Chapter 26: It's River, I got you and your safe

River POV

"It's Finn" I gasp as I turn around and rush to his room

As I open his door I slowly enter

I can see him thrashing around on the bed

Shit he's having a nightmare

I quickly head over to the bed saying his name trying to get his attention

"Finn wake up, Finn it's River wake up" I say as calmly as I can

He shaking and mumbling and almost sounds like he's crying

The sounds he's making breaks my heart a little

I'm starting to panic now a little

I have to try to help him

"Finn, it's River your safe"

"Listen to my voice"

I try to sound comforting and calm just as he did with me earlier

I can see the tension start to leave his body a little bit, but suddenly he yells

"River how did you get here?"

He sounds confused

"How did you get here doll?"

"It's okay Finn, I'm here"

He sounds concerned and a little scared

Now he yelling

"No River! River you can't be here it's not safe run!"

"Dont look back just Run, River Run!"

He's almost sobbing now

I almost dropped to the floor as a sudden flashback hits me

I'm shaking and It's getting harder to breathe

I try to do the counting like Finn said

Its not working

I can hear Ryder yelling

No, thats not right, It's just a memory

It's just a flashback

It's the one of my brother yelling the same thing telling me to "Run River Run" as he's trying to protect me from our father

I'm trembling and tears are coming down my face

"River!!" It's Finn's voice

"River!" Finn keeps yelling

I quickly try to shake the memory out of my head

It's not real

I can't panic now I need to help Finn just like Chailor and Lincoln have helped me numerous times before

Just like Finn helped me

"Okay River pull your shit together, you can do this" I say outloud

I can do this

I take a deep breath and then another

He's flopping all over the bed and he's throwing his hands around in the air

"Finn, your safe"

"Finn it's River, I'm right here just breathe"

"River? No, no River. No you have to go"

Okay he's moving to much, how can I do this

"Finn just count, your safe"

"Listen to my voice Finn"

He's slowing down his movement and I can see his eyes flickering

Okay good, we've got this

He stopped moving so much now

Nows my chance

Then I do the only thing that I can think of that might help calm him down

I gently climb in bed behind him and soothingly say

"Shhhh Finn it's ok, it's me River and your safe and I'm safe"

I gently start pulling my body close to him as I wrap my arms around him the best I can

While I'm trying to pull my body to his I'm still saying "Finn, it's River, I got you and your safe"

I stay holding him till we're both breathing calmly

He's so warm, this feels so good but I need to get up go back to my own room

As I try to pull my arms back away he grabs my hand and holds it to his chest and breathes in a deep breath as he murmurs

"Stay awhile with me please"

"Okay just a little while" I say back

So I just lay with him, his hand feels so good next to mine

This feels so normal but also so strange

I've never had this closeness with anyone

The only reason I know that this helps is from Chailor

This helps me

This isn't so bad this is too scary but my heart is pounding and if the butterflies in my belly would stop it wouldn't be bad at all

He is holding my arms so tightly but so softly

I can feel his heart rate returning to normal

I just lay there and listen to him breathing

as I fall deeply asleep

Finn POV

As I start to wake up my heads still kind of hazy and hurting

"Damn it Nunzio" I say aloud

Now remembering all the shots he made us do last night

So, so many shots

I don't even remember coming home

As my thoughts start to become more clear I realize I have a small arm wrapped around me

Shit, did I bring some strange woman home with me last night

Ohhhh shit, I'm a dead man

This is Lincoln's number one rule

I better get her out of here before Link kills me

I slowly try to move her arm as I get up

She murmurs something and pulls the blanket over her head

I grab the bottle of water off my nightstand and head to use the bathroom and grab some Tylenol

When I'm finished I quickly check and it looks like Link and Chailor are still gone thankfully

I take a deep breath and head back to my room

I walk over and grabs a pair of sweats and pull them on

Maybe I can get a round two before I send her on her way

I really hope I wore a condom

Shit! I really hope I wore a condom

I notice my clothes from last night are thrown around the room like they were taken off quickly, but I don't see any woman's clothes

That's a good sign right

I take a deep breath really quick

I go over to the bed and pull back the blanket slowly as I'm saying "Hey, good morning, wake up please" as nice as I can

I can't even remember her name

Crap I'm a dick

Name, name?

Damn it, I don't have a name

Running my fingers through my hair I say again

"Good morning, It's time for you to go"

The woman sits up quickly and with a jump

"Shit, sorry. Didnt mean to scare you"

She looks up at me with big green eyes and I notice she looks terrified

"Ohhhh shit!"

What hell it's River

Why is River in my bed