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After 6 weeks

Alex

I was driving Emma for school ... Emma was not so chatty that she use to be... may be it's because Aria is not there... fuck... sometime I think I made a biggest mistake of my life for letting Kate n Aria go... but if Aria is right?... no its not possible... i know its Aria who did this ... I know Emma talks to Kate daily on Skype&meet her in after school ..... Emma need her mother physically to be there not virtually.... I parked at Emma school n said ' come on princess your school is here'

Emma said ' Daddy can you bring mama n Aria home after school'

She asked this question always when I dropped her

I replied 'Emma I have told you already they're going to back but not now ... things are little bit difficult ...'

I don't know why I lie to her ... but I can't see her like this..

After dropping off school I turned two blocks a head n wait ... for Kate n Aria ... I usually wait for them to see how are they... sometimes I fucking miss kate so much that all I wanted to do go n dragged her into the car n take her home.... n sometimes I also want to see Aria... I miss her too... it surprise me too.., after all this drama I still want Aria be happy... although I have hurt her little heart a lot ... but most painful moments were when I broke her doll into two pieces ... yelled at her.. n when she said goodbye n said to forgive her... kate was right I become heartless... but what she did was also wrong ... she left me ... then I saw them.... I saw kate was picking Aria from the bus n put her down... it still fucking hurt n make me angry that why the hell she leave her car... obviously it will came handy to her.... but she using third class bus to travel... Aria was saying something but kate was lost in her thoughts... what she is thinking ... she looks so tired ... n she always look tired like that... Aria looks she lost some weight .... fuck .... did they need money... I didn't provide any allowance to kate... nor she asked ... then I saw Aria stop n bend to look her shoe ... I closely focused her shoes were little wore down n tear down... it was a gut wrenching moment for me here I have every luxury that life offers but my child is walking with a broken shoe... Kate kneel down n said something .. Aria nodded n then they were gone.

In the office I get myself busy with work because this will keep me going... but I was still distracted ... how kate n Aria are really doing... then I saw shawn coming in my office... After kate has gone ... Shawn n I have some heated argument where he told me what a ass im n how much I will regret it... but im really a egoism bastard ... I also fight with him... now seeing him realized me that I kinda of needed a friend.

He said ' here is the document that you needed ... its already checked n a contract has been made'

I replied ' Thanks dude... will you stop n have a coffee with me'

He reluctantly said ' you want to?

I sighs n said ' shawn im fucking sorry how I behave last time but you know im an asshole... but I really need a friend'

He said ' funny thats what kate said to me... sure dude a strong coffee I can have.

I called to bring coffee then I realized

I said ' wait you said kate .... what she said.. tell me how she is n Aria'?

He replied ' n why the hell are you interested in that... you don't want them remember'

I replied' she left me ... I didn't said anything about leaving'

He said ' Well you clearly want Aria to be leaving from your house... a person can only tolerate something that he can bear... but what you were suggesting to do with Aria was down cruel n heartless ... you made Kate to take that step...'

Shawn continues n said ' look you still have time to sort this out kate still worry about you .. she said me to not leave you.... so plz believe kate n Aria that Aria didn't push Emma.'

I said ' Shawn just leave it ... we already talk on this'

It was almost 4 o clock when I left the restaurant n see off the contractors with whom im had a meeting... my car was parked across the road ... but then I saw kate n Aria ... they were looking outside the shops... what they are doing? I don't know what makes my foot follow them... I was keeping some distance but not much that enables me to listen clearly.

Aria said ' but mama .. I want those shoe .. not this one we have brought'

Kate replied ' Aria these are also very good... n secondly they were very expensive... mama don't have alot of money right now to spend on a shoe ... you're very good girl try to understand that'

Aria said ' ok mama... im sorry I forget we are saving money for other things'

Kate said ' yup baby... but I promise I will buy you anything in Christmas '

Aria becomes happy in that ... but I didn't... they shouldn't save money ... because I have alot of them... whatever Aria want I will give her... but didn't I also cruelly take that too ... dont I remember what I did with her doll ...

