Chapter 159 MOONLIT CONFESSIONS
Edeline
"Sounds pretty messed up," I said, trying to make sense of it all.
"Yeah," he replied softly.
I glanced out through the curtain of rain, observing the lake in the gaps. I took a deep breath and admired the full moon’s glow reflecting off the water, trying to find a moment of calm amidst the chaos.
The air felt pleasantly cool, hinting that autumn was right around the corner. I could almost feel the crispness in the air, imagining bonfires glowing under the full moon every night. It seemed as though someone was keeping a watchful eye on me, feeling my agony and sharing in all of our pain.
Being numb was a peculiar kind of blessing. It was as if she knew I couldn’t handle the pain and gave me the gift of feeling nothing. I understand and empathize with others, but when it comes to my own feelings, I feel detached and distant.
The heat on my skin was increasing, as if someone had turned up the thermostat.
“Percival, we’re running out of time here. I’m starting to feel a bit anxious. If we’re going to do this, I want to make sure we have some sort of justification for it. So we don’t end up regretting it later when things calm down. Let’s have a chat and clear the air.” I gazed out at the lake, my thoughts drifting as I spoke.
“Edeline.” His voice was deep, almost soothing, and it made my body squirm with unexpected pleasure.
I turned my head to face him and saw a trace of sadness in his eyes. His perfectly formed features were etched with both pain and longing.
His wet, tousled hair framed his face like a deep blue sky. It was like he was gazing into my soul with desire. My wolf yearned for his touch, even though she had recently grown to dislike both him and his touch on my skin. But sometimes, you just have to go with what the wolf wants. Sometimes, you need to let go to keep your mind healthy. When the heat comes, there’s no stopping it—certainly not between friends.
When a wolf and their human side are at odds for too long, it leads to chaos. The wolf eventually takes over, pursuing its desires without restraint.
The sheer delight from his gaze felt like a steady current of electricity coursing through me. I could feel a tingling sensation where his eyes lingered—my hips, my chest, and especially my lips.
“I’m sorry,” he said hoarsely, moving closer. He extended his arms, wrapping them around me from behind and gently lifting me so I was seated on his lap. He buried his nose in my neck and took a deep breath.
I didn’t realize how much I missed his touch until now. I was already planning to meet him, so using him to satisfy my wolf’s needs made me feel a pang of guilt.
I leaned in, wrapping my arms around his neck, savoring the moment as a wave of pleasure washed over me. Closing my eyes, I inhaled deeply, enjoying his intoxicating scent. “What’s up?” I murmured softly.
His lips brushed against my neck in a gentle touch. My wolf’s mark was present, and I tried to hide the subtle squirm of my body, but it was futile.
“For everything. For all of this… for my feelings, my wolf’s feelings… being at odds and trying to do right by everyone but failing.” His voice was muffled against my neck. I felt the strong muscles in his back tense under my hands, a deep longing evident. He craved my touch just as much as I craved his, and we held each other tightly in the mouth of the cave, wrapped in the soft glow of the lantern and moonlight.
"I understand that your wolf is like a parent to you," I said, scrunching my face up as the misery washed over me, "but the way you and Nixx have treated me has been really hurtful. It feels like you always side with her."
My heat was almost at its peak, and my emotions were raw with my partner by my side.
I gently let go of him and shifted away from his lap, sitting cross-legged in front of him. Our knees touched as we mirrored each other's position, but he kept his hands on my hips, causing my body to naturally lean towards his warmth.
"Why didn’t you want to meet up? You’ve been ignoring me for days…" he said, the hurt evident in his voice.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, savoring the refreshing night air. Moonlight bathed my face as I opened my eyes, creating a serene and tranquil atmosphere.
"To be honest, I wasn’t really ready to have that discussion yet. But my wolf insisted on seeing you, so I had planned to come to you tonight before all this happened... I just couldn’t lie about it." I paused, feeling a pang of guilt. "I kinda feel bad for not reaching out to you earlier. And now, I feel even worse... I know you're going through a tough time with all the family drama, but honestly, I’ve been feeling pretty numb myself. I wasn’t ready for this conversation. But deep down, I knew our wolves needed each other. And I get that you’re hurting because you didn’t become the Alpha..."
His warmth was comforting, making my wolf feel content and wag her tail happily. My skin felt pleasantly cool, and I wanted to get closer to Percival, to feel him near.
He let out a heavy sigh and looked down at me with a trace of sadness. "Being the Alpha never really mattered to me. I’ve never had any interest in it. My dad was the one who was excited about it. I don’t like having so much responsibility. It was nice to be loved by many, but now they all hate me anyway. They love you, not me. I feel weak. I only got involved because I wanted to make you proud, even when we couldn’t be together."
A little frown crept onto my face. "Percival, titles have never meant anything to me. Never."