Chapter 223: I didn't know

Lucky POV

"Is she okay?" Kraizen asks. I nod "She will be. You can't touch her when she's like that!

I say a little loudly. "You don't understand what he did to her, it makes it worse." I say now talking lower not wanting my daughter to hear.

"Just like with Mia. Just in case I'm not around and she needs help. Trying to talk them through it is the best way." Crash says bro hugging him.

"I didn't know. Carter explained some things. I just wanted to help her. I couldn't..." he chokes up "I couldn't just sit there and listen to her begging us to kill her." He says with tears in his eyes. He never moves his eyes from her face as he talks.

I kiss her head when she starts whimpering again.

"I'm going to go lay her by Pickle. She does do better with him like Annie said."

"Can I?" Kraizen asks pointing to River. I nod. His a good kid he means well. His upbringing was rough but he never had to deal with stuff like this.

He gently slides his arms under her lifting her up and pulling her to his chest.

"I'm sorry." I hear him whisper to her as he heads to her room.

I open the door for him. "Put her over on that side of him." I tell him as I gently slide my arms under Pickle and pull him over towards me.

"I didn't hurt her did I?" He asks.

"She's going to be okay now right?" He moves her hair out of her face.

"I didn't make it worse did I?" He's just starring down at her so sadly.

I walk over to him and squeeze his shoulder "No you didn't hurt her in any way. Do you want to lay with her? I need to go be with our daughter."

He nods "Tell her I was trying to help her mommy and not hurt her." He says. I laugh a little "Not going to lie her attacking you was a proud daddy moment for me." He laughs with me this time.

I wave to the bed and he slowly slides in next to her. He moves some hair from her face. Her eyes flutter and she whimpers out a small cry. I watch him tense up. Pickle reaches his arm out and puts it on her.

She takes a deep breath and wiggles back against him. Even all doped up and sedated they just gravitate to each other. My jealously flares up, I need to walk away for a minute.

"Don't make me regret this." I tell him giving him the 'don't make me beat your ass look' he nods as he slowly puts his hand on hers.

I see him breath in deeply as his body stops shaking so bad. I remember how it feels seeing her like that the first time,  hell it hurts every time but that first time really kicks you in the balls.

I turn and walk out the door to go check on our daughter.

River POV

I jump little as I wake up. My hands are balled into fists aching a little from the tight fists I've been making for who knows how long.

I can feel someone behind me breathing on my neck.

It's Pickle. I can tell from his large arm draped around my waist. I pull his arm up closer wrapping it around my chest and arms, kissing his hand and arm as he pulls me a little tighter.

I open my eyes and jump as I'm damn near face to face with Kraizen.

His eyes open and he pulls his face back some as he smiles at me.

"I'm so sorry River, I thought I was helping I didn't mean to make it worse." He says with sadness in his eyes.

Why is he sorry? Is this about what he started to tell me last night?

He reachs over and caresses my cheek "I'm so sorry" he says again.

"For what?" My head is spinning. I don't know what his talking about. My head is killing me, I need water.

"For... do you not remember what happened?" He asks. I guess not, Shit did I do something with him is that why he's in my bed? I shake my head.

"Well kid you better explain pretty fucking quick why you're in our bed!" A deep voice rumbles behind me.

He pulls me tighter to him kissing my head "Good morning Kitten" he smiles as I turn to look at him.

"Good morning honey." I answer back kissing his lips.

"Kraizen explain now!" Pickle says not looking away from me. He gently tucks my hair back behind my ear.

"She was having a nightmare, she kept saying we weren't real and I fucked up I thought I could just grab her and hold her like we did with you but it made it worse and she was screaming and then the baby jumped on me trying to choke me out and yelling and..."

"What the fuck Annie seen?" I jump out of bed running out of the room. My poor Annie. Oh god she seen me like that! Guilt rushes through me.

"Annie" I say running through the house "Annie!"

"Mommy!" I hear a little voice yell and the sound of little feet running across the hardwood floor.

I grab her and love her, hold her tightly and kissing her face. "Mommy you remembered I'm real!" I squeeze her tighter, my poor baby.

"Oh baby I'm so sorry. Of course your real. I'm sorry I said that. It was a bad dream." I kiss her little cheeks again.

"It's okay mommy." She kisses my cheek.

"Kraizen was trying to help me, he wasn't hurting mommy." I say to her.

She looks at me. "He's you friend, okay." She cups my face with her tiny hands. I laugh a little at her cute little face hold.

"Thank you bunny. I love you. I'm sorry you had to see that happen with mommy. Thank you for trying to help me, sometimes helping mommy or daddies isn't safe for you. When that happens you need to run and find someone to help you okay?" I kiss her head and hug her tightly.

It would kill me if she got hurt. I hug her a little more. Lucky is leaned against the wall watching me. I smile up at him when I notice him watching me.

"Why don't you go see if your aunt needs help cleaning up breakfast." I whisper in her ear.

"Okay!" She stands up and runs down the hall.

Lucky comes over and helps me up pulling me into his arms.

"She's okay River. She did good!" He says kissing my head.

"She beat up Kraizen?" I ask laughing.

"She was amazing enchantress, you should have seen her. I was so proud!" He's getting all worked up telling me the story. I'm trying not to laugh.

"She ran in there jumped on his back, trying to wrap her arm around his neck while punching with her other hand." He looks so cute bragging about our daughter.