Chapter 183: I'll find him

River POV

After I cry my whole soul out I stand up off the halfway floor and head to the kitchen. I grab a bagel and some cream cheese. I eat one half of it not really hungry.

I head to my room to change and grab some clothes stuffing them in backpack. I made a plan to help keep my mind off shit. I call and let Chailor know I'm going to stay at the clubhouse. Lincoln said he hasn't talked to him either which makes my stomach turn. I try his number again.

"Honey where are you?" I say out loud holding back more tears. I fill my flask and take a few quick drinks cause fuck it why not, I sit and wait for my lift driver.

I try Lucky again, and of course no answer. I finally cave and call Ryder.

"Hey Brian. Have you heard from Pickle?" I say him.

"River. He'll be okay." He says quickly.

"Do you know something Brain?" He's too quiet "Ryder don't you lie to me again. Please"

He takes a breath "You know when he's on a job I can't really tell you much. I'm never going to lie to you again but you have to understand there's just somethings I can't talk about." He says with a sigh.

Tears slide down my cheeks and my voice cutting out as I ask "Is he alive?"

"Yes he's alive. I have to go now River. Wait! Where are you going?" He asks and I can hear him typing on his keyboard.

"The gym and I'm going to stay at the clubhouse. Will you please make sure he knows where I'm at?" I say with a sad voice I quickly try to hide.

He takes a deep breath "Riv. I'll find him, I promise."

"Thank you. Bye Ryder"

I say hi to a few people as I head to the locker room. I drop my bag into my locker and I take big swing from my flask. Okay I'm feeling it now, I'm going to go do a quick warm up and start practicing my shadowing as Carter calls it.

I'm just getting done doing pushes up and I'm going to do a few sit-ups when someone is standing over me.

"Hello gorgeous. So what's the plan for tonight since your old man's out of town?"

"Hey Kraizen. It's Saturday I'm going to be at the clubhouse watching a move. Same thing I did last Saturday when you asked then" I say rolling my eyes.

"Got it. So ask you out on a friday instead." He says laughing.

"Shut up you flirt and hold my feet while I do some sit-ups"

"For someone who don't like being flirted with you sure blush a lot when I flit with you" he say booping my nose.

"Don't feel special, I literally have no control over it. My cheeks do it with everybody it doesn't mean you're special" I say rolling my eyes at him.

He caresses my cheek as I come up from my last one. I look at him, he's extremely good looking but I've got enough men already.

I go to stand but he jumps up and offers me his hand, I take it after some hesitation.

"Thanks" I say trying to pull my hand back blushing.

"So what movies playing tonight?" He asks letting my hand go.

I look at him for a minute "Kraizen. Look I'm flattered but I'm with Pickle and Finn and you know this" I pick up my mat as I walk away.

"Maybe I just want to see a movie with a girl doesn't mean your the girl" I blush. Okay maybe, he's telling the truth.

"Umm. Glad your not blushing for me" he says caressing my cheek again.

"Krazien gloves now. Your pissing me off and I need to practice. Ring?" I tilt my head towards it. Maybe I can get in a few hits. He won't just let me win. He's one of the few men who'll get in the ring with me, most are scared of Pickle.

These last few months I've gotten a lot better and I can actually beat a few people.

I swing and miss. Fuck! I wanted to hit him.

He bounces towards me and swipes my feet out from under me. I hit the mat hard.

That freaking hurt. I'm going to kick his ass!

I jump up and move around him waiting. He laughs at me and throws a punch that I dodge.

"Nice move blondie" he says smiling at me.

I go in and he grabs me like I hoped. He's behind me he's going to try to grab me and throw me down. Pickle taught me how to throw them when they do this. I brace and move to my stances as he moves into the sweet spot. I grab him and throw him over my shoulder before he knows it. Slam.. He stays on his back,  breathing heavily and maybe a little stunned but then he opens his eyes laughing.

I stick my hand out to him. I grabs my hand "your old man teach you that?" I nod with a smile.

"Nice. Now let me teach you one" he grabs my arm and lifts his legs to my stomach and flips me over.

"Your a cheat" I say sitting up.

He's laughing "Want to try a leg flip?"

I flip him off I go to stand but he grabs my waist and pulls me on top of him.

I smack his chest getting up "The movies Moana it starts at 7 bring a bottle." I say. He smiles at me.

"Wipe that stupid smile off your face, it's not anything other then a friend coming to keep another friend company while she sings her heart out and drinks till she don't care how sad she is."

His smile drops slightly "Deal. I'm a very patient man blondie."

"Go shower and bring me a joint for after the show. You act dumb and you'll leave with a black eye and one less friend." I say to him punching his arm.

He looks serious now "Got it. So can I bring a date then?"

"Yes but it's a kids show so no dirty shit and she better not try to talk through the whole show."

He laughs "Take all the fun out of it why don't you"

I punch him in his arm again "I'm just playing. See you tonight blondie. I'll bring some of that carmel corn from that place around the corner you like"

I throw my glove at him "Thanks and grab some of that zebra kind to please" I smile and wave as I head to the shower.

I'm drying my hair when my phone rings "Hello"

No one says anything just some breathing "Hello, is anyone there?" No one talks just breathes "I can't forget how your body felt next to mine" what the hell, who the fuck is this?

"Who's this?" I say getting irritated.

"You'll be be screaming out my name soon enough"

Then nothing. Who the fuck is that? I don't know anyone that creepy!