They were looking outside of shops ... then Aria stop at one toy shop n pointed out n said ' mama... mama look... can I have this doll in Christmas ... please... I will also save money?'

Kate looked n even I looked... the doll was different yet very familiar .. then I realized it was the doll I give to Aria but her dress n size were different... that doll really meant something to Aria... n I destroyed it..

Kate looked n said 'ok.. I will buy it for you.. now come on you have to do your homework n I want to finish a little work in office then we are free to go'

Office .... what office.. I saw kate going straight to Holden printing press.... then it clicked it was Rachel father company.. she works here.. but shawn never told me.. then my phone rings it was Helen... fuck... what she wants.

Kate

'Come on Aria its bed time n leave the laptop n go brush your teeth'

'But mama let me finished this cartoons... n why don't we have tv... its so big in there...'

I replied ' cause we don't need it when we can watch in laptop.... n its also one of the saving part.. no go to washroom n come to sleep'

She run with her little feet... I unfolded the sofa cum bed then put sheets in it n waited for Aria... After I started my jobs in Holden printing press two weeks ago... I feel confident enough that I can do this... the salary is less n im overqualified for the job but when I saw the ad I jumped on it... I need a push up start... late I realized it was Rachel father company... when Rachel saw me there ... she try to convince me that she can hired me some better post but I stopped her taking some one post who is more needy n deserving doesn't set well with me to take that post... she reluctantly agreed. I felt skyp ringtone ... n saw it was Emma... my eyes tear up when I see her in school and right now... I called Aria n tell its Emma ... she runs n come n sit with me.. I connect with Emma .. n I saw martha face first

She said ' hello kate n Aria how are you...'

I said ' im good how are you Martha'

She replied ' im good kate.. n I missed you a lot..(I heard emma voice in background) ok ok miss emma here you go'

Emma face came n my eyes become teary ' mama.. how are you.. n when you are coming back...'

Emma always asked this

I replied ' baby ... I miss you so much.. I will come but little bit time will take ... here talk to Aria'

Then both sister were lost in their own conversation.. after it was time to say goodbye which was more difficult for me...

Aria n me laid together in sofa cum bed n Aria said ' mama I like this bed... cause we both share it together... so may be its not bad'

Aria knows how to break the tense moment n I smiled at her' yeah I think so'

Alex

Helen was sitting in my office across me

I said ' what... what the fuck is this Helen ... you know because of this how my life has turned?'

She remorseful said ' I m sorry Alex... I know ... n thats why im here to fix this ... when max n her nanny told me it was max who pushed emma .. I called you n come to tell you the truth'

I yelled ' how fuck you can fixed this... you know I made a terrible mistake... you know I was sending Aria to the boarding school... n because of that kate had taken Aria n left me... then how you are going to fix this... n tell me why your nanny lied at that time'

Helen said ' She became scared that she is going to lost her job if she take Max name but after few weeks she came n told me everything... when I asked Max .. he .. he told me.. that he didn't want to push emma.. it was Aria he wanted to push but some how Emma fell down.'

I stop breathing ... Aria.... he wanted to push Aria... fuck the feeling of protectivness was back for Aria... fuck what I did... Aria was telling the truth ... n I clearly ignored her... again... kate was begging me to hear her once but im so proud to get diwn a little bit

I said ' Helen its better you should go.. I have lot if things going on.. I need to do something else first'

She nodded n get out of my office'

And then I called Shawn.

...............................

Kate

' Kate ' well done kate ... it need some attention but you improve this piece of work more' my boss praise me

I replied ' im happy to do this work... if you want anything else im here '

He said ' no you go n have rest... n say hi to Aria'

I replied ' I will'

Luckily they offer day care facility ... one of the reason I like this job more...

I picked sleeping Aria from day care... she is becoming really tired with this schedule ... but we both are managing... I look the time ... I have 10 minutes to reach the bus stand... I always reach at nick of a time... n now im carrying Aria .. I don't know I will reach there on time or not.... I was walking n luckily I reach the stand before bus ... I sat for a moment n catch a breath... then I saw a black BMW stop at the stand ... I ignore that but when I saw who was getting out of the car ... I was stunned it was Alex... fuck.... what he is doing here..

