Chapter 123: Say it damn it!

River POV

"Brother we're not letting you go, till you calm down. Lucky is holding you and so is the woman I love and if you hurt her, I'll fuck you up" Brain says from the phone. I can hear the slight panic in his voice.

I don't know what to do so I'm just standing here crying like a useless little girl. Holding on to his shirt like my life depends on it. My stomach is in knots and my heart is breaking as I watch.

Lucky looks at me again and his eyes soften for a moment before they go hard again. My heart skips a beat when our eyes meet.

He shakes his head like he's clearing a thought then he points at me again.

I can see him struggling and trying to fight them.

I hate seeing him like this.

I see his legs sticking out. I walk closer to them.

Lucky is shaking his head at me, mouthing for me to stay back but I can't he's hurting and he needs me.

I reach out and touch his leg. He kicks at me and Lucky punches him hard in side of his face. I hear Pickle moan out.

"Your going to hurt her again!" Lucky yells at him.

"Stop please don't hurt him! Pickle please open your eyes!" I beg him crying out for him "Honey please!" I can't catch my breath my sides and my chest hurt. I try again "Pickle."

I put my hand on his leg. He stills for a minute then tries kicking at me.

Lucky hisses under him as he kicks at me again just missing my arm.

Lucky smacks him hard against his head.

I sob "Why isn't this working. Why is it taking so long. Is he alright?" I ask through my tears.

"Sometimes it just takes longer. He must have been sleeping deeper" Flame says looking at me trying to give me a soft smile.

"This is all my fault. Please Pickle I need you. This is hurting me, I can't keep watching this, I can't stand him being in pain like this!" I let out a sob and turn away. I need to get some air, I need to go get Chailor and Lincoln, I need for Pickle to be safe.

I head for the door "I can't breathe, I can't watch him be in pain." I grab the doorknob and pull the door slowly open.

"River?" He cries out breathing heavy. I turn quickly to the sound of his voice. Butterflies go crazy in my stomach as I walk back over to the bed.

"I'm here honey, feel my hand on your leg?" I cry out as I put my hand back on his leg. My hands are still shaking as I just run my fingers along his leg.

"Oh god. River, I'm so sorry" he tries to sit up.

"Sweetheart thank you, now please get off me" he says to Flame.

Flame waits for a minute and looks at Lucky, he nods at her. They all have done this alot with each other. They are a great team together.

She slowly gets off him but she stays close.

Him and Lucky sit up. Lucky is still holding on to him.

I move my hand off his leg as they move around.

"Kitten are you still there?" He says quietly.

"I'm not going anywhere, I'm here honey" I sob out in a shaky voice.

"Did I hurt you?" He asks sadly. I can hear the pain in his voice.

Me and Lucky answer at the same time

"No!" I say.

"Yes! You did, you hurt her. You were squeezing her to the point she almost passed out!" He says louder.

"Lucky! Shut up, why would you tell him that?" I sob out.

"He needs to know! He needs to be careful" Lucky says louder almost directly in his ear, he clenches his jaw and Pickle makes a small whining noise.

I climb on the bed to him, I reach for his hand.

He jerks away when I touch him. I grab his hand again, he just holds it there this time.

"Can we get this off him please? I ask wiping my eyes.

Lucky just locks eyes with me "He could have really hurt you!" He says looking at me his eyes almost looking sad.

I look away. I don't want to deal with what ever mind fuck he's doing now. He's too confusing for me to handle right now.

"Flame please?" I look at her now pleading.

"You need to know too! River! Look at me, you both need to be careful! He could of hurt you! Say it damn it!" I jump when his voice booms through the room. I look back at him as my body trembles and I don't know the look in his eyes but he has his face crunched together like he's getting pissed and almost like he's actually worried.

"River! Do you understand what could have happened. Say you fucking understand!!" Lucky yells at me again. My eyes fill with tears as I look at him. He yells again "Say it River! Fucking say it!"

"Yes! Okay yes! I fucking get it Lucky!" I say crying harder "I fucking get it okay!" I sob out.

I just want to hold Pickle, he's hurting.

Lucky's eyes soften and he gives me a nod.

I crawl over and lift the blanket up off his head. He blinks a few times his eyes are red and he's shaking.

Lucky just stares at me the whole time, never taking his blue eyes off me.

Pickle tips his face down. His body is still shaking, he's sweating so much he's wet.

He shivers and I remember the shirt in my hands

"I have your shirt, do you want it?" I say softly putting my hand on his arm.

He looks at me all full of guilt, I cup his face and lean in to kiss him and he leans back from me.

I move a little closer to him and put my arms around his neck and pull him to my lips. I feel his body become less tense as the kiss continues.

I'm half on his legs and half on Lucky's, my arms are hanging so close to Lucky's around Pickle's shoulders I can feel the heat from his body. My body tingles and heat spreads through my body thinking of Lucky being so close.

When he pulls away from me, I look over and Lucky's still looking at me. His bright blue eyes staring almost through me sending a shiver through my body.

I look away and gently start putting Pickle's shirt over his head. His body is trembling still and I want to just wrap myself around him and hold him till it stops.

A shiver runs down my body and warmth slams in to my center when I look up and see those blue eyes still watching me.