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I decided to keep mute about the whole thing because in all honesty, her attitude is starting to piss me off.

She rants about how her day went, how she got into a fight with her boyfriend, and I just listened out of boredom without giving her an actual reply.

I hate when people think they know how you feel and gets judgemental on a certain situation that they haven't been in. Walk in my shoes and tell me if it is a beautiful one. Until then, don't act like you know me.

Even though she sounded like she was saying it out of concern, I can see through the act. It was all a deception. She likes Armani and that is not even my problem, but you can't be going around acting like you have it all when you are just as imperfect as others.

Luckily, Bella come to my rescue and finally show up.

I introduced them both to each other and they didn't seem to like each other. Not like I minded because Hattie seem to be a bitch.

Soon after, Hattie announced that she will be taking her leave and I smiled happily because she has been making me feel discomfort.

Once she leaves, Bella begin to question me on how I managed to be friends with that snub.

"You looked like you wanted her out though, what did she do?" She questioned mockingly.

"She is a fucking bitch. I didn't have to tell Ava a thing before she figures out my problem and there she is, criticising me, while she compliment my supposed husband. Who does that? You are envious of me, and you are saying it to my face. Coward was now hiding under the guise of me admiring her brother."

"Wait, chill out. You liked her brother?"

"No! I only met him yesterday and I didn't even know he is her brother. He is a complete gentleman, reminding me of my ideal type of men. But that was all. I didn't even remember him when I woke up until he followed her here. I wasn't expecting it."

"So she figured you like her brother."

"It was merely of admiration because of his good nature. What is the big deal?"

"Nothing, but others wouldn't see it as nothing. To them, you are married. They expect you to be loyal."

"Even though the whole marriage is a scam, I am still loyal! Not because of anyone, but because of my self respect. I couldn't do anything that will bring Shame on myself. You know that aside all these drama, my pride is really important to me.

" I know girl, I'm sorry if she made you feel this way, it must have really piss you off."

"It did, I'm not going to lie. Anyways, where did you go,? What took you so long to get back?"

"Hammer"

"What did he do this time?"

"Wrong question, it is what does he wants."

"Okay..."

"Me! He wants us back together. I know it's a mind game but I am ready to beat him at his own game. I will make him realize that I am no longer the naive girl he mistake me to be."

"Bel, ain't you digging your own grave with this stupid plan? Look at me! Am I not enough? Do you have to end up like me?"

"There is nothing wrong with you, Lila. You are just in an unfavourable situation, but things will go your way soonest. Be positive."

"I am tired of giving myself a false hope. Let hit the nail by it's head. I am stuck. And it's pathetic because everyone wants to split their damn opinion on me, but nobody wants to see or care enough to know how it feels. I feel miserable. Sometimes, I just want to end things but having such an amazing friend like you makes me reconsider. Bella I have been there, I am still there and I can gladly tell you that it's sickening and tiring. Do not get yourself in a mess you won't be able to deal with. Please, don't."

"Lila, me of all people understands your reasons. But we can't just let these men use and dumb us as they wish. Someone has to change the game, someone has to bear the pain, loss and whatsoever that comes with it. No pain no gain. Isn't that what you always say?"

"Yes, but that person doesn't have to be you. I don't know why you won't listen me. Bel, you need to understand that I do not give a damn about any of these people. I know am struggling, but sooner or later, I will figure something out and move on like nothing happened. But your case won't be the same. I know you are strong and all, but that is not enough. They will mess with your mental health and you will break down again. Bel, I don't ever want to see you in that condition again. These things you are getting yourself into might want to trigger it. Bella please, for my sake, stay out of trouble."

"Too bad, I said yes to him already"

"Bella, it will end in a lot of regrets."

"I know but it's worth it"

"No, it's not. You have feelings for this guy, Bella. You will get hurt."

"Gladly! If it makes you feel better, I am not doing it for you alone. I am doing it for myself too. Even though I am all aware of his toxicity, I am willing to stay with him. The feelings keeps on growing in me and I don't know what to do with them. The love is mixed with anger and hatred. Even though I want him down, I would like to stand by him, and what him fall."

"Isabella, this is not you. Let go, not everything you seek is seeking you. And to think of the kind of thoughts running in your head makes me feel sick. This guy has total control over you without making a move.

He invades your thought and you are so confused right now. You are about to fight a losing battle and not just with Hammer, but also, yourself. I didn't see any victory. Bel, give up while you still have the chance. Leave this city if that is what it takes. Change environment, meet new people and find a new love. You do not deserve any of this."

"I think way into it, than you thought"

"What have you done, Isabella?"

"The end justify the means."

"What is that suppose to mean?"

She didn't answer anymore of my questions and just leave instead.

I won't be there for her if she come back with a broken heart and regret. I warned her enough.