Chapter 93 Chapter 93
“Not all topnotchers deserve to become doctors.”
I repeated that line over and over to Doc. Jeggo after I had already driven him out of my house.
“That’s why I’m not going back to St. Aveline no matter how much you insist, Doc. Jeggo,” I added.
“So you’ll just endure joining medical missions, then?” he asked seriously, which made me laugh.
“That’s the thing; even medical missions aren’t an option for me. I have nowhere to go now. Look at where I ended up: a topnotcher, yet completely useless. Maybe my classmates are already laughing at me because they’re successful now even though their grades weren’t that high before, while I, who was always perfect in quizzes and exams, a summa cum laude, ended up miserable,” I said with a grin. “But I’m fine… I’m always fine.”
“Maybe it’s also a good thing that you married a businessman. Maybe your path is really in business. You know, redirection.”
My laughter grew louder. Redirection? Damn redirection. It only led me to the worst place. Maybe I should’ve just accepted my life back then, a life that couldn’t escape any ghosts. I shouldn’t have rushed to solve what I was afraid of, because the situation only got worse. Even my husband became my worst enemy.
“Right, I’m really lucky with my husband,” I said to Doc. Jeggo as I walked him to the gate. “He’s just busy; that’s why I’m here for now, but we’ll see each other soon. So you better leave already. He’s the jealous type. He might get the wrong idea seeing you inside my house.”
“Psh. I was your friend before him. And he should feel threatened so he’ll take good care of you. Give you more time. A lot of people like you, Doc Jade; you just don’t know it. And those things you keep calling flaws in yourself… those are exactly the reasons people like you even more. I hope you find forgiveness in your heart, Doc Jade. I’m always here for you, as a doctor and as a friend.”
He finally said goodbye and got into his car. I was about to go back inside the gate when I noticed, from a distance, a tall and well-built man standing there, staring at me. Beside him was a familiar luxury car.
I let out a deep sigh and walked toward him bravely. I noticed a bouquet of roses in his hand.
“Are you planning to give that to me? Well, throw it away, because I will never forgive you, Hendeix, even if you bring me all sorts of things. Leave. You’re just wasting your time. I’m not going back to the Villa,” I snapped at him without hesitation.
“I know you hate me, Mori. Is this your way of getting revenge on me? Finding another guy?”
I scoffed in disbelief. “Are you accusing me?”
“Then who is he? That's Doctor Jeggo, right? Working in St. Aveline? What was he doing in your house at this hour? He even looked drunk,” he threw accusation after accusation.
“So you researched him, huh? Is that how you use your wealth? Maybe one day I’ll wake up and you’ve had him killed out of jealousy?”
“I can actually do that, Mori. You don’t know how mad I am right now, and yet I’m trying to be patient.”
“Hah! And you still have the nerve to threaten me? Why? What if I do look for another man? You don’t love me anyway, right? There’s no way you’re jealous! You’re just possessive because I’m the only one you can claim! You can’t get it up with anyone else; it only works with me! That’s why you’re here, right? Because you want to get laid again? You miss me? Well, rot! I haven’t forgotten what you did to me! And those flowers you’re holding? Throw them away or give them to someone else! Find another woman who’ll agree to be used by you! Leave me alone, Hendeix!”
I turned my back on him. I didn’t expect my words to weigh so heavily. I couldn’t stop myself. I was furious. And I needed to leave, because I might completely lose control and throw even more accusations at him.
“So even your promises were lies too?” he said slowly, making me turn back to him. “You told me you wouldn’t use it against me, but you’re doing it now.”
Sadness was evident in his eyes, but I wouldn’t be swayed by it. If he was hurting because of what I was doing, it still wasn’t enough compared to what he had done to me.
“Why? Are you hurt? Then fine, I’m the bad one!” I walked up to him and pointed my finger at him. “But remember this, Hendeix: you raped me. If only you had listened to me, I wouldn’t be talking to you like this! I’m sorry if this is how I am! You made me like this! Do you think everything is easy for me too? You’re my husband… I trusted you. I gave you everything. I always gave in to you… I can’t understand why you had to do that to me. If you think you can take and control everything, that you can outsmart and deceive everyone—not me, Hendeix. I can live without you.”
I slammed the gate shut. When I finally got inside my house, that was when I collapsed. The cold floor caught me. Hugging my knees, I let all my tears fall, along with the weight I had been carrying for so long.
No… I can get through this. I’ve already experienced this before. This is nothing to me. I can detach easily. I will just keep myself busy.
The days passed quickly. I found things to keep myself occupied. Aside from fixing up my house, I also tried traveling. I ended up going to different places. Good thing I had my car with me.
I often went to the sea and found myself just staring blankly. I let myself rest and recover for a while. It was also a good thing that Hendeix had stopped bothering me. Until now, I still can’t face him or forgive him.
I was surprised when someone rang the doorbell. Well, it was a good thing I was already back home; otherwise, whoever my visitor was wouldn’t have found me.
I opened the gate and was shocked at who was standing in front of me.