Chapter 159: Rough day sweetface

River POV

"Pickle, I love you"

He's quite for a minute and I hear his breath hitch "River, I love you too. I'm trying to make this quick"

"Pickle. I love and miss you and I'm here when your ready to talk but till then nothings changed. I have to go down stairs and get Annie now. Please call tonight to tell her goodnight. Lucky too. Tell him I have questions about Annie and he can call me in a hour and I'll answer. I love you honey and I hope to talk to you tonight" I hang up and cry for a minute. I take one last smell of his shirt as I throw it in the laundry basket.

I meet Chailor downstairs.

She looks at me and laughs "Rough day sweetface" I nod moving slow and stiff.

"It was awful and I'm glad this is every other day. I have work tomorrow afternoon, can you watch Annie while I'm gone or should I have Mia come stay tonight?" We just got our new schedules.

"I will definitely keep her. I just met Mia she is a amazing artist. I talked to her for like a hour she's so great."

"I know she's crazy talented. She's the sweetest girl. I think I'm going to ask her to look at that drawing I made for my mom and brother and maybe see if she can improve it and turn it in to a tattoo a birthday gift to my self."

"That's a good idea. If you change your mind about the tattoo we can just use it as a memorial piece"

"Yes, that would be cute to" I say thinking of what changes I would want to do.

We go to where the little kids are and I look around and I don't see her. I look at Chailor and she looks worried too.

"Excuse me do you know where Annie is?" I ask the young girl in there watching the kids.

"She's here somewhere. She's a resident so she's allowed to wonder. Abby usually just says to let her go where she wants." She says noticing Annie's not in there.

"Ohh, okay well for this week I'm watching her so when she's here I want her to stay here please." she nods and writes it in a book. I turn and head out towards the rooms.

I see Abby "Has Annie been by here?" I ask her.

"No. I thought I was done with that girl now?" she sounds drunk.

"Have you been drinking?" I ask her.

She looks at me "Your not my mommy just cause your fucking Lucky. Only he can tell me what to do. I was trained for him so enjoy him why you can" she bumps into my shoulder as she pushs pasted me.

"What the fuck!" I say as she walks away.

Chailor puts her hand on my shoulder "Did she just say she was trained for him and shoulder check you?" I nod as I look at her. Chailor stares her down when she looks over at us again laughing.

"Come on she might be in her room"  I say heading over to where the rooms are.

The door is open and I notice Abby's stuff was gone.

"Bunny" I say coming in the room.

"Mommy" she says running to me.

"What are you doing? I didn't know where you were" I say picking her up and hugging her tight.

"I play in my room" she looks at me and holds my face "I sorry, mommy okay" I kiss her little face.

"Okay when we come back here you have to stay in the class till someone comes and gets you okay? I was scaried when you weren't there"

"Okay mommy" I put her down and help her pick up her toys. I pack what I can in a box and decide I'm in too much pain and I'll finish packing her stuff up another day.

I text Crash and ask him if her stuff will be okay left in there till I pack it. He says yes that's still her room even if Abby's moved out of it. He also said he'll pack what her can and take it to her new room upstairs by Lucky's.

Lucky POV

I've been staring at this email for a hour, I don't know if I'm in shock or expecting it to be different. It's as bad as I thought it would be, I knew who she was when I first seen her. Abby is the girl that was supposed to be my first wife when I turned 15 and she was 12. She's the girl from the church and after getting to know Annie I knew right away she's my dad's. He must of took Abby after I ran as his wife to save face with the church.

Abby has never answered any questions about the church she always said she wasn't ready to talk about it which is something we have heard plenty of times.

This thought has always entered my mind, she looks too much like me and I think deep down I knew it but this DNA test confirms everything and makes it real Annie's my little sister. The lawyer says it's up to me but I do need to make a decision soon.

Fuck!! How am I supposed to decide which direction this little girls life goes? Do I keep her or do I let them foster her out.  If I send her to foster care the church might find her, If I keep her my father might find us all. It's not only my life that's at stake. We have almost 20 people with us from just our state and 6 from the surrounding states in hiding not just from the church. This puts me, Abby and Annie in danger, there's also a huge chance we would have to face him in court.

I want to call River, I need to just hear her voice.

She texted me and Pickle told me to call her. Okay call her and say what? What do I say?

I want to talk to brothers or my sister but we are all fighting. Pickle punches me everytime I mention River's name. I'm pissed at Brain and Flame is, well Flame is hurting and when she has episodes it can days to get her back. Her and Brain are still fighting which isn't helping anyone. Flame is mad at me and Pickle for fighting over River when we don't need to.

I drink the rest of the whiskey and head out to the living area Pinky and Pickle are talking. I hear Flame screaming and I start moving fast towards her voice. Pickle stands and blocks me, "She's screaming at him." He says "We're hoping this will help them both" he says not moving his eyes off the closed door.

I nod.

"I'm going to walk for a minute, maybe grab another bottle" I say walking to the door.

"Lucky what happened?" Pickle says grabbing my shoulder.

I shake my head. He gives me the look he does, the tilted raised eyebrow stair.