Chapter 37

FAITH

I'm exhausted, when we get back from the shower with Chris I dry myself off and go straight to bed, I fall into a deep sleep immediately my head hits the pillow I was so exhausted, I wake up a few hours later hungry, I can't find Chris in the bedroom I guess he must be in the office I go downstairs to see if I can find a truck to eat in the kitchen, I come across Leïla in the living room

Me: ehhhh hi

Leila laughing: hello! how are you

Me: yes it's ok and you?

Leila: it's ok, I waited for you all morning so that you tell me about yesterday evening in vain but then I realized that you were busy and that I couldn't see you "laughing"

Me smiling: yes I was sleeping, I just woke up I'm too hungry

Leila laughing: yes it looks like someone had erotic dreams

Me smiling: he was just trying to help me have the baby more easily, he will be here soon so we try to facilitate his arrival “laugh”

Leila laughing: I see, I hope you can clear a path for her

Me smiling: don't worry until the time comes we'll help him find his way, what did he eat I'm really hungry

Leila: there are morning croissants on the worktop in the kitchen, help yourself

Me heading to the kitchen: I want a real meal, croissants won't help me gain energy

I heard her laugh in the living room, I feel drained of energy, I want to go to bed, when I enter the kitchen I have a few croissants and biscuits with juice before going to join Leïla in the living room , when she sees me she cries of astonishment

Leila surprised: do you want to feed a troop or what?

Me engulfing myself: you know very well that I eat for two "laughs"

About yesterday it was magical, like in fairy tales, look at my ring "showing him the ring on my finger"

Leila all existed: she is very, very beautiful

I start telling her how the evening went, she was so happy, we started by planning the wedding, her and I, we've been waiting for this moment forever and now one of us is going to live it

Me repeating: so you knew everything and you didn't even warn me

Leila: it wouldn't have been a surprise and it would have spoiled the magic of the event

Me: yes you are right

Chris in the office?

Leila: no he went out he says who he is going to see Jordan that you will understand

Me: yes Jordan is his pilot, you will understand that the departure has arrived and by the end of the week or the beginning of next week we will leave, I hope you will not change your mind yet

Leila taking a serious look: don't worry, I have nothing keeping me here, and the further I am from here, the better off I will be.

Me straightening up: you miss him don't you?

Leila: it's the best decision to make, I don't want to live in fear or have this guilt of knowing that I'm stealing another woman's happiness, I so regret having had this relationship , even if he tells me that I am not the cause of their breakup I know deep down that I was the trigger if not right now he would still be with his wife

If I hadn't had a romantic relationship with him, he wouldn't have separated from his wife, I no longer want to live with this guilt, and this fear.

Me facing him: you don't have to feel guilty, it's not your fault what happened

" A few days later…. »

We are on our way to the hangar where Chris's jet is staying, I will say that the goodbyes were difficult with mom kadi, she has become like a second mother to me, I have gotten so used to her and her precious advice , now I will have to manage alone with Leïla as we have been doing for some time, at least now our little family has grown with Chris and the baby who is on the way, we will never be alone again

Me who found myself alone after the death of my mother a few months ago, me who thought I was alone without anyone except Leïla, today I have a man by my side who loves me and who will be there for me throughout my life and we will soon have a child who will love us in spite of everything, who will certainly give us headaches sometimes but he will be the fruit of our love, and thanks to him we will never feel alone God does so much good things

I hope that my Leïla could forget these men and rebuild her life, also create her family, find a man she will love and who will love her in return, someone who will give her the strength to fight every day, someone someone with whom all the problems will have solutions, someone with whom she will not be afraid to face the problems of life and with whom she will form her little family as she has always dreamed of.

Today we are leaving Lomé and leaving all the problems behind us, from the loss of my mother, the period of my semi-depression, the discovery of my pregnancy, the father of which I never thought I would find, to Leïla's confrontation with the wife and her boyfriend's daughter until the loss of her baby, today we leave behind all these misadventures, we turn the page and hope to write a new story, a new Chapter of our life which will not necessarily always be pink but that we will face as long as we are together

We arrive and get on Chris's jet around 11:30 a. m., get cleared to take off half an hour later, I'm looking out the window, replaying these crazy past few months that go through my head like a movie and I couldn't stop those tears from falling it was half tears of sadness and relief

Now all that remains for me to do is to make sure to keep my family united and do everything to make them happy, I intend to do everything to succeed in my mission, I buckle my belt and Chris next to me takes my hands, I turn to him and we kiss tenderly, it's the beginning of a new adventure….