I was lazy and irritated when I left her office and then went to our working office to put away my belongings. Yerim greeted me sadly and hugged me tightly.
“Why are you still leaving? I thought you'll stay here for life?” she said angrily to me as she just watched me put away my things.
Rafa isn’t here. She said she went out for a while to buy coffee. Maybe she just meant to go to Sebastian. I know something else is happening to the two of them.
“I am moving somewhere. The company is also close to here,” I told her lazily.
She almost sat in my swivel chair and looked at me intently.
“Are you sure about this? You can still withdraw your resignation if you want," she said, sadness clouding her features.
I simply nodded at her. I pulled out a swivel chair and then sat down next to her while looking at my belongings.
As much as I wanted to withdraw my resignation, it was also not possible because that is what Miss Rochelle said. Also, I never thought I would be able to write this time. I feel like I suddenly lost the willingness to write because of what happened. Maybe for others, it’s not a big deal, but for me, it’s a big deal.
I grew up with so much decency. I didn't even learn to drink or make friends even when I was in high school. Only Yerim is with me often. When I joined this company we then met Rafa. Only my mind knows everything because of writing, but I haven’t done almost everything in real life. So maybe I'm too late to dress up because I'm too focused on working.
So when that thing happened to us, it was as if I lost half of my being. I’ve even done it with a person I didn’t know. How can I fucking do that?
“As long as you still visit the staff house often. We were just there all the time. If only you could just stay there so it's still fine somehow,” Yerim said to me and rolled her eyes at me.
"Or we can visit you when you move," Rafa uttered and gave me a hug.
Before we could cry, we said goodbye to each other.
I decided to go home first to tell mom what had happened. When I got home she was the only one I came across because Arthur is in school.
"Have you eaten? Your brother left for school,” she greeted me and took my two boxes.
I just looked at her with traces of a tired face. Even though I told her not to work anymore, she still took the laundry to the neighbor to do the laundry. It is as if she is somehow contributing to this house.
I sighed violently and went straight to the table. I just took off my coat because I already felt body heat.
“How was your interview? I'm sorry, Rae. I can still work— ”
"Not really. You need to rest so that your back pain does not get worse. On my next day off, we will have that check-up,” I interrupted her as I just watched her prepares me food.
She forced a smile and gave me a sad look. Then she took my hand.
"Your brother and I are very lucky to have you, Rae," she genuinely said to me. Her mouth curved into a smile.
After I told her about my decision, I just let myself rest in my room. This is my first break this month and I’m sure tomorrow won’t be all easy. I can act professionally in front of him as long as he doesn’t disturb me during work hours. I can just ignore him but I don't think so because he's my boss. I am his secretary. If I only knew this was going to happen I would have just moved to another department. I can edit and proofread some manuscripts! I wish I was just there.
The other day was so hard for me because I felt like he was really joking. I wish I had a happy job because I already know a lot of people, apart from the fact that they come to me on purpose when I try to keep quiet, they just really want to know me because of my courage to apply as his secretary.
Just like this guy who's been around me for a long time since my first day here.
"Everything alright?" he asked me when he saw that maybe I was just standing on the edge of my table.
I'm looking forward to what that man will order from me next.
I smiled selflessly then nodded. I sat down on my own swivel chair.
I want to quit. What if I just quit and apply again as an editor and proofreader? Then like this. I don't think I can handle this.
I quickly picked up my cellphone and typed a message for Miss Rochelle, asking if I could re-apply as an editor.
Miss Rochelle
Be patient with that, Rae. I’ll inform you when I need an editor.
My shoulder dropped as I put my cell phone back in my bag. Life was messing up with me and I can’t make move, not because I don’t want to but because life was just so powerful that I couldn’t win over it.
"Are you really okay? I’m Jaxon, by the way,” I heard someone say.
I blinked my eyes and looked at him.
"Maybe you should have lunch first. Wanna join me?” he asked me softly.
I smiled awkwardly and eventually joined him. As we walked towards the restaurant of this building he was talking to me.
“You can always talk to me. I'm with you at break time,” he said as if I was enjoying what he was talking about.
I shook his hand as he laid his palm in front of me.
“Astraea... just call me Rae,” I told him lazily.
We had lunch together while talking about some stuff, but that ‘man’ was still really intruding on my mind.
Why did we meet again and in this way? It never entered my mind that he would still be my boss. I still thought that he would not come home to Manila because it looks like they have already arranged for that woman.
I can act with no malice in front of him but my mind really can’t, because every time I see him, I remember what happened to us that night. The naked version of him is still haunting my mind and I don’t think there are any plans to leave my mind anymore.
When we finished, I went back to my table. I’ve been sitting here almost all day and not knowing what to do.
I turned around and noticed again Jaxon still staring at me. It turned to me and leaned on my table.
“Fine. You can ask me,” he said and smirked at me.
I just smiled.
"What should I do?" I asked him, pertaining to my office works.
"Did Sir Levi order you anything?" He asked.
I frowned and tilted my head.
"You haven't done anything before?" This is a shocking question to me.
I saw him shake his head again.
"Just wait for his order," he said simply. I just nodded and smiled at him.
He looks kind. And handsome, too.
A few more hours passed and it was late at night. The employees are leaving one by one. Even Jaxon has gone home. I was the only one outside his office, waiting to see if he would order something else or if I would go home.
I decided to grab a coffee and sit down at my table. I took off my coat, exposing my chest and arm. I don't know why I'm hot and at the same time, I'm cold.
Later, I was surprised when he suddenly came out of his office and looked straight at me from head to toe. I saw him stop looking at my chest so my eyes widened.
"Damn!" He hissed and averted his eyes from me.
I quickly put on a coat and grabbed my coffee. I hesitated to smile at him.
"Uh... coffee?" I asked him.
"Fix your things and we'll be leaving," he said while still frowning and biting his lower lip. Still not looking at me and swearing in the air.
"Come with me to my condo," he added.
I suddenly find him so sexy, but he was so complicated. Why does he still seem angry with the two of us? And why do I have to go with him to his condo?