Chapter 124: Please look at me

River POV

"I'm going to go call Brain and let him know he's okay" Flame says walking out.

"Lucky, thank you for helping but we need a minute please" I say as nice as I can.

"Are you okay if I let go brother?" Lucky asks looking over at his face.

Pickle nods and Lucky starts moving his arms slowly.

"I'm going to need my legs" Lucky laughs lightly. I blush realizing I'm still partially on him.

Pickle pulls me to his waist and burys his face in my neck. My heart skips when I feel his warm breath on me.

I wrap my arms around his neck and I'm lightly rubbing his back under the collar of his shit. I can feel the tension in his body.

"I'm fine, please look at me" I say as I move his face to mine, his eyes are still closed and he doesn't try to open them. He let's his head drop again.

Lucky looks over at me and he holds his gaze with mine before he shuts the door behind him.

I kiss Pickle's head and then his cheek.Trying to reassure him.

"Please Pickle look at me"

I try to tip his head up again and this time he let's me.

I kiss his lips tenderly. He tightens his arms around me, holding me close.

"Pickle, I'm fine. It was a accident. It's not your fault. Please honey look at me" he opens his eyes and looks at me. He has a sad and guilty look in his eyes. I watch as his eyes become more glossy.

"You called me honey. I'm not sweet River, I'm dangerous and Lucky's right" his voice cracks as he talks and he looks mad now.

I touch his cheek "I'm okay" I repeat as I kiss him again, soft at first then I move closer to him and the kiss gets deeper.

He wraps his shaking arms around me and I can taste his salty tears as we kiss.

I lean forward a little more trying to push as much of my body against him as I can, he let's out a soft moan sending a shiver through my body and wetness to my pussy.

I push our kiss deeper as I run my hands up his sides. I should have waited to put his shirt on cause I want his bare skin pressed against me.

He suddenly pulls away and looks at me "I'm so sorry River, I fucked up" he kisses my lips tenderly then he picks me up moving me to the bed as he stands up grabbing and pulling on some pants.

He walks over and starts packing his backpack and my chest gets tighter.

"What are doing?" I ask slowly moving across the bed to him trying not to wince in pain as I do.

"Pickle, talk to me please." I say getting off the bed walking over to him. "Look at me please" I say louder.

He doesn't answer me and he won't look at me.

I reach out and rub his back though his shirt trying to comfort him as well as reminding him I'm still here.

"River don't" he says sternly pulling away from me.

"What are you doing?" I ask again as I try to wrap my arms around his waist.

He puts his hands on my arms and I relax a bit at his touch.

He quickly pulls my arms off and heads to the door.

"Pickle!" I gasp out as my heart stops beating for a minute.

He opens the door "STOP!" I yell, he jumps a little at my tone.

He doesn't even turn and look at me "I'm sorry but I can't do this anymore. I'll end up hurting you. Goodbye River" he says with his head down.

I run to the door "This is hurting me! Stop please!" I start crying harder when he doesn't even turn back.

He just keeps walking down the hall.

"Pickle" I sob out. "Pickle!" I say louder.

Lucky blocks my way and pulls me tight against his hard chest "He'll come back, he just needs a minute. I got him enchantress" then he turns and heads down the hall after him.

I let out a choked sob and drop to the floor. Pain shoots through me and my chest is on fire but I don't care. How can he just walk away from me? I thought he loved me.

Flame quickly runs over to me dropping down to to wrap me in her arms.

"I don't understand what just happened" I cry out.

"Shhhh it's okay. He just needs time, he'll be back when he's ready." She says as she caresses my back.

I shake my head "He said he was done and he can't do this anymore" I sob out. "I don't understand what I did!"

She holds me tighter.

"Let's get you back in your room, I'll order everyone breakfast"

I nod and lightly moan in pain as I stand.

"What if he don't come back?" I sob out looking at her.

She pats my back and rubs it a few times.

I get in bed and pull the covers around me as I breathe in his smell still on my blanket. I start crying as the ache for his arms around me gets to be to much.

Flame smiles at me sadly as she say "I'm just going to step out and order food" I nod as tears quickly run down my cheeks.

When she opens the door I see Lucky holding his nose. Flame quickly shuts the door behind her. What the fuck is he bleeding?

I jump up and follow their voices to the bathroom. I push open the door and Lucky's has blood all over his face and Flame is holding his nose with tissue.

"He hit you?" They both turn and look at me.

"River everything fine" he says looking at me.

I shut the door as I come all the way in "Are you fucking kidding me right now? How is any of this fine!" I yell at him. His eyes burning in to mine. I take a deep breath pushing the nervousness his gaze brings me down.

"Why did he punch you?" I ask him handing Flame a old clean hand towel. He just looks at me, it's a minute before he speaks.

"Look we've been here before, he'll be fine he just needs to cool off" he changes the tissues for the towel as the blood seeps through.

I shake my head and roll my eyes at him. I'm done with his bulshit.

I walk back to my room and shut the door.

I climb back in my bed and cover myself up and start crying softly.

I hear my door open and I sit up. My heart jumps in my chest hoping it's Pickle.

Chailor smiles softy as she comes and lays with me. She doesn't say anything she just holds me and let's me cry.