tears off it. He grabs my wrist "River it's just a shirt. Talk to me. Krazien here, beat it." He says throwing something to him. He looks at me "Let me freshen up and I'll be right out." I tell Krazien with a smile.
"Poor sweet broken girl." Randy says and I swear I see him lick his lips in the mirror behind me.
I quickly fix my face "It's just a another video was sent and I'm really scared for Finn." I tell him trying not to cry. He tries to hug me again but I lightly move back "I'll start crying again and I want to go out and enjoy your party. I've really been looking forward to this." I tell him as I touch his arm. I seen how quickly his face changed when I moved away from his touch.
"Can we please go dance. I haven't been drinking and that's all I can think about right now. So please distract me Randy." I say grabbing his hand.
He pulls me back to him and it takes all I have not to flip him and beat his ass for grabbing me like that.
"River I have some options for you to enjoy your night without drinking." He says pulling out a pill bottle.
"That's sweet. I'll see where the night leads me. Save me something just in case please." I say running my fingers up his arm briefly.
I hate touching him. It's worse with him touching me.
Krazien runs over from the wall he's lean on waiting for me.
"You okay?" He says quickly caressing my face.
I nod. "River my dear come dance with me." I roll my eyes quickly before turning and smiling at him.
Randy makes me dance with him for four slow songs in a row with his hand getting closer to my ass with each song. I notice a very tiny, very young looking girl talking to Krazien. He laughs at something she says.
"Randy thank you for the distraction but I need to sit and drink some water for a minute. I can't stand these shoes another minute." I tell him walking towards Krazien.
He stops me and kisses my cheek. "Come River." He says so demanding that I look at him quickly.
"Sorry please come with me." He says putting his hand out leading me to a table a little bit down from Krazien. Randy kneels on the ground raising up my foot. He kisses up my leg to my knee. I smile trying not to vomit on him. It's a sweet act if we were together or he was literally anyone else in the world. He undoes my shoe, he sets my shoe down and kisses my foot before he starts again on the other leg.
Krazien's still just standing there laughing and talking to that girl. What a bitch! I think as I watch her touch his chest. He looks up and notices me watching him. Then he leans to the girl and they head down the four or five steps to Randy's unit and he leads her in by putting his arm across her shoulders. I'm killing her then I'm killing him.
"Thank you Randy your the sweetest. Can you please bring me a water bottle? Please make sure the cap is sealed." He nods and heads off.
I walk, well I stomp like a damn gorilla, shoulders down, raging jealously running through my body. I look around and still don't see him. He's a fucking giant why can't I see him! She thinks she can just touch him. He thinks I won't kick his ass too! Maybe he's hiding her. What a bitch! Then I see them standing over against the wall in the room further back where it's a little darker.
He sees me and his smile drops but he don't look towards me he looks towards a TV some people have on. I walk faster now my hands moving into fists. As I get to them I hear something on the TV that stops me in my tracks. I turn to the TV it feels like slow motion but then I hear it again.
"The two missing military officers Sergeant Finley Spencer of Las Vegas Nevada and Sergeant Sheldon Mumford also from Nevada. Were taken hostage four weeks ago. We received word that there's videos of the horrible torture they have received over the course of a month. Here's pictures that were taken before their deployment."
There he is my Finn in his military dress picture. The same one on my wall at home.
"And again what we are about to show is very graphic and not suitable for young viewers."