Alex said ' Kate... come with me im gonna drop me'

I replied ' no thanks ... but how do you know I was here '

He run his hand on his hair n said...' I asked shawn about your apartment address but he told me you're going to be here... so I found you here... please kate I want to talk about something... please let me drop you'

I give him a look' what else is there to talk... wait you're really here to talk about divorce n prenuptial agreement'

He shake his nod ' NO ... kate.. no I never think about this but .. please come.. im taking you to your apartment not home ok.... I just want to talk n then you will decide'

What decide n what talk...

I looked at the watch bus was late n its getting late... I said ' ok but if you say something which disturb me n Aria im going to kick you out'

He give me a sad smile' well I deserves that but I won't say anything like that'

I try to stand but I was holding Aria which makes difficult for me to stand ... Alex came n said ' Give her to me.. I will hold her...'

When he bend to take her I hold her firmly n Alex eyes become sad by my action ' I know kate you have no reason to trust me with her but I swear on Emma im trying to change things for good that involved Aria too'

I lose my grip n hold Aria... n for the first time seeing them together bring back my emotions... he gently put her in her car seat n we drove towards my apartment.

Alex

Fuck it was more difficult to say anything... because honestly I feel so shame on myself ... that what I did.... I parked near Kate apartment ... we both get out of the car ... kate went to picked Aria but I told her to open the door ... I will hold her... she reluctantly say yes ... I hold Aria... I found her to be very tired cause never open her eyes in whole drive... I kissed her forehead ... n feel ... for the first time love for her... I truly hurt her more ... a little child should not ever treated like this by her father ... when we reached her apartment... or I say a tiny room .... my jaw tick... but its my fault..

Kate said' let me turned this sofa into bed then we are going to talk'

Fuck they don't even have bed.... no ... they will have ... they will not stay here any more... kate was busy turning the bed... n then Aria lifted her head n have a confused expression .. she looks at my face n then again n said ' Daddy... mama daddy is here'

I smiled at her ' yeah babay .. im here... n...

I was about to say sorry but kate came took her from my hand

Kate said ' Daddy n I are going to talk you can sleep a little then we will prepare dinner ok..'

Aria nodded her sleepy head n fall asleep.

Kate n I sit in the small kitchen of here. . kate gives me the coffee n sit

I said ' Thanks.... so you live here?

' n what's wrong here...'

' kate its so tiny... I mean our store room is bigger than this'

She replied ' Well Aria n I have no problem here ... so what you want to talk about'

I take a breath n said ' im sorry... Im so sorry for everything.... today Helen come in my office n told me it was Max who pushed Emma .... actually Max wanted to push Aria ... but when she told me I left everything n try to find you... Kate I know I don't have words to describe how sorry im but please forgive me n come back'

Kate replied ' I told you listen to her once Alex... for one once .... but you were believing more into logic's than your own daughter... I can't you have hurt Aria very much'

I picked her hand ' im going to say sorry to her too... im going to accept her... n love her very much Kate... just give me a chance'

Kate shake her head ' no... no Alex .. I can't trust you.. you say now you will accept her... but after sometimes something will happen n then you will treat Aria n me like Shit... no... I can't repeat all of this...'

I desperately picked her face n say ' kate im not lying... I have these feelings from very start of all of this but im arrogant enough to accept that .... Kate I start feeling for you too long time aga n now im going to say that I have fallen..

' no Alex... don't say that... I know you want me home .. but you're bringing this thing is not right...'

I replied ' ok .. ok I will not say this right now but one day I will ... but kate..

She said ' I can't come home until n unless im trust you enough that you truly want me n Aria ...'

I put my head in my head ... its more difficult than I imagine...

I said ' ok... I will do anything do gain your trust n your love.... but kate... I will come daily meet you n spend some time with Aria ... n I will try to be a best father to her'

Kate think a little ' you can talk to Aria tomorrow ... not right now... you can come here at this time... n ... if its ok can please bring Emma with you'

I replied ' of course... I will... n kate... please take your kate... I don't like it when you take the bus ... its dangerous too... please take the car'

She replied ' no I will not... n im ok with bus ... n no more arguments on this'

I sighs ' ok whatever you say.... I will go na ... emma is, waiting... take care'

She come to door ' bye Alex'

I stopped for a moment n I kissed her hard n passionately... we both remove her face n I said ' I missed you so much kate... I have to do this other wise I dont know how to go from here'

She doesn't say anything n nor did I .. n I left.

Kate

I was waiting for the bus, again n now, emma is awake then I saw Alex car n Emma coming out from the car... she run n hug me ... my eyes started to tear up n I hold her' Emma... oh... god I miss you so much'

Emma said ' me too mama but daddy say I can live with you today.. its so fun na'

I emotionally nodded at her n saw Alex ... I said' I thought you coming home'

He replied ' well if you're not taking car than im going to pick up daily'

I said ' Alex seriously there is no need.. I can

He cut me ' no I will do it still'

Then he looked passed me ... his expression changed to emotional n guilty he said ' Aria... hi.. how are you'

Aria slowly picked my hand n look down n said ' good daddy'

He nodded n said ' ok let's go everyone '

When we reached my apartment ... I saw Alex was holding some stuff..

He looked n said ' I thought to bring some dinner too'

I replied ' Alex I can cook dinner you know that'

He smiled ' n I missed that too much but you're tired so I thought to bring something'

I replied ' there is no need but still thank you'

I was in the kitchen putting food n emma was with me chatting about her school ... Aria was in the living room watching cartoons on laptop ... then I saw Alex ' kate. .. can I talk to Aria? I hope you have told her'

I nodded ' I did but be careful she is little ... upset n afraid so'

His flinched n nodded ..

Alex

I saw Aria was sitting n watching cartoons on laptop... hell there's no tv here too.. I shake my head .. n sit with my daughter. It feels so good to say that.. I saw Aria becomes tense when she saw I sit with her.. n my eyes tear up .. fuck what did I do with her.... I said ' Aria.. so what you doing?'

She looked down n said ' cartoons'

I replied ' oh good.. n these once are your favorite I remember'

She nodded... fuck how should I start.

I said ' Aria can I talk to you'

She looked me with my blue eyes n said ok

I said ' you know daddy is so sorry to yell at you n then broke doll .. n

I saw Aria shake her body... she is still scared of me... I said ' hey ... im sorry... don't be scared... come here.. sit on my lap'

I picked her n put her on my lap ... I kissed her hair which smell with sweet fruit shampoo n she looked me with her big blue eyes ... I kissed her cheeks n one tear fall from ... my eyes.. She is so innocent n beautiful n I hurt her so much... I can't stopped myself to hug her small body n kissed her head n cheeks ... its like im making up for all the time I ignored her... but I know I lost the time become of my stupidity... I said ' I know it was max n he pushed Aria not you ... n I m so sorry ... so sorry not listening you .... please forgive me Aria... please forgive daddy...'

N my face were fully covered with tears...

Aria bring her small hand... n remove my tears n said ' its ok daddy... don't cry... I don't like it ... mama says to forgive some one if he say sorry so I forgive you...

I hugged her tightly n said ' Aria im, sorry for everything .... I know I wasn't a good daddy to you but I will from now.... cause daddy love you so much... I can't even tell you... how much you mean to me'

Aria smiled n said ' I love you too daddy ... so so so much'

I kissed her cheeks n she kissed mine n she said ' can we go home now daddy If you're not angry with me'

N it was like gut wrenching moment ... she thinks she is not home because im angry.. I said ' I want you to come home right now but you're mama need some time ... she is little upset so I have to make her happy ... will you help me in that'

She make a o face n said ' daddy I will help you ... then we will go home'

I smiled ' yes n I will give world to you n mama'