Chapter 33

Angel

Gray was out of the car quicker than flash, their anger never subsided. Obviously, they were moving too fast for me, because I was still attempting to follow them with my eyes when they had opened the door to my side causing me to almost fall out of my seat. I wasn't wearing a seatbelt, which made it worse.

But Gray caught me, steadying me in my seat and saving me from an embarrassing fall.

"Let's go."

They said with much demand, and like many times before, I followed their command as if it were some forbidden orders. And after I was telling myself they weren't my boss of all things.

As I stepped out of the car, my heels making sounded contact with the pavement, I realized that we weren't at the house I picked to stay at, but instead the second house. *What could we be doing here?* Unsure of what to make of this sudden occurrence.

"Why-"

"Shut up. And follow me."

Gray said simply, before waving off smiley to drive off. I assumed this house too was surrounded by their men keeping an eye out for anything suspicious. But that was the last thing that concerned me. What concerned me was the way Gray was suddenly speaking to me.

Usually they were sweet, gentle, and kind. But now, they were harsh, demanding and mean even. It was honestly making me reconsider my attitude a little bit too late.

Slowly I followed Gray into the mini mansion, their long strides making it seem as if they were speed walking. which they were not. They led me up a set of stairs that welcomed us as soon as we walked through the entrance of the home.

Then, down the hallway they led me to a room, which they unlocked with a key they pulled from their pocket. Holding the door open for me, they looked at me, telling me to enter with their eyes alone.

I had stopped a few inches away from the room door. From them. My hand fiddling with one another over my stomach. I felt a bit frightened, but more so confused. This didn't seem like something someone who was upset would do *right?*

Slowly, I entered the room, Gray closing the door behind us and locking the door.

I turned around and only stared at them. I so desperately wanted to ask them why they brought me here instead of took me home. What was their purpose. What was their plan. But, instead I refrained from doing so feeling as if they would only shut me out like they had done before, when we were outside.

Gray then walked over to the large dresser that stood opposite of the massive king-sized bed and placed the room key onto the surface of it. For a moment, they lingered in that spot. Then they began to unbutton their shirt, no rush. Their fingers brushing each button slowly as they came undone.

"Angel.."

They began, their voice soft and more gentle than it had been the entire night. They were calmer. With their movements slow, they took a turning step and faced me. Their shirt fully unbuttoned now as they looked me over.

"Tell me you want me, Angel."

"Why would I tell you that I want you after how you've just treated me."

"So I can punish you for your actions."

"My actions!?!"

I scoffed, their words sounding unbelievable to my ears. What was going through their head right now? I snatched the glasses that I had worn most of the night from over my eyes so that I could get a better look at them. They sounded crazy.

"Angel, I am not playing right now. One way or another you are going to take this punishment, whether or not you want to make this easier for me."

I couldn't believe them. They were going to punish me? for whatever reason? I huffed out a breath, my brows furrowing in disbelief as I began to pace back and forth in front of the bed behind me. I was trying to figure everything out. Trying to make sense of it all.

"Angel. You have three seconds to say it, before I take everything into my own hands."

"No!. No!. Absolutely not. You are not going to do anything Gray. I don't want you. You are not even giving me a proper reason for all of this."

Gray let out a heavy sigh, rubbing their temples between their fingers again. Then their head raised, and they were looking at me. Their eyes trailing my every movement.

"You've managed to upset me. Annoy me. Make me jealous. And arouse me all in this one night. Angel. So, you only have two options, say you want me, or take this punishment without saying it."

They explained briefly, as they began to remove the silk button down from their shoulders. Now showing off their sports bra that had been hidden underneath. The waistband of their boxers sat just above the waist of their slacks.

"I..."

I stuttered, attempting to look, search for the words that escaped me. I didn't know how to reply, and my attitude had already scattered into thin air.

"So, even if I say no to all of this. You are still going to punish me."

"Yes, but in a different way than the one I would prefer."

"What do you mean Gray?"

"I would prefer to fuck you, leave you thinking about how you decide to disobey me. And if you don't accept, I'll just use different, less intimate methods."

I thought it was only mentally, but physically my jaw had dropped, and my pacing had ceased. Their words catching me off guard and throwing me off. *Was I ready to lose my virginity?* Or would I prefer this less intimate method. For the longest I have been having fantasies and daydreams about Gray having their way with me. Showing off their skills in bed. And now, Gray was proposing to make all of that a reality.

But we were not in a relationship.

I felt my core burn with an overwhelming sensation. It hit me like a bomb to land. The thoughts alone were enough to get me going, but hearing Gray tell me they want to fuck me and ravage my entire being to oblivion. That was something else entirely.

My core, my crotch was yearning for it, I, was yearning for it. So, why was it so hard to agree to it. Why couldn't I just choose to say *I want you Gray.* I have done it plenty of times in my mind, in my ongoing fantasies. So why make it so difficult now.

Was it because they were offering two options instead of that one?

"I said you had three seconds Angel. It's been five minutes."

"Then why haven't you done anything!?!"

"I was bluffing. I have told you once before that I wouldn't do anything to you without permission. You are a virgin and i want to be more than careful with you."

"You don't have to treat me like a child learning to walk Gray."

"I do. It's going to be painful when you have it taken, and I don't want to be the one who takes it if you don't want me to be the one to take it."

"Aren't you a big crime lord? why does shit like that even matter to you?"

"Watch your tongue."

I scoffed into laughter, my eyes rolling as they shot their demand in a low tone. Then, they parted their lips once more, to speak.

"I am a human. Just because I'm some crime lord, doesn't destroy that fact. You have emotions, I have emotions. You could be a woman who cares deeply for how, and who takes your virginity. I want you to come to me, or at least tell me you want me to be the one who takes it. I want you to let me know I am the one you want who introduces you to a new life, and further makes you a woman. You are still young, 18 at that. You've only been an adult for one year now who is obligated to make her own decisions without her parents. So, if you really think about it, you still are a child. A grown child yes, but a child. You have to learn still. And making your own decisions, on your own time is the best way for you to grow. So, I won't do anything to you until you tell me that I can. That you trust me with your body. I can't read your mind or guess that you want me to do anything to you without you telling me that You do, mi amor."

I was stuck. Stuck like the many times I have been before ever since I met Gray. Part of me wanted to tear up and cry at their generosity and care towards me. They weren't ruthless and inconsiderate; they really cared about my wants and needs and saw me as an equal in a way.

Another part of me just wanted to give them my all. Wanted to apologize to them for the way I had been acting and treating them. I could have done better, but instead I let my anger get the best of me and I acted like a child tonight.

"Gray